Bu d\u0259f\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 qap\u0131lardan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7d\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Birind\u0259 vaxtil\u0259 deputat olmu\u015f, ail\u0259sini, \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itkil\u0259rl\u0259 xat\u0131rlayan Mirvari M\u0259mm\u0259dova, birind\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 q\u0131z atas\u0131 olan, h\u0259yat\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn suallar\u0131na sakit v\u0259 s\u0259rt cavab verm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan 76 ya\u015fl\u0131 K\u0259rim K\u0259rimov, dig\u0259rind\u0259 is\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 televiziyaya h\u0259sr ed\u0259n, \u00f6z g\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 \u0259ld\u0259 etdikl\u0259rini itir\u0259n, daya\u011f\u0131 olan o\u011flu \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck h\u0259bs\u0259 m\u0259hkum edil\u0259n M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t Rzaxanova var.<\/p>\n
M\u00fcsahib\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn haz\u0131rla\u015fanda ah\u0131llardan biri bizi g\u00f6r\u0259r\u0259k bel\u0259 deyir:<\/p>\n
“M\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 gedirs\u0259n – imtahan, universitet\u0259 gedirs\u0259n – imtahan, burada da sor\u011fu-sual, \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 imtahan”.<\/p>\n
\u0130lk m\u00fcsahibimiz Mirvari M\u0259mm\u0259dovad\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Mirvari xan\u0131mla salamla\u015f\u0131b hal-\u0259hval tutandan sonra “Bura g\u0259lmi\u015fik ki, sizin h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131z bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faq”, – deyir\u0259m. Mirvari xan\u0131m\u0131n k\u00f6vr\u0259kliyini el\u0259 bu s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n hiss edir\u0259m:<\/p>\n
“H\u0259yat\u0131m… eh”.<\/p>\n
– Mirvari xan\u0131m, nec\u0259 oldu ki, ah\u0131llar evinin sakini oldunuz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u018fvv\u0259ld\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m?<\/p>\n – Siz\u0259 nec\u0259 rahatd\u0131rsa.<\/strong><\/p>\n “Q\u0131z\u0131m, m\u0259nim yax\u015f\u0131 evim-e\u015fiyim var idi. “\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k-bulka” kombinat\u0131nda texnoloq i\u015fl\u0259yirdim. 1983-c\u00fc ild\u0259, iyirmi yeddi ya\u015f\u0131m olanda N\u0259rimanov rayonu \u00fczr\u0259 deputat se\u00e7ildim. Qabaqc\u0131l i\u015f\u00e7i idim, el\u0259 bir bayram yox idi ki, t\u0259ltif olunmay\u0131m. \u0130\u015fl\u0259diyim kombinata bax\u0131\u015f ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259nim \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rimi d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib Moskvaya g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Sonra m\u0259ni d\u0259 oraya d\u0259v\u0259t el\u0259dil\u0259r, amma atam\u0131n xasiyy\u0259ti t\u00fcnd oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 “q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131san, getm\u0259”, – dedi”.<\/p>\n – Evli olmusunuz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – B\u0259li.<\/p>\n Dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa davam edir:\u00a0<\/strong>“1993-c\u00fc ild\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 T\u0259rt\u0259rin C\u0259milli k\u0259ndin\u0259 apard\u0131lar. Onlar orada erm\u0259nil\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259lli metr m\u0259saf\u0259d\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbl\u0259r. Bir g\u00fcn qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc, a\u00e7d\u0131m ki, qon\u015fudur. Dedi ki, s\u0259nin yolda\u015f\u0131n d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra d\u0259li olub. S\u0259h\u0259ri g\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n icaz\u0259 al\u0131b B\u0259rd\u0259y\u0259 yolland\u0131m. Dedil\u0259r ki, otur, g\u00f6zl\u0259, yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tiririk. G\u0259ldi, amma he\u00e7 kimi, he\u00e7 n\u0259yi tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 deyildi, yaral\u0131yd\u0131. Gah g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc, gah a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, onu evd\u0259 sa\u011falda bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, apard\u0131m dispanser\u0259. On iki il orada qald\u0131, ax\u0131rda da…” – deyib a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n – N\u0259 oldu yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131za?<\/strong><\/p>\n – H\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdiniz… 2006-c\u0131 ild\u0259 Bak\u0131ya g\u00fccl\u00fc qar ya\u011fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259min g\u00fcn dispanser yand\u0131, yolda\u015f\u0131m da orada v\u0259fat etdi. \u0130nan\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, yer o q\u0259d\u0259r buz tutmu\u015fdu ki, biz qaz\u0131b onu d\u0259fn ed\u0259 bilmirdik. Ax\u0131rda traktor \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131q, o bir t\u0259h\u0259r q\u0259bir qazd\u0131. Yolda\u015f\u0131m z\u00fclml\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fc, d\u0259fni d\u0259 z\u00fclml\u0259 oldu.