{"id":42380,"date":"2025-04-07T21:38:55","date_gmt":"2025-04-07T17:38:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=42380"},"modified":"2025-04-07T21:38:55","modified_gmt":"2025-04-07T17:38:55","slug":"c%c9%99ki-dasi-meyxos-abdullahin-yeni-hekay%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=42380","title":{"rendered":"“\u00c7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131” – Meyxo\u015f Abdullah\u0131n yeni hekay\u0259si"},"content":{"rendered":"

Mecra.az<\/a> yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Meyxo\u015f Abdullah\u0131n “\u00c7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131” adl\u0131 yeni hekay\u0259sini t\u0259qdim edir:<\/strong><\/p>\n

… O, atam\u0131n anas\u0131 idi. Onu ham\u0131m\u0131z \u201cn\u0259n\u0259\u201d – dey\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131q. B\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb, a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131z k\u0259s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r onun ad\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259mi\u015fdik. El\u0259 z\u0259nn edirdik ki, onun ad\u0131 el\u0259 \u0259z\u0259l g\u00fcnd\u0259n N\u0259n\u0259dir. Evd\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 atam ona \u201cbac\u0131\u201d deyird\u0131. Atam\u0131z\u0131n ona niy\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bac\u0131 dediyini h\u0259l\u0259 indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 anlaya bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Ona n\u0259n\u0259 dediyimiz\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z anam\u0131z\u0131 ad\u0131yla \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131q. Anam\u0131z is\u0259 bundan b\u0259rk hirsl\u0259n\u0259r: – \u201cHe\u00e7 olmasa, h\u0259y\u0259t-bacaya adam g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259ni ad\u0131mla \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmay\u0131n, ay sizin boynunuz s\u0131nmas\u0131n!\u201d – dey\u0259 bizi danlayard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Lap b\u00f6y\u00fck olana q\u0259d\u0259r el\u0259 bilirdik ki, bizi d\u00fcnyaya qoca n\u0259n\u0259miz g\u0259tiribdir. \u00d6z anam\u0131za o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 qan\u0131m\u0131z qaynamazd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki anam\u0131z bizi, h\u0259m danlayar, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox vaxt i\u015f-g\u00fcc g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 deyin\u0259rdi. Biz u\u015faq idik, q\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 xo\u015f bax\u0131b bizi t\u0259rifl\u0259y\u0259n adam\u0131 daha \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdik. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, bir d\u0259rd-s\u0259rimiz olanda s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc n\u0259n\u0259miz\u0259 deyirdik. Anam\u0131z\u0131 da \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdik, amma n\u0259n\u0259miz q\u0259d\u0259r yox, n\u0259n\u0259miz bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox \u015firin idi.<\/p>\n

Biz sonralar \u00f6yr\u0259ndik ki, n\u0259n\u0259mizin ad\u0131 A\u011fca imi\u015f. Qonum-qon\u015fu, qohum-\u0259qraba ona \u201cA\u011fca n\u0259n\u0259\u201d deyirdil\u0259r. K\u0259ndd\u0259 ham\u0131dan ya\u015fl\u0131 idi. Onun ya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131 \u00e7oxdan d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259miz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015fc\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k arvad idi, \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n nur t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Allah onu, el\u0259 bil xo\u015f g\u00fcnd\u0259, xo\u015f saatda yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. A\u011f, bir azca uzunsov sif\u0259ti, nazik qa\u015flar\u0131 onu el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi ki… Geyim-kecimi nimda\u015f olsa da, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u0259rt\u0259miz olard\u0131. Paltarlar\u0131n\u0131n c\u0131r\u0131q-s\u00f6k\u00fck yerl\u0259rini el\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 tikib, yamayard\u0131 ki, vurulmu\u015f yamaq h\u0259min paltara, sanki bir az da yara\u015f\u0131q verirdi. \u00dcst-ba\u015f\u0131ndan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u00fclab iysi g\u0259l\u0131rdi. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 onun dizinin \u00fcst\u0259 qoyub m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, hardasa g\u00fcll\u00fc-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kli sehirli bir al\u0259m\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f kimi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc hiss edirdik.<\/p>\n

\u00dcst\u00fc x\u0131rda, g\u00fcll\u00fc k\u00f6yn\u0259yinin yaxas\u0131 bo\u011faz\u0131nacan d\u00fcym\u0259li olard\u0131. Yay\u0131n, lap c\u0131rramas\u0131nda bel\u0259 yaxas\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n he\u00e7 birc\u0259ciyini d\u0259 a\u00e7mazd\u0131. Adam ona baxanda dar\u0131xard\u0131, el\u0259 bil\u0259rdik ki, o g\u00fccl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131r. Uzun, taxtal\u0131 tuman\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda yerl\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259rdi. \u0130\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259n zaman is\u0259, tuman\u0131n\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yini d\u00fcrg\u0259l\u0259yib qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131na el\u0259 ke\u00e7ir\u0259rdi ki, el\u0259 bil\u0259rdin \u0259ynin\u0259 enlibalaq \u015falvar geyinibdir. Ya\u015f\u0131 s\u0259ks\u0259ni haqlasa da, \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0259dd-qam\u0259ti vard\u0131. Ayda bir d\u0259f\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131na x\u0131na qoydu\u011fundan, \u00e7ox da uzun olmayan seyr\u0259k sa\u00e7lar\u0131 q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 r\u0259ngd\u0259 olard\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011f, nazik sif\u0259tin\u0259 el\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131q verirdi ki…<\/p>\n

H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 q\u0259mli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259rdi, onun g\u00fclm\u0259yini he\u00e7 xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram. H\u0259y\u0259t-bacada dolananda, i\u015f-g\u00fcc g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 fikirli olurdu. El\u0259 bil, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259rd-s\u0259rini n\u0259n\u0259miz \u00e7\u0259kirdi. B\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 dikib, el\u0259 fikir\u0259 ged\u0259rdi ki, el\u0259 bil, i\u00e7i q\u0131z\u0131l dolu g\u0259mil\u0259ri d\u0259ryada q\u0259rq olubdu. Fikird\u0259n ay\u0131landa da, d\u0259rind\u0259n el\u0259 k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259rdi ki, arvad\u0131n quru sin\u0259si az qal\u0131rd\u0131 qalx\u0131b \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259ysin.<\/p>\n