<\/p>\n – Mirvari xan\u0131m, b\u0259s bu evlilikd\u0259n \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131z olub?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Bir q\u0131z\u0131m, bir d\u0259 o\u011flum var idi. Q\u0131z\u0131m r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getdi, o\u011flum da ki…<\/p>\n – N\u0259 olub o\u011flunuza?<\/strong><\/p>\n – O \u00e7ox savadl\u0131 u\u015faq idi. \u0130ki diplomu var idi, m\u0259kt\u0259bi d\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 diplomla bitirmi\u015fdi, h\u00fcquq\u015f\u00fcnas i\u015fl\u0259yirdi, ba\u015f leytenant idi. Amma indi h\u0259bsd\u0259dir.<\/p>\n – Niy\u0259 h\u0259bs olunub?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Ham\u0131dan pul al\u0131b, i\u015fi boynuna g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, sonra da ki…<\/p>\n – Ne\u00e7\u0259 il sonra azadl\u0131\u011fa burax\u0131lacaq?<\/strong><\/p>\n “On ildir i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259dir, q\u0131z\u0131m. \u00c7\u0131xd\u0131, bir il i\u015fl\u0259di, sonra i\u015f ba\u011flanmad\u0131, yenid\u0259n alt\u0131 il yar\u0131m c\u0259za verdil\u0259r”.<\/p>\n Mirvari xan\u0131m ah\u0131llar evinin i\u015f\u00e7isind\u0259n xahi\u015f edir ki, onun ota\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 siyirm\u0259d\u0259n o\u011flunun \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini g\u0259tirsin. \u015e\u0259kill\u0259r g\u0259tiril\u0259nd\u0259n sonra o\u011flunun \u015f\u0259kild\u0259ki \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259-\u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259 ondan b\u0259hs edir:<\/p>\n G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, “Bax bu \u015f\u0259kl\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131m, he\u00e7 dey\u0259rs\u0259n ki, burada birinci sinifd\u0259 oxuyur? Ya\u015f\u0131ndan b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130lk d\u0259rs g\u00fcn\u00fc direktor ota\u011fa girib deyib ki, s\u0259n \u00f6z sinfin\u0259 get. O\u011flum da evd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259n u\u015faq idi, bu s\u00f6zd\u0259n sonra a\u011flay\u0131b deyib ki, m\u0259ni niy\u0259 sinifd\u0259n qovurlar?”, – s\u00f6yl\u0259yir.<\/p>\n Mirvari xan\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 yen\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r p\u0259rd\u0259si \u00e7\u0259kilir.<\/p>\n O\u011flu il\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini g\u00f6st\u0259rir:<\/p>\n “Dey\u0259rs\u0259n ki, bu qad\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259m? O q\u0259d\u0259r toylara gedirdim ki, yorulmu\u015fdum daha, ancaq zeytun yeyirdim. Adam n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r kabab yey\u0259r?”<\/p>\n – N\u0259 olub ki siz\u0259? \u0130ndi d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l xan\u0131ms\u0131n\u0131z.<\/strong><\/p>\n – Yox, \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m, q\u0131z\u0131m.<\/p>\n “Bax, bu \u015f\u0259kil deputat olanda \u00e7\u0259kilib”, – deyib \u015f\u0259kli \u0259lim\u0259 uzad\u0131r.<\/p>\n “1983-c\u00fc ild\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib bu. \u0130kinci d\u0259f\u0259 deputatl\u0131\u011fa namiz\u0259dliyimi verm\u0259yimi ist\u0259dil\u0259r, amma o\u011flumun bir ya\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 raz\u0131 olmad\u0131m. \u0130claslara get, gec\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259sind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 – al\u0131nm\u0131rd\u0131”.<\/p>\n – Ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir buradas\u0131n\u0131z?<\/strong><\/p>\n – May\u0131n iyirmi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri buradayam. Martda o\u011flumu yenid\u0259n \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131lar, m\u0259n d\u0259 bura g\u0259lm\u0259li oldum.<\/p>\n – B\u0259s g\u0259lininiz var? O\u011flunuz evli idi?<\/strong><\/p>\n “El\u0259 ona heyfsil\u0259nir\u0259m. Evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 vaxt\u0131 olmad\u0131, art\u0131q q\u0131rx ya\u015f\u0131 var”, – deyir.<\/p>\n – Qohum-\u0259qrabalar\u0131n\u0131zla \u0259laq\u0259niz var? G\u0259lib-gedirl\u0259r?<\/strong><\/p>\n – O\u011flumdan sonra ham\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259ni k\u0259sdim. Bir u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m var, o da i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259. M\u0259n he\u00e7 bir qohuma pis olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, evl\u0259rin\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259li dolu gedirdim, xeyir i\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 qoyun-quzu apar\u0131rd\u0131m. Qap\u0131m\u0131zda iki ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131m\u0131z var idi, indi he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur. Ax\u0131rda da x\u0259st\u0259lik tapd\u0131m.<\/p>\n – N\u0259yiniz var, n\u0259 olub?<\/strong><\/p>\n – X\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng x\u0259st\u0259liyin\u0259 tutuldum, \u0259m\u0259liyyat olundum. Onun ard\u0131nca \u015f\u0259k\u0259rli diabet g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n Bir qohum q\u0131z var idi, o\u011fluma dedim, g\u0259l, onlara el\u00e7i ged\u0259k. Bu g\u00fcn-sabah ed\u0259-ed\u0259 ax\u0131rda da evl\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n – \u00c7ox ist\u0259yirdiniz evl\u0259nm\u0259yini?<\/strong><\/p>\n – O q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox…<\/p>\n – B\u0259s bura nec\u0259, uy\u011funla\u015fa bilirsiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n “\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259. F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim var burada. Onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 o\u011flum yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim ya\u015far\u0131r. El\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, o, o\u011flumdur… O\u011fluma alt\u0131 il veribl\u0259r, \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m, bilir\u0259m ki, o h\u0259bsd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xana q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259n ya\u015famayaca\u011fam”, – deyib a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n – Siz \u0259laq\u0259ni k\u0259smisiniz, b\u0259s bac\u0131n\u0131z, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z, onlar\u0131n u\u015faqlar\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rlar sizinl\u0259?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Qohumlar\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7oxu v\u0259zif\u0259d\u0259dir, adlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m, utan\u0131ram. M\u0259nim u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 ham\u0131 ondan m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t al\u0131rd\u0131, indi bel\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yi adam\u0131 incidir. M\u0259n \u0259yilm\u0259z qad\u0131n idim.<\/p>\n – \u0130ndi d\u0259 \u0259yilm\u0259misiniz.<\/strong><\/p>\n “T\u0259k g\u0259z\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, m\u00fctl\u0259q kimd\u0259ns\u0259 tutub g\u0259zm\u0259liy\u0259m. Bac\u0131m\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 hakimdir, z\u0259ng edir ki, xala, n\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259, al\u0131m g\u0259tirim. Deyir\u0259m ki, m\u0259n bu il yayda \u00fc\u00e7 bac\u0131 dolmas\u0131 yem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m…” – deyib a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n – A\u011flamay\u0131n…<\/strong><\/p>\n “Q\u0131z\u0131m, vaxt var idi ki, m\u0259n bolluq i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m. O\u011flum h\u0259r \u015feyi ye\u015fikl\u0259 al\u0131rd\u0131. Deyirdim, iki n\u0259f\u0259rik, qoy imkans\u0131zlara paylay\u0131m”.<\/p>\n – Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z n\u0259d\u0259n r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 gedib?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Ana b\u0259tnind\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb. Deyir\u0259m, ka\u015f ki, o qalard\u0131, m\u0259n indi onun yan\u0131nda oturard\u0131m. O\u011flum S\u0259ng\u0259\u00e7alda h\u0259bsxanadad\u0131r, yan\u0131na ged\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, \u00e7ox uzaqd\u0131r, taksi gedib-g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 y\u00fcz manat al\u0131r. Fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m ki, h\u0259min pulu el\u0259 o\u011fluma g\u00f6nd\u0259rim. G\u0259lib burada u\u015faqlara verir\u0259m ki, bunu o\u011fluma g\u00f6nd\u0259rin.<\/p>\n – O\u011flunuz \u00e7\u0131xar, in\u015fallah, siz d\u0259 ondan sonra \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131zla ya\u015fayars\u0131n\u0131z.<\/strong><\/p>\n – M\u0259n o vaxta qalmayaca\u011fam.<\/p>\n – A\u011flatd\u0131m sizi, \u00fczrl\u00fc say\u0131n.<\/strong><\/p>\n – M\u0259n s\u0259ni a\u011flatd\u0131m, q\u0131z\u0131m. O\u011flum yeni h\u0259bs olunanda hara baxsam, onu g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm, amma indi onun u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131ram. A\u011fappaq u\u015faq idi, indi d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n Mirvari xan\u0131mla vidala\u015f\u0131b dig\u0259r m\u00fcsahibimizl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. Q\u0259rara g\u0259lirik ki, h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 g\u0259z\u0259-g\u0259z\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259k.<\/strong><\/p>\n Mirvari xan\u0131mla s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n h\u0259r an\u0131nda imtahan oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259n ah\u0131l m\u00fcsahibim K\u0259rim K\u0259rimov imi\u015f.<\/p>\n “Qad\u0131nlar \u00e7ox emosionald\u0131rlar”, – deyir K\u0259rim day\u0131.<\/p>\n Soru\u015furam:<\/p>\n – Siz emosional deyilsiniz ki?<\/strong><\/p>\n “M\u0259n \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram ki, emosiyalara qap\u0131lmay\u0131m”.