Az-az hirsl\u0259n\u0259rdi. Onda da ev adamlar\u0131ndan hans\u0131sa q\u0259bah\u0259tli bir i\u015f tutanda. Yaz\u0131q arvad hirsini h\u0259min adama deyil, \u00f6z \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00f6k\u0259rdi. G\u00f6r\u0259rdin, h\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yem\u0259zdi. O \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yem\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259, el\u0259 bil\u0259rdik, bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u00fcnya tar-mar olub da\u011f\u0131lacaqd\u0131r. Biz u\u015faqlar h\u0259r\u0259miz evin bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259r v\u0259 x\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n a\u011flayard\u0131q. Bu halm\u0131za d\u00f6zm\u0259yib s\u00fcfr\u0259ni salar, bizim yem\u0259yimizi qablara \u00e7\u0259kib: – Siz g\u0259lin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yinizi yeyin, m\u0259n d\u0259 bir azdan yey\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m! – dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

Onun bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 a\u015fa\u011fa sal\u0131b, x\u0131m\u0131r-x\u0131m\u0131r yem\u0259yimizi yey\u0259rdik. Amma sonradan bax\u0131b g\u00f6r\u0259rdik ki, n\u0259n\u0259mizin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyi yem\u0259k s\u00fcfr\u0259nin bir q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131nda qal\u0131b, soyuyubdur.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fctox arvad idi. He\u00e7 birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259dik ki, \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcr\u0259yi ist\u0259y\u0259n bir yem\u0259yi bi\u015firib yesin. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ham\u0131dan az yem\u0259k \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdi. Amma el\u0259 \u015firin-\u015firin yeyirdi ki, adam ona baxanda yenid\u0259n i\u015ftah\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lard\u0131. Yem\u0259k \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n qonum-qon\u015fuya, u\u015faq-mu\u015fa\u011fa h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z yem\u0259yind\u0259n pay ver\u0259rdi v\u0259 m\u0259cbur ed\u0259rdi ki, o veril\u0259n yem\u0259yi m\u00fctl\u0259q yesin.<\/p>\n

U\u015faq vaxtlar\u0131m\u0131z idi. Evimiz yol q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131nda oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259, h\u0259r an \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir qonaq peyda olard\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 bel\u0259 vaxtlar\u0131n birind\u0259, g\u00fcnorta vaxt\u0131 yem\u0259k yeyirdik. Ham\u0131 yem\u0259yini yeyib qurtarsa da, m\u0259n qab\u0131mda olan bir tik\u0259 \u0259tl\u0259 m\u0131c\u0131llan\u0131rd\u0131m. \u018fti gah o t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259, gah da bu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 a\u015f\u0131raraq onu i\u015ftahla yem\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. El\u0259 bu vaxt bizim evd\u0259n evl\u0259ri bir-iki ev o yana olan Z\u0259ri arvad qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b ev\u0259 girdi. Onun belind\u0259 bir k\u00f6tm\u0259c\u0259 q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 da vard\u0131. Z\u0259ri arvad u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yun \u015falla m\u00f6hk\u0259m-m\u00f6hk\u0259m belin\u0259 sar\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Arvad ev\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 belind\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131b yer\u0259 qoydu. U\u015faq yer\u0259 qoyulan kimi im\u0259kl\u0259y\u0259-im\u0259kl\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259nim qab\u0131ma t\u0259r\u0259f cumdu. M\u0259n qab\u0131 iki\u0259lli qamarlay\u0131b, dirs\u0259yiml\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 k\u0259nara it\u0259l\u0259dim. U\u015faq \u00e7ox s\u0131rt\u0131q u\u015faq idi. M\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k paltar\u0131mdan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 durdu v\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 qaba t\u0259r\u0259f \u0259l uzatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu vaxt n\u0259n\u0259m yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b qabdak\u0131 o bir tik\u0259 \u0259ti g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u0259lin\u0259 verdi. Qar\u0131nqulu u\u015faq \u0259ti g\u00f6yd\u0259c\u0259 qamarlay\u0131b a\u011fz\u0131na basd\u0131 v\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131 yem\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bil b\u0259d\u0259nimd\u0259n qopar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u0259timi yeyirdi o u\u015faq. B\u0259rkd\u0259n h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fcm. El\u0259 h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, s\u0259sim\u0259 evd\u0259kil\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131 diksindi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m g\u0259lib ehmalca m\u0259nim qolumdan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 dart\u0131b evd\u0259n bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. \u2013 S\u0259n\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 demi\u015f\u0259m ki, qaba\u011f\u0131na z\u0259hrimar yem\u0259k g\u0259ldi tez ye, yoxsa qonun-qon\u015fu u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lib yey\u0259r. Demi\u015f\u0259m, ya yox? \u2013 dey\u0259 arvad, qolumdan burma bir \u00e7imdik g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sonra: – Bax, can\u0131n da var, indi ye azar\u0131m\u0131… \u2013 dey\u0259r\u0259k, m\u0259ni bay\u0131rda qoyub ev\u0259 girdi.<\/p>\n

O hadis\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259r ke\u00e7ibdir, m\u0259n indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259, ist\u0259r m\u0259clisl\u0259rd\u0259 olsun, ist\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259 evd\u0259, ham\u0131dan qabaq yem\u0259yimi yeyib qurtar\u0131ram. N\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 bir d\u0259rs verib ki, he\u00e7 xatirimd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xara bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m acl\u0131q ill\u0259rini g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin nec\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck v\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zolunmaz bir nem\u0259t oldu\u011funu bilirdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 dey\u0259rdi: – \u201cAllah siz\u0259 o g\u00fcnl\u0259ri g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259sin. Adamlar az qal\u0131rd\u0131lar ki, bir-birl\u0259rinin \u0259tini yesinl\u0259r. T\u0259r\u0259-m\u0259r\u0259 yem\u0259kd\u0259n adam\u0131n i\u00e7i d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, yerim\u0259y\u0259 taq\u0259timiz olmazd\u0131\u201d – deyirdi.<\/p>\n

Biz u\u015faq idik, acl\u0131q ill\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdik. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, onun n\u0259 dediyini q\u0259d\u0259rinc\u0259 anlaya bilmirdik. Biz\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, n\u0259n\u0259miz biz\u0259 na\u011f\u0131l dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Sakitliyi \u00e7ox sevirdi. Qonum-qon\u015fu bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun onun ucadan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015fdi. O, az dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131. Bir s\u00f6z dey\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259, adam\u0131 yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rar, \u0259lini ehmalca onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoyaraq, az qala qula\u011f\u0131na p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi s\u00f6z\u00fc dey\u0259rdi. Onun s\u00f6zl\u0259ri o q\u0259d\u0259r sehirlydi ki, el\u0259 bil, n\u0259n\u0259m adam\u0131n qula\u011f\u0131na dua oxuyurdu.<\/p>\n