<\/p>\n – K\u0259rim day\u0131, ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131z var?<\/strong><\/p>\n – 76.<\/p>\n – Ail\u0259lisiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u0130dim. Yolda\u015f\u0131m on \u00fc\u00e7 ildir r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 gedib, \u00fc\u00e7 q\u0131z\u0131m var. \u0130ndiki u\u015faqlar\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259sinin \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131, \u00f6z qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 var. M\u0259n onlara \u0259lav\u0259 y\u00fck olmaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n – Buraya g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r harada ya\u015fam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z?<\/strong><\/p>\n – M\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259t-bacada i\u015fl\u0259yirdim, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259rin ba\u011f\u0131na qulluq edirdim, h\u0259min evl\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n – Niy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131n\u0131z oradan?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Ya ev yiy\u0259si evi sat\u0131b, m\u0259cbur olub \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam, ya veril\u0259n maa\u015f qane etm\u0259yib, yaxud evin \u015f\u0259raiti yax\u015f\u0131 olmay\u0131b, kiray\u0259 pulu art\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b, \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n – Burada dostlar\u0131n\u0131z var?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Dost se\u00e7m\u0259k \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir. Buradak\u0131 sakinl\u0259r m\u0259nim qon\u015fular\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n “Siz\u0259 bir m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, unutmay\u0131n”, – deyir K\u0259rim day\u0131.<\/p>\n “A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131zdan \u00e7\u0131xan h\u0259r s\u00f6z\u0259 diqq\u0259t edin. \u0130nsan\u0131n dediyi h\u0259r \u015fey g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. N\u0259 s\u0259pirs\u0259ns\u0259, onu y\u0131\u011f\u0131rsan. G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131z sizin \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rinizin c\u0259zas\u0131n\u0131, yaxud xeyrini g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k”.<\/p>\n – Siz nec\u0259 ata olmusunuz b\u0259s?<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, q\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc d\u0259 institut bitirib.<\/p>\n – B\u0259s niy\u0259 onlarla ya\u015fam\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? Valideyn \u00f6vlada y\u00fck deyil ax\u0131?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Haz\u0131rda y\u00fckd\u00fcr. \u0130ndiki g\u0259ncl\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u015fl\u0131lar\u0131n xasiyy\u0259ti tutmur. \u0130st\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 buradan icaz\u0259 al\u0131b gedib bir-iki g\u00fcn yanlar\u0131nda qal\u0131ram.<\/p>\n – Yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131zdan sonra evl\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259diniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Bel\u0259 d\u0259 yaz: qad\u0131n bu ya\u015fda ki\u015fi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn problemdir. Problemd\u0259n uzaq durmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. \u018fg\u0259r Tanr\u0131 s\u0259ni problemd\u0259n qoruyursa, dem\u0259li, onun bir bildiyi var.<\/p>\n – B\u0259s sizc\u0259, insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yatda karyera vacibdir, yoxsa ail\u0259?<\/strong><\/p>\n – M\u0259n h\u0259yatda h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u00fcst\u00fcn Tanr\u0131n\u0131 tuturam, sonra ail\u0259ni, daha sonra tan\u0131\u015f-bili\u015fi, qohum-\u0259qraban\u0131, sonda is\u0259 i\u015fi.<\/p>\n – \u0130\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ail\u0259sini t\u0259rk edib ged\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 nec\u0259 bax\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Buna d\u00fczg\u00fcn baxm\u0131ram. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, pula, var-d\u00f6vl\u0259t\u0259 aldan\u0131b hans\u0131sa \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 gedib ax\u0131rda da u\u011fursuzluqla geri d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259ns\u0259, he\u00e7 getm\u0259s\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n V\u0259t\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Burada bir par\u00e7a \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin olsun, amma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn olsun. Kimins\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n. Azad olmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n “Bilirs\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m, valideynin q\u0259drini bilm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. O q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6vlad g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m ki, valideyni r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra onun q\u0259brinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcrl\u0259r. Vaxt\u0131nda ana-ata q\u0259drini bilm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r onlar \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra a\u011flay\u0131rlar. Diri olan vaxt b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259rin q\u0259drini bilm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r”.