Anam bizi danlay\u0131b, dansayanda n\u0259n\u0259miz haray\u0131m\u0131za yet\u0259r v\u0259 \u0259lini a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259 qoyub: – Ay bala, s\u0259sin \u00f6z\u00fcv\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259sin. Bir az yava\u015f dan\u0131\u015f, yoldan \u00f6t\u0259n olar! – dey\u0259rdi. Onun bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra evd\u0259 sakitlik yaranard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox t\u0259mizkar arvad idi, st\u0259kan, n\u0259lb\u0259kini, qab-qaca\u011f\u0131 ocaqdan g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc k\u00fcll\u0259, o q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00fcrt\u00fcb, t\u0259mizl\u0259yirdi ki, qab-qacaq onun \u0259lind\u0259 par-par par\u0131ldayard\u0131. \u0130llah ki, st\u0259kanlar\u0131 yuyanda. Q\u0259rib\u0259 st\u0259kan yuma\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131 onun. Barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n qo\u015fala\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b st\u0259kan\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 salar v\u0259 onu sa\u011fa-sola f\u0131rladard\u0131. T\u0259rt\u0259miz yuyulmu\u015f st\u0259kan, onun \u0259lind\u0259 el\u0259 xart\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131 ki, sanki kim is\u0259 r\u0259nd\u0259 il\u0259, el\u0259 bil taxta yonurdu. O s\u0259s h\u0259l\u0259 indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131mdan getm\u0259yibdir. S\u0259liq\u0259-s\u0259hmana o q\u0259d\u0259r fikir ver\u0259n idi ki, h\u0259tta, h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki itin yala\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da s\u00fcrt\u00fcb, t\u0259mizl\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f ora yem\u0259kd\u0259n, yaldan t\u00f6km\u0259zdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki otaql\u0131, bir d\u0259 uzun, dar d\u0259hlizi olan birm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evimiz h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259li olurdu. Ayda bir d\u0259f\u0259 evi, eyvan\u0131 sar\u0131\u015fir\u0259 deyil\u0259n v\u0259 k\u0259ndin k\u0259nar\u0131ndak\u0131 qayal\u0131qdan da\u015f\u0131y\u0131b g\u0259tirdiyi sar\u0131 r\u0259ngd\u0259 olan torpaqla \u015fir\u0259l\u0259yirdi. G\u00f6y ot, x\u0131rda saman, bir d\u0259 at peyini qar\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131yla haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn q\u0131cq\u0131rtd\u0131qdan sonra araya-\u0259rs\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tiril\u0259n pal\u00e7\u0131q, el\u0259 s\u0131v\u0131q v\u0259 yumu\u015faq olard\u0131 ki, adam h\u0259min pal\u00e7\u0131\u011fa \u0259l vuranda b\u0259d\u0259ni \u00fc\u015f\u0259nirdi. H\u0259m d\u0259, pal\u00e7\u0131qdan yaz vaxt\u0131 \u0259traf\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259n ciskinli, n\u0259mli duman\u0131n iyi g\u0259lirdi… N\u0259n\u0259m h\u0259min pal\u00e7\u0131qla ev-e\u015fiyi, eyvan\u0131 el\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 suvay\u0131b, \u015fir\u0259l\u0259y\u0259rdi ki, adam g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ondan \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

Novruz bayram\u0131nda is\u0259 a\u011f\u015fir\u0259 deyil\u0259n pal\u00e7\u0131\u011fa bir az da g\u00f6y hil qat\u0131b ev-e\u015fiyin divarlar\u0131n\u0131 suvayard\u0131. A\u011f\u015fir\u0259yl\u0259 suvanm\u0131\u015f ev \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259rdi. \u0130llah ki, yay vaxtlar\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb ev\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 divar\u0131\u0131n a\u011f r\u0259ngini bir az da ecazkar g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rdi. Aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 h\u0259sird\u0259n, palazdan qalxan nar\u0131n toz d\u0259n\u0259cikl\u0259ri p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u00fcas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda, sanki x\u0131rda k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259r kimi u\u00e7u\u015fard\u0131. Biz u\u015faqlar s\u0131raya d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k, a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 geni\u015f a\u00e7\u0131b, o q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 \u015f\u00fcan\u0131, guya uda-uda p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r bir-birimizi it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, bas\u0131r\u0131q salard\u0131q. O vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r ki, hans\u0131m\u0131z\u0131nsa k\u0259ll\u0259si d\u0259yib p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sini s\u0131nd\u0131rana kimi. Ondan sonra xurd d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb kirimi\u015fc\u0259 evin k\u00fcnc-buca\u011f\u0131nda oturub, s\u0259birsizlikl\u0259 c\u0259zam\u0131z\u0131n veril\u0259c\u0259yi an\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259rdik.<\/p>\n

B\u0259xtimiz onda g\u0259tirirdi ki, bu c\u0259zan\u0131 biz\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259miz verirdi. Ya, odun da\u015f\u0131td\u0131racaqd\u0131, ya t\u00f6vl\u0259nin arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 mal peyinini bostan yerin\u0259 yayd\u0131racaqd\u0131, ya da ki, evin ban\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b ill\u0259rl\u0259 qalaqlanm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6y\u0259r\u00e7in, s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 z\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrtd\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259rqi yox idi, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sini kim s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131bd\u0131r. C\u0259zan\u0131 ham\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7\u0259km\u0259li olurduq. Onun bu c\u0259za \u00fcsulunu ill\u0259r sonra h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259td\u0259 olark\u0259n anlad\u0131m. Kazarman\u0131n \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sini kims\u0259 s\u0131nd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259ni s\u0131nd\u0131ran \u0259sg\u0259r \u0259m\u0259lini boynuna almaq ist\u0259mirdi. Onun q\u0259bah\u0259tini g\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259r is\u0259, \u0259sg\u0259r yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 satmaq ist\u0259mirdil\u0259r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, b\u00fct\u00f6v bir polk s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yatmay\u0131b, ayaq\u00fcst\u0259 yuxusuz qald\u0131q. M\u0259n onda anlad\u0131m ki, m\u0259nim savads\u0131z n\u0259n\u0259m, d\u00fcnyaya meydan oxuyan sovet generallar\u0131ndan da \u00e7ox bilirmi\u015f…<\/p>\n

A\u011fca n\u0259n\u0259mizin gec\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt yat\u0131b, s\u0259h\u0259r n\u0259 vaxt oyand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 birimiz g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdik. He\u00e7 birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 onun yat\u0131b yuxuya qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u015fahidi d\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Yuxudan ay\u0131landa onu h\u0259y\u0259t-bacada ora-bura vurxunan g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fck. Ad\u0259ti idi, s\u00fcbh tezd\u0259n ham\u0131dan qabaq yerind\u0259n qalxar, d\u0259st\u0259maz\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b, namaz\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131lard\u0131. Onun p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla dediyi s\u00f6zl\u0259r, etdiyi dualar, el\u0259 bil qeybd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n sirrli-sehirli s\u00f6zl\u0259r idi. H\u0259r k\u0259lm\u0259si adam\u0131 ovsunlay\u0131rd\u0131. Dua ed\u0259n zaman h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 a\u011flayird\u0131. Yana\u011f\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sind\u0259 gil\u0259l\u0259n\u0259r, sonra da damc\u0131-damc\u0131 dizl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259rdi. T\u0259k-t\u0259k ham\u0131m\u0131za dua ed\u0259rdi. Bizl\u0259rin d\u0259rd-b\u0259ladan uzaq olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Allaha yalvarard\u0131. Dualar\u0131n\u0131n sonunda is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dua ed\u0259rdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 etdiyi dua is\u0259 \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 olard\u0131. Dey\u0259rdi: – \u201c\u0130lahi, s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox \u00f6m\u00fcr ist\u0259mir\u0259m, verdiyin bu \u00f6m\u00fcr\u0259 d\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr. Amma m\u0259nim ax\u0131r\u0131m\u0131 xeyirli et, m\u0259ni dilsiz-a\u011f\u0131zs\u0131z, \u0259lsiz-ayaqs\u0131z edib kims\u0259y\u0259 m\u00f6htac e\u0259. M\u0259ni ayaq\u00fcst\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr, yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k m\u00f6htac\u0131 etm\u0259gin\u0259n\u201d.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox imanl\u0131 arvad idi bizim A\u011fca n\u0259n\u0259miz. \u018fl-aya\u011f\u0131 b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tliydi. \u018flini n\u0259y\u0259 vursayd\u0131, o \u015fey\u0259 Allah o q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ver\u0259rdi ki.<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131da mal-qaram\u0131z \u00e7ox idi. Mal-qaran\u0131n sa\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131, yerb\u0259yer edilm\u0259si onun \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259lib-ged\u0259rdi. H\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 iki d\u0259f\u0259 nehr\u0259 \u00e7alxayard\u0131. Nehr\u0259nin suynu da, s\u00fcbh tezd\u0259n gedib k\u0259ndin yuxar\u0131ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 \u201cAl\u00e7al\u0131bulaq\u201ddan g\u0259tir\u0259rdi. Bula\u011fa, camaat yuxudan oyanmam\u0131\u015f, s\u0259h\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0131rtlayanda ged\u0259rdi. Dey\u0259rdi ki, nehr\u0259nin suyu g\u0259r\u0259k bula\u011f\u0131n \u0259l d\u0259ym\u0259y\u0259n ilk suyu olsun ki, ya\u011fi bol d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn. Nehr\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7alxayard\u0131. Qoyun d\u0259risind\u0259n olan bir par\u00e7a yunlu d\u0259rini d\u0259 nehr\u0259nin alt\u0131na atard\u0131 ki, yeri yumu\u015faq olsun, nehr\u0259y\u0259 da\u015fdan-zaddan ili\u015fib bir x\u0259t\u0259r toxunmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Heyva buda\u011f\u0131ndan k\u0259silmi\u015f bir \u00e7ybu\u011fu da vard\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n uzaq bir yerd\u0259, t\u0259miz par\u00e7an\u0131n aras\u0131nda saxlayard\u0131. Nehr\u0259 \u00e7alxalayark\u0259n arada o \u00e7ubu\u011fu nehr\u0259nin \u201cg\u00fclf\u0259\u201d yerind\u0259n i\u00e7in\u0259 salar v\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb-d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259m\u0259sini yoxlayard\u0131. Nec\u0259 ki, \u00e7ubu\u011fun h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 ya\u011f yap\u0131\u015fard\u0131, onda bil\u0259rdi ki, art\u0131q, nehr\u0259nin ya\u011f\u0131 haz\u0131rd\u0131r. Qabaqcadan yuyub haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 vedr\u0259, l\u0259y\u0259n\u0259 bo\u015faldard\u0131 nehr\u0259nin ayran\u0131n\u0131. Ayran\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 topa-topa \u00fcz\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b, ovuclayar ayrca qaba qoyard\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259rdik. Nehr\u0259nin ya\u011f\u0131 haz\u0131r olan kimi biz u\u015faqlar da h\u0259r\u0259miz \u0259limiz\u0259 bir par\u00e7a \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k al\u0131b, nehr\u0259nin yan\u0131nda boys\u0131ras\u0131yla d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259rdik.<\/p>\n

\u018flimizd\u0259ki \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131 el\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 yaxard\u0131 ki, el\u0259 bil, adam\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini q\u0131d\u0131qlayard\u0131. O, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 yax\u0131lan ya\u011fyaxmac\u0131 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n \u015firin matah\u0131 idi bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

Nehr\u0259 \u00e7alxalanark\u0259n onun a\u011fz\u0131na ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n qopan \u201cgup-gup\u201d s\u0259sl\u0259ri h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131mdan getm\u0259yibdir. O s\u0259s adam\u0131n t\u0259ng\u0259n\u0259f\u0259s olan vaxt\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yinin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi…<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmaz. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min yuyub, t\u0259mizl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, qurumaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259p\u0259rin yan\u0131na qoydu\u011fu nehr\u0259ni da\u015fla vurub s\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131m. El\u0259 bil nehr\u0259ni yox, arvad\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini \u00e7ilik-\u00e7ilik etdim. Nehr\u0259nin paralan\u0131b, iki yer\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 arvad diz\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 birc\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dedi: – \u201c\u0130gid \u00f6l\u0259s\u0259n s\u0259ni, bala!..\u201d<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259min m\u0259n\u0259 etdiyi qar\u011f\u0131\u015f kefim\u0259 d\u0259ymi\u015fdi. G\u00fcnah\u0131m b\u00f6y\u00fck olsa da, q\u0259lbimd\u0259 ondan k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Atam s\u0259h\u0259ri g\u00fcn t\u0259z\u0259 nehr\u0259 al\u0131b g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra n\u0259n\u0259min \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn q\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00fcnorta yem\u0259k zaman\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b, dodaqlar\u0131m\u0131 sallayaraq, altdan-altdan ona baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, yax\u0131n g\u0259ldi v\u0259 boynumu qucaqlay\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. K\u00f6vr\u0259lib a\u011flad\u0131m. Tuman\u0131n\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yi il\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 sil\u0259-sil\u0259: – A\u011flama, s\u0259ni \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m! – dedi.<\/p>\n