<\/p>\n Bu sual\u0131 verib-verm\u0259m\u0259k aras\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m, sonra is\u0259 soru\u015furam:<\/p>\n – Day\u0131, sizc\u0259, \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131z sizin q\u0259drinizi bilirl\u0259r?<\/strong><\/p>\n \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259inaml\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 “M\u0259n onlardan raz\u0131yam”, – deyir:\u00a0<\/strong>“\u00d6vlad nec\u0259 olursa-olsun, onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Tanr\u0131ya dua etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. \u00d6vladlar\u0131m\u0131za g\u00f6r\u0259 Tanr\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda cavabdehik. Gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7 q\u0131z\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dua edir\u0259m. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr ki, Tanr\u0131n\u0131n \u0259li onlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259dir”.<\/p>\n K\u0259rim ki\u015fi il\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7irik. Orada sonuncu m\u00fcsahibim var: M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t Rzaxanova.<\/strong><\/p>\n Onun ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcb i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7irik. Otaqdak\u0131 masa\u00fcst\u00fc komp\u00fcter diqq\u0259timi \u00e7\u0259kir. Bizi g\u00f6r\u0259n M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t xan\u0131m “Bilmirdim indi g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ksiniz, m\u0259n d\u0259 rahat-rahat \u00e7ay i\u00e7irdim”, – deyir.<\/p>\n Biz otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r\u0131q, M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t xan\u0131m haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131b yan\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n – M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t xan\u0131m, ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131z var?<\/strong><\/p>\n – S\u0259ks\u0259n be\u015f.<\/p>\n – Deyirl\u0259r, sizinl\u0259 h\u0259mkar\u0131q.<\/strong><\/p>\n – Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t – 46 il d\u00f6vl\u0259t televiziyas\u0131nda, AzTV-d\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n – Sizin niy\u0259 yolunuz buradan ke\u00e7di?<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u00d6vladlar\u0131m\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcm, n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rim\u0259 toy el\u0259dim, ham\u0131n\u0131 yerb\u0259yer el\u0259dim. Sonra q\u0131z\u0131m v\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259ml\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 qald\u0131m. Sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, onlar cavand\u0131rlar, s\u0259rb\u0259st h\u0259yat ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yirl\u0259r. Bel\u0259c\u0259, onlardan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz \u00f6z\u00fcm m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdim, bura g\u0259ldim.<\/p>\n – Ba\u015fqa \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131z var b\u0259s?<\/strong><\/p>\n – O\u011flum h\u0259bsd\u0259dir. Allah\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259kliyi il\u0259 onun \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n – Ne\u00e7\u0259 ild\u0259n sonra azadl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Otuz iki ildir i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259dir. \u00d6m\u00fcrl\u00fck m\u0259hbusdur.<\/p>\n T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 soru\u015furam:<\/strong><\/p>\n – N\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259bs olunub?<\/strong><\/p>\n M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t xan\u0131m deyir:<\/p>\n “O\u011fru deyil, adam \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259yib, ev yarmay\u0131b”.<\/p>\n – O\u011flunuz h\u0259bs\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131zla ya\u015fad\u0131n\u0131z?<\/strong><\/p>\n “Yox. O\u011flum yolda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 bo\u015fanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n qal\u0131b n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rimi b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcm, \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259d verdim, yerb\u0259yer el\u0259dim. Ax\u0131rda da dedil\u0259r ki, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz s\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259sin. M\u0259ni m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 verdil\u0259r, ad\u0131m\u0131 evin qeydiyyat\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131lar. H\u0259min ev m\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcmummilli lider Heyd\u0259r \u018fliyev t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n m\u00fckafat kimi t\u0259qdim olunmu\u015fdu. Bel\u0259 \u00f6vladlar b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259nd\u0259 adam heyfsil\u0259nir ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc n\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259rf el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m”, – deyir.<\/p>\n – \u0130ndi n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259riniz atalar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na gedirl\u0259r?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Yox. Onlar balaca olanda m\u0259n apar\u0131rd\u0131m. Amma o\u011flum e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 ki, onlar m\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 r\u0259ftar edirl\u0259r, ondan sonra u\u015faqlar\u0131 da q\u0259bul etm\u0259di.<\/p>\n – B\u0259s yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z?<\/strong><\/p>\n – U\u015faqlar ki\u00e7ik olanda yolda\u015f\u0131mla bo\u015fand\u0131q.<\/p>\n – N\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bo\u015fanm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, dey\u0259 bil\u0259rsiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t xan\u0131m g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 deyir:\u00a0<\/strong>“Rusiyaya i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ad\u0131 il\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Sonra el\u0259 orada da evl\u0259nib qald\u0131”.<\/p>\n M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, arada sevgi olmayan m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259 yaranan x\u0259yan\u0259td\u0259n ill\u0259r sonra bax bel\u0259, g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131r.<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u0130ndi g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, ancaq x\u0259yan\u0259t a\u011f\u0131r hissdir. Nec\u0259 bel\u0259 rahat dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? Sevib evl\u0259nm\u0259misiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – M\u0259ni g\u00fccl\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 vermi\u015fdil\u0259r. El\u0259 bu da \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n olmu\u015fdu. Verdim m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259, bo\u015fand\u0131m.<\/p>\n – M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t xan\u0131m, bo\u015fand\u0131n\u0131z, sonra \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 t\u0259k b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcn\u00fcz. He\u00e7 yenid\u0259n ail\u0259 qurmaq bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259diniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n Heyfsil\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k deyir:<\/p>\n “Xeyr. \u0130st\u0259diyim t\u0259k \u015fey q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 v\u0259 o\u011flumu s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tsiz, ba\u015f\u0131uca b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259k idi. \u018fxlaql\u0131 qad\u0131n olmu\u015fam. Amma ka\u015f ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm haqq\u0131nda da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rdim. \u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6vladlar\u0131ma h\u0259sr etdim”.<\/p>\n – Sizd\u0259n bunu soru\u015facaqd\u0131m: Sizc\u0259, insan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc u\u015faqlar\u0131na h\u0259sr etm\u0259lidir?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Yox. \u018fg\u0259r biz u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259-\u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcks\u0259, sonumuz t\u0259nhal\u0131qd\u0131r. M\u0259nim yolda\u015f\u0131m yox idi. U\u015faqlara h\u0259m ata, h\u0259m d\u0259 ana oldum, h\u0259r \u015feyin yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn etdim. Amma n\u0259 olsun ki? Q\u0131z\u0131m fikirl\u0259\u015fir ki, m\u0259nim burada olma\u011f\u0131m onlar\u0131 al\u00e7ald\u0131r. Amma normal m\u00fcnasib\u0259t g\u00f6r\u0259n kim evini, ail\u0259sini at\u0131b g\u0259l\u0259r ki? Ka\u015f \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259rdim. N\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rimin h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259r\u0259k \u00e7ox \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kdim.<\/p>\n – Ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir buradas\u0131n\u0131z?<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u00dc\u00e7 ildir.<\/p>\n – Dediniz ki, sizi zorla \u0259r\u0259 veribl\u0259r. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131zda ail\u0259 qurmusunuz?<\/strong><\/p>\n “Q\u0131z\u0131m, biz l\u0259zgiyik. He\u00e7 soru\u015fan olmad\u0131 ki, ay q\u0131z, \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rsan? On be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131mda d\u00fcz-qo\u015f el\u0259dil\u0259r, verdil\u0259r \u0259r\u0259”, – deyir.