Bir az da \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndim v\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya dedim: – M\u0259ni \u00e7ox ist\u0259mirs\u0259n. \u0130st\u0259s\u0259ydin, bir nehr\u0259d\u0259n sar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 igid \u00f6l\u0259s\u0259n, dem\u0259zdin.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di v\u0259 yenid\u0259n m\u0259ni ba\u011fr\u0131na basaraq \u00f6p\u0259-\u00f6p\u0259: – \u201c\u0130gid \u00f6lm\u0259k h\u0259r ki\u015finin qism\u0259ti olmur, bala. \u2013 O, na\u011f\u0131llardak\u0131 igidl\u0259r var ha, y\u0259ni, onlar kimi olasan da, dedim\u201d.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox-\u00e7ox sonralar, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z m\u00fcsib\u0259tl\u0259r \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259, torpaqlar\u0131m\u0131z i\u015f\u011fal olunub, el-obam\u0131za \u015f\u0259hid tabutlar\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, n\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u011f\u0131\u015f yox, alq\u0131\u015f edibdir. S\u0259n dem\u0259, igid \u00f6lm\u0259k h\u0259r ki\u015fiy\u0259 n\u0259sib olmurmu\u015f… M\u0259nim yaz\u0131q n\u0259n\u0259m, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259m… G\u00f6r, n\u0259 boyda savad\u0131n varm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259mg\u00fcl yatan ota\u011f\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259kli, q\u0259dim bir sand\u0131q vard\u0131. Sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7 q\u0131f\u0131l yeri olsa da, n\u0259n\u0259m he\u00e7 vaxt sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na q\u0131f\u0131l vurmazd\u0131. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, biz onun qorxusundan, n\u0259inki sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ma\u011fa, he\u00e7 sand\u0131\u011fa yax\u0131nla\u015fma\u011fa bel\u0259 c\u00fcr\u0259t etm\u0259zdik. Arada n\u0259n\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fc sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b oradan bir \u015fey g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259, biz u\u015faqlar ar\u0131 p\u00f6hr\u0259si kimi d\u00f6vr\u0259 vurub n\u0259n\u0259mizin ba\u015f\u0131na topala\u015fard\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u0130lahi, sand\u0131qdan el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l \u0259tir iyi g\u0259lirdi ki, adam bir anl\u0131q hu\u015funu itirm\u0259k v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fclab, naftalin v\u0259 \u0259tir qoxulu iyl\u0259r bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015faraq adam\u0131n ruhunu can\u0131ndan al\u0131b, sanki g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00d6z g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, sand\u0131qda n\u0259n\u0259min bir sa\u00e7aql\u0131 \u015fal\u0131, \u00fc\u00e7 \u0259d\u0259d kala\u011fay\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131. Kala\u011fay\u0131n\u0131n biri a\u011f, q\u0131raqlar\u0131 butal\u0131 olan\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259m h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 toya, xeyir i\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na ba\u011flard\u0131. O biri k\u0259la\u011fay\u0131\u201cnoxudu k\u0259la\u011fay\u0131\u201d deyil\u0259n k\u0259la\u011fay\u0131 idi ki, onu da el\u0259 bel\u0259 qon\u015fu-bacaya ged\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na salard\u0131. Zil qara bir k\u0259la\u011fay\u0131s\u0131 da vard\u0131 ki, onu da yasa, h\u00fczr\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na \u00f6rt\u0259rdi. H\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7 k\u0259laya\u011f\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7ox yara\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130llah ki, a\u011f k\u0259la\u011fay\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259mi el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rdi ki, b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m demi\u015fk\u0259n; – \u201cadam ona baxanda \u015fi\u015f\u0259rdi\u201d.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259min sand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir-iki d\u0259st xeyir-\u015f\u0259r\u0259 geyinm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn paltarlar\u0131 da vard\u0131. Bu paltarlar\u0131 el\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 qatlay\u0131b sand\u0131\u011fa qoyard\u0131 ki, el\u0259 bil, bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt o paltarlara \u0259l vurmayacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sand\u0131qda bir daraq, bir d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l nax\u0131\u015flarla b\u0259z\u0259dilmi\u015f g\u00fczg\u00fc d\u0259 vard\u0131. Onlar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 paltarlar\u0131n alt\u0131nda olard\u0131. Yaln\u0131z birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m\u0131n toyunda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, n\u0259n\u0259m o g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 baxa-baxa sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 daray\u0131r. Amma \u00e7iyinl\u0259ri titr\u0259yirdi, dey\u0259s\u0259n, o a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Anam\u0131n dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, daraqla g\u00fczg\u00fc babamdan n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 yadi\u011far qal\u0131bm\u0131\u015f. Babam \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, arvad bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun onun yadigar verdiyi \u0259\u015fyalara \u0259l vurmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

B\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m\u0131 u\u015faqlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdi n\u0259n\u0259m, y\u0259qin arzusu varm\u0131\u015f ki, onun toyunda ab\u0131rl\u0131ba\u015fl\u0131 b\u0259z\u0259nib, d\u00fcz\u0259nsin.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m \u00f6l\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 kimi oruc-namaz\u0131ndan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di. X\u0259st\u0259 olan vaxtlar\u0131nda da namaz q\u0131lar, orucunu tutard\u0131.<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmaz, yay\u0131n qorabi\u015fir\u0259n ay\u0131 idi. Havalar \u00e7ox isti ke\u00e7irdi. Orucluq ay\u0131 h\u0259min yaya d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. N\u0259n\u0259m oruc idi. Amma i\u015f-g\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmirdi. Noxud, m\u0259rcinin yolunan vaxtlar\u0131ydi. D\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n evin b\u00f6y\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u0259ki bir par\u00e7a yeri t\u0259mizl\u0259yib, ora noxud yolub t\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. G\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda quruyub, qab\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131rtlayan noxudu d\u00f6y\u00fcb, sovurub y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmal\u0131ydi n\u0259n\u0259m.<\/p>\n

D\u0259rz-d\u0259rz t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f noxud y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ki\u00e7ik bir t\u0259p\u0259ni xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259min iri bir toxma\u011f\u0131 da var idi. Biz u\u015faqlar\u0131n o toxma\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259miz g\u00fccl\u0259 \u00e7atard\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m is\u0259 onu ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qald\u0131rar v\u0259 qalaq-qalaq qalaqlanm\u0131\u015f noxud d\u0259rzl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 endir\u0259rdi. H\u0259r z\u0259rb\u0259 endiril\u0259nd\u0259, noxudlar q\u0131nalan\u0131b \u0259trafa s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259mizl\u0259 biz u\u015faqlar\u0131n bir s\u00f6vd\u0259l\u0259\u015fm\u0259si d\u0259 vard\u0131. X\u0131rman deyil\u0259n, \u015fir\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f sah\u0259d\u0259n noxud k\u0259nara d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259ydi o bizim idi. Biz u\u015faqlar h\u0259min noxudlar\u0131 qablara y\u0131\u011f\u0131b g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonunda n\u0259n\u0259miz\u0259 ver\u0259rdik. O da biz\u0259 pensiyas\u0131ndan be\u015f-on q\u0259pik pul ver\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259min g\u00fcn \u00e7ox m\u00f6hk\u0259m isti vard\u0131. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin yand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 adam\u0131n sir-sif\u0259tini qars\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. Bel\u0259 istid\u0259 oruc tutmu\u015f n\u0259n\u0259mizin bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi dayand\u0131 v\u0259 o, \u00fcz\u00fcqoylu noxud d\u0259nl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. Biz q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131q. S\u0259simiz\u0259 qonum-qon\u015fular t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb g\u0259ldi, n\u0259n\u0259mizin \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259, sin\u0259sin\u0259 su \u00e7il\u0259yib onu ay\u0131ltd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

O g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 qonum-qon\u015fudan birc\u0259 bunu soru\u015fdu: – Siz Allah, m\u0259n\u0259 su i\u00e7irdib, orucumu batil etm\u0259diniz ki?!.. M\u0259ni Allah\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00fcnaha bat\u0131rmad\u0131n\u0131z ki?!..<\/p>\n

Qon\u015fular and-aman etdil\u0259r ki, bel\u0259 i\u015f olmad\u0131, s\u0259n\u0259 su i\u00e7irtm\u0259dik. Ondan sonra n\u0259n\u0259m arxay\u0131nla\u015fib, – \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr s\u0259n\u0259, ilahi!.. – dedi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259timizd\u0259 \u201cpe\u015fkar\u201d deyil\u0259n bir yer vard\u0131. Ora x\u0131rman yeri d\u0259 deyirdik. Tax\u0131l\u0131 oraqla, d\u0259ryazla bi\u00e7dikd\u0259n sonra, d\u0259rz vuraraq da\u015f\u0131y\u0131b h\u0259min x\u0131rman yerin\u0259 t\u00f6k\u0259rdik. Sonra ata qo\u015fulmu\u015f v\u0259li tax\u0131l\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259 d\u00f6vr\u0259 vurduraraq, onun bu\u011fdas\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xana q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6y\u0259rdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Biz u\u015faqlar da, n\u00f6vb\u0259 il\u0259 v\u0259lin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 min\u0259rdik. At yorta-yorta getdiyind\u0259n biz d\u0259 v\u0259lin \u00fcst\u0259 nehr\u0259 kimi \u00e7alxalanard\u0131q. V\u0259l deyil\u0259n bu\u011fda, noxud, m\u0259rci d\u00f6y\u0259n bu al\u0259t, yonulmu\u015f enli pal\u0131d a\u011fac\u0131ndan d\u00fcz\u0259ldilirdi. V\u0259 h\u0259min yonulmu\u015f a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131na nazik d\u0259mir par\u00e7alar\u0131 vurulard\u0131. Ata, ula\u011fa qo\u015fulan v\u0259l x\u0131rmana t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f d\u0259rzl\u0259rin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259rl\u0259ndikc\u0259 v\u0259lin alt\u0131na vurulmu\u015f o d\u0259mir par\u00e7alar\u0131 d\u0259rzl\u0259ri \u0259z\u0259r\u0259k d\u0259ni s\u00fcnb\u00fcld\u0259n ovub \u00e7\u0131xarard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Toz-torpa\u011fa batsaq da, v\u0259l\u0259 minm\u0259k biz\u0259 \u00f6zg\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259t verirdi. X\u0131rman vaxt\u0131 \u201ch\u00fcn\u00fc\u201d deyil\u0259n x\u0131rda bir h\u0259\u015farat vard\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259 g\u00fccl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259rdi. Amma adam\u0131n \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 dalayard\u0131 ki, dey\u0259rdin b\u0259s, adam\u0131 e\u015f\u015f\u0259k ar\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131r.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 dey\u0259rdi ki, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bu h\u00fcn\u00fcy\u0259 Allah boy-buxun verm\u0259yib, yoxsa \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259diyi adam qalmazd\u0131. Bel\u0259 vaxtlarda n\u0259n\u0259m mis kasada n\u00f6y\u00fct g\u0259tir\u0259r v\u0259 \u0259skini n\u00f6y\u00fct\u0259 bat\u0131r\u0131b bizim boyun-bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131za s\u00fcrt\u0259rdi. N\u00f6y\u00fct\u00fcn iyin\u0259 h\u00fcn\u00fcl\u0259r adama yax\u0131n g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, amma boyun-bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 n\u00f6y\u00fct yand\u0131r\u0131b d\u0259risini q\u0131zardard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tax\u0131l d\u0259rzl\u0259ri d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcb ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131qdan sonra, ax\u015fam\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259s\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m onu sovurard\u0131. \u0130ri mis m\u0259cm\u0259yiy\u0259 tax\u0131l\u0131 doldurub ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qald\u0131rar v\u0259 silk\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-silk\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 yel\u0259 ver\u0259rdi. Bir yel n\u0259\u011fm\u0259si d\u0259 vard\u0131, tax\u0131l\u0131 sovura-sovura oxuyard\u0131: – \u201cYel baba, yel baba… De, hardasan, g\u0259l baba…\u201d<\/p>\n

H\u0259min anda q\u0259rib\u0259 bir hal ba\u015f ver\u0259rdi. N\u0259n\u0259min bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra, hardansa k\u00fcl\u0259k peyda olar v\u0259 onun ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qald\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259cim\u0259yid\u0259ki tax\u0131l\u0131n saman\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7\u00f6r-\u00e7\u00f6p\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 sovurub aparard\u0131 ki… Bu\u011fda sovrulandan sonra onu x\u0259lbir\u0259 vurard\u0131lar. Yaz\u0131q n\u0259n\u0259m bunlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc ed\u0259rdi, ta bu\u011fda kis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b, \u201c\u0259lyeri\u201d deyil\u0259n dama da\u015f\u0131nana kimi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259timizd\u0259 qollu-budaql\u0131 iri bir tut a\u011fac\u0131 vard\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m dey\u0259rdi ki, m\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fcnyaya a\u00e7andan b\u0259ri bu tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Bu tut a\u011fac\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259timiz\u0259 el\u0259 s\u0259rinlik, el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259llik g\u0259tir\u0259rdi ki… \u0130llah ki, yay vaxtlar\u0131. Yay\u0131n qorabi\u015fir\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 bu tut a\u011fac\u0131 hardansa s\u0259rin mehi \u00e7\u0259kib g\u0259tir\u0259rdi. Onun k\u00f6lg\u0259sin\u0259, h\u0259sird\u0259n, palazdan s\u0259rib, k\u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259 qaynad\u0131lan samovar \u00e7ay\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259-i\u00e7\u0259 \u015firin s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 qulaq asmaq, m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 yaddaqalan anlar\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n

Budaqlar\u0131n\u0131n uclar\u0131 g\u00f6y\u00fcn \u0259nginlikl\u0259rin\u0259 dir\u0259n\u0259n bu yar\u0131md\u0131nya tut a\u011fac\u0131 k\u0259ndin h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259rdi. K\u0259ndimizd\u0259 o vaxtlar barama qurdu saxlayard\u0131lar. Barama qurdlar\u0131 da, dey\u0259s\u0259n, tut yarpa\u011f\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey yemirdil\u0259r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, k\u0259ndin q\u0131z, g\u0259linl\u0259ri yaz, yay aylar\u0131nda h\u0259y\u0259timiz\u0259 ax\u0131\u015f\u0131b tutun budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 buday\u0131b aparard\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Anam doqquz u\u015faq d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. U\u015faqlar\u0131n \u00e7oxu da q\u0131z idi. Atalar s\u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr, deyir: – \u201cKas\u0131b\u0131n arvad\u0131 di\u015fi, in\u0259yi is\u0259 erk\u0259k do\u011far. Varl\u0131n\u0131n is\u0259 \u0259ksin\u0259, arvad\u0131 erk\u0259k, in\u0259yi di\u015fi do\u011far\u201d.<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 olanda atam deyin\u0259rdi. Atam\u0131n deyinm\u0259yi n\u0259n\u0259min xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. \u2013 Na\u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u00fck etm\u0259, bala, adam var, o q\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 at\u0131lan d\u0131rna\u011f\u0131na g\u0259zir. Allaha ac\u0131q ged\u0259r, bel\u0259 nasaza s\u00f6zl\u0259r dan\u0131\u015fma, – dey\u0259 atama m\u0259z\u0259mm\u0259t ed\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

Atam n\u0259n\u0259min bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra bir daha bu bar\u0259d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7mazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131\u015f vaxtlar\u0131 evimizin i\u00e7ind\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 n\u0259m \u0259ski iyi g\u0259lirdi. \u00c7\u00f6l-bay\u0131r \u015faxta-sazaq oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259, yeni do\u011fulan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u0259ski-\u00fcsk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc evin i\u00e7ind\u0259, soban\u0131n yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 divara b\u0259rkidilmi\u015f ipd\u0259n asard\u0131lar. Soban\u0131n istisi d\u0259yib, qurutdu\u011fu n\u0259m \u0259skil\u0259rin \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 iyi g\u0259lirdi evd\u0259n. Bu iyi o vaxt \u00e7ox xo\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131m. Bu iy k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n b\u0259l\u0259yinin iyin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

U\u015faqlar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoyu n\u0259n\u0259mizin \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259lib ged\u0259rdi. Anam d\u00fcnyaya u\u015faq g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 onun do\u011fdu\u011fu u\u015faqlar\u0131 da n\u0259n\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fc tutard\u0131. Onun bu i\u015fd\u0259 \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259ri\u015ft\u0259si vard\u0131. U\u015faqlar\u0131n \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti q\u0131\u015f vaxt\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 gec\u0259yars\u0131 do\u011fulard\u0131lar. Kas\u0131b ya\u015fayan adamlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu \u0259lav\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tilikl\u0259r yarad\u0131rd\u0131. Anam\u0131n do\u011faca\u011f\u0131 ay\u0131, be\u015f-\u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn f\u0259rqiyl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa n\u0259n\u0259m bilirdi. \u2013 G\u0259lin, bu ay ay\u0131nd\u0131r ha, s\u0259nin… Y\u0131r-y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 et, haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r! – dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

B\u0259z\u0259n anam n\u0259n\u0259mim t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar dediyi bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n inciy\u0259n kimi olard\u0131. A\u00e7\u0131q dem\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, dilinin ucunda gileyl\u0259nib dey\u0259rdi: – Evin tikilsin bu arvad, el\u0259 bil, do\u011fan m\u0259n yox, budur. Bilir\u0259m d\u0259, bu ay ay\u0131md\u0131r, haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 da g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n sanc\u0131dan divara s\u00f6yk\u0259nib, q\u0131vr\u0131la-q\u0131vr\u0131la nec\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 unuda bilmir\u0259m. N\u0259n\u0259m is\u0259 bir s\u00f6z bel\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n, sakitc\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259\u015f\u0259rdi. Bel\u0259 vaxtlarda o ikiqat zir\u0259k olurdu. Ya\u015f\u0131na uy\u011fun olmayan bir zir\u0259klik vard\u0131 onun can\u0131nda. \u0130\u015fi c\u0259ld v\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259li g\u00f6r\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

Biz u\u015faqlar is\u0259 yan otaqda kirimi\u015fc\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259rdik. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n q\u0131z v\u0259 ya o\u011flan oldu\u011funu yen\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259mizin s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n anlayard\u0131q. Q\u0131z olanda n\u0259n\u0259m bir az uca s\u0259sl\u0259: – Can\u0131n yans\u0131n s\u0259nin, bunun boyuna bax, hay\u00e7\u0131-qaray\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na bir bax da.., – dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 g\u0259lininin o\u011flan do\u011fmas\u0131n\u0131 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131. Atam t\u0259k oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259, n\u0259n\u0259m ist\u0259yirdi ki, onun \u00e7oxluca o\u011flu olsun. Amma bunu \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 ist\u0259yirdi. H\u0259m d\u0259, namaz q\u0131landa Allaha yalvar\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan e\u015fitmi\u015fdim bunlar\u0131.<\/p>\n

U\u015faq anadan olandan sonra n\u0259n\u0259m h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 anama xa\u015f\u0131l bi\u015fir\u0259rdi. O, xa\u015f\u0131l\u0131n art\u0131q-urtu\u011fundan biz b\u00f6y\u00fck u\u015faqlar da yey\u0259rdik. \u0130\u00e7in\u0259 k\u0259ra ya\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 \u00e7oxlu \u0259dvalar qat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f xa\u015f\u0131l\u0131 yem\u0259kl\u0259 doymazd\u0131q. Sanki do\u011fan yaz\u0131q anam\u0131z yox, biz idik.<\/p>\n

Doqquz u\u015faqdan he\u00e7 birinin a\u011f m\u0259l\u0259f\u0259y\u0259 b\u00fck\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259dim. Onlar\u0131n \u0259ski-\u00fcsk\u00fcs\u00fc atam\u0131z\u0131n k\u00f6nh\u0259 \u015falvar, k\u00f6yn\u0259yi, bir d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259ml\u0259, anam\u0131n c\u0131r\u0131q-s\u00f6k\u00fck, daha kara g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n nimda\u015f pal-paltarlar\u0131 olard\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m h\u0259min k\u00f6hn\u0259 \u015falvar k\u00f6yn\u0259yi, paltarlar\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 qay\u00e7\u0131lay\u0131b k\u0259s\u0259r, u\u015faqlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259ski d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox savadl\u0131, t\u00fcrk\u0259\u00e7ar\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xan bir qad\u0131ndi. O bizim h\u0259kimimiz idi. Yeni do\u011fulan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ong\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra, onu yuyundurar, sonra da burnunun \u00fc\u00e7undan, yanaqlar\u0131ndan, daban\u0131ndan, yan\u0131ndan iti \u00fclg\u00fccl\u0259 qan alard\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 indiy\u0259 kimi d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m bunlar n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259ymi\u015f?<\/p>\n

U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 m\u0259n g\u00f6y \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259k deyil\u0259n bir \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259k tutmu\u015fdum. Bu el\u0259 bir axmaq \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259k idi ki, adam\u0131n n\u0259f\u0259sini k\u0259sirdi. El\u0259 b\u0259rkd\u0259n \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, az qal\u0131rd\u0131 ciy\u0259rl\u0259rim ovulub a\u011fz\u0131ndan t\u00f6k\u00fcls\u00fcn. \u00d6sk\u00fcr\u0259k tutanda adam g\u00f6y\u0259rib ke\u00e7irdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259k tutan g\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259ri n\u0259n\u0259m b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m\u0131 bay\u0131ra s\u0259sl\u0259yib, onu harasa g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi. Bir az ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bac\u0131m kasada s\u00fcd g\u0259tirdi. N\u0259n\u0259m onu fincana t\u00f6k\u00fcb m\u0259n\u0259 i\u00e7irtdi.<\/p>\n

S\u00fcd\u00fcn dad\u0131 tamam ba\u015fqa idi. \u00d6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 bel\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 tam\u0131 olan s\u00fcd i\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdim. S\u00fcd h\u0259m qat\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 bir az tur\u015fm\u0259z\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

O s\u00fcd\u00fc i\u00e7\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259nim \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259yim bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 x\u0131rp k\u0259sildi. G\u00fcnortaya yax\u0131n bac\u0131m\u0131 yanlay\u0131b, d\u00fcn\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min i\u00e7irtdiyi o s\u00fcd\u00fcn n\u0259 s\u00fcd\u00fc oldu\u011funu soru\u015fdum. Ax\u0131, s\u00fcd\u00fc o tap\u0131b g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. H\u0259m d\u0259, bac\u0131m\u0131n arada m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b bic-bic g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259si m\u0259ni \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259ndirmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Bac\u0131m is\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min bu bar\u0259d\u0259 ona susma\u011f\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131q verdiyini b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tirib m\u0259n\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259di. Ax\u0131rda, \u00e7ar\u0259siz qal\u0131b, m\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259 olanda n\u0259n\u0259min yast\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131na qoydu\u011fu konfeti ona ver\u0259nd\u0259n sonra sirri a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131na s\u00f6z verdi.<\/p>\n

Konfeti ona verdim. Bac\u0131m \u0259yilib qula\u011f\u0131ma dedi ki, s\u0259nin i\u00e7diyin s\u00fcd qon\u015fumuzun e\u015f\u015f\u0259yinin s\u00fcd\u00fc idi.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri bac\u0131mdan e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259hval\u0131m d\u00f6nd\u00fc. O d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim buland\u0131. M\u0259nim \u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259yiml\u0259 bac\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 qa\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131 bir oldu.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 bo\u011faz\u0131m b\u0259rk a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. Yem\u0259k n\u0259di, he\u00e7 udquna da bilmirdim. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 udqunanda g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n gil\u0259-gil\u0259 ya\u015f t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrdi. Bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131mas\u0131, bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nimi b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259n istilik m\u0259ni dirig\u00f6zl\u00fc yand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Gec\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259rar\u0259tim o q\u0259d\u0259r qalxard\u0131 ki, \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 say\u0131qlayard\u0131m. Bel\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259nim qolumdan tutub k\u0259ndin k\u0259nar\u0131nda ya\u015fayan R\u00fcbab\u0259 arvadgil\u0259 apard\u0131.<\/p>\n

R\u00fcbab\u0259 arvad n\u0259n\u0259ml\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131d olsa da, bir az z\u0259himli arvad idi. Adam ondan qorxub, \u00e7\u0259kinirdi. \u00dcst-ba\u015f\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u00f6r-t\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc olurdu. Boyun-bo\u011faz\u0131ndan da iri muncuqlar asard\u0131. Bu muncuqlar\u0131n he\u00e7 biri bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259zdi. Biri a\u011f, o biri sari, dig\u0259ri qara, bir ba\u015fqas\u0131 b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yi r\u0259ngd\u0259 olard\u0131. H\u0259tta, bu muncuqlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda it di\u015fin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259r uzunsov s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259r d\u0259 olard\u0131. Do\u011frusu, o muncuqlara