<\/p>\n – N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, sonra oxuya bilmisiniz.<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u00d6z g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u0259. O q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin idi ki, h\u0259m u\u015faq b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259k, h\u0259m oxumaq, h\u0259m d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k.<\/p>\n – Televiziyada n\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259misiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Televiziyada m\u00fcxt\u0259lif sah\u0259l\u0259r \u00fczr\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. M\u0259xfi s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00e7ap etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259ni apar\u0131rd\u0131lar. Sonralar “Qit\u0259l\u0259r, Hadis\u0259l\u0259r” verili\u015find\u0259 apar\u0131c\u0131 oldum. \u0130\u015fl\u0259y\u0259-i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259 ali savadl\u0131 u\u015faqlar b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcm. Amma insan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qiym\u0259t verm\u0259lidir. S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u00f6rm\u0259tli tutsan, o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tli olacaqsan. M\u0259n el\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, q\u0131z\u0131m.<\/p>\n – \u00d6vlad\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bil\u0259c\u0259ksiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz dua edir\u0259m ki, \u0130lahi, m\u0259n ke\u00e7ir\u0259m, s\u0259n d\u0259 ke\u00e7. Onlar\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131na da\u015f d\u0259ydiyini e\u015fits\u0259m, d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n Yen\u0259 d\u0259 ana \u00fcr\u0259yi…<\/strong><\/p>\n M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t xan\u0131mla sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram. D\u0259hliz boyu add\u0131mlad\u0131qca g\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 e\u015fitdiyim s\u00f6zl\u0259r arxamca g\u0259lirmi\u015f kimi olur. Bir otaqda o\u011flunun u\u015faql\u0131q \u015f\u0259klini sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b onun h\u0259bsd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n ana, bir ba\u015fqa otaqda q\u0131zlar\u0131na y\u00fck olmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n ata, o biri otaqda is\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6vladlar\u0131na verib sonda yen\u0259 onlar\u0131n salamatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dua ed\u0259n qad\u0131n…<\/p>\n Burada he\u00e7 kimin d\u0259rdi o birinin d\u0259rdin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259mir. Amma ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n bax\u0131\u015f\u0131nda eyni bo\u015fluq var. Sanki h\u0259r biri hans\u0131sa qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131, hans\u0131sa telefonun \u00e7almas\u0131n\u0131, ill\u0259rdir e\u015fitm\u0259diyi do\u011fma bir s\u0259sin “Nec\u0259s\u0259n?” dem\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yir.<\/p>\n \u0130nsan qocalanda \u00e7ox \u015feyd\u0259n vaz ke\u00e7ir. Geyimd\u0259n, rahatl\u0131qdan, arzular\u0131ndan, b\u0259z\u0259n \u00f6z evind\u0259n d\u0259. Amma \u00f6vlad sevgisind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259 bilmir.<\/p>\n B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 Mirvari xan\u0131m o\u011flunun u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r. K\u0259rim day\u0131 q\u0131zlar\u0131na y\u00fck olmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kir. M\u00fcsl\u00fcm\u0259t xan\u0131m is\u0259 onu incid\u0259n \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flama\u011fa haz\u0131rd\u0131r.<\/p>\n \u00c7\u00fcnki valideyn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6vlad\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131 olmur. O, q\u0131rx\u0131nda da, \u0259llid\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259bsxanada da, uzaqda da yen\u0259 h\u0259min u\u015faql\u0131q \u015f\u0259klind\u0259 qal\u0131r.<\/p>\n B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 insan\u0131n son imtahan\u0131 qocal\u0131q deyil.<\/p>\n \u018fn a\u011f\u0131r imtahan bir vaxt \u0259lind\u0259n tutub yerim\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259tdiyin \u00f6vlad\u0131n yolunu ill\u0259r sonra qap\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda t\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259kdir.<\/p>\n V\u0259 daha a\u011f\u0131r\u0131 odur ki, o qap\u0131 b\u0259z\u0259n he\u00e7 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131r…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" B\u0259z\u0259n insan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 fotoya, xatir\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fanda bo\u011faz\u0131nda d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259n\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 c\u00fcml\u0259y\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131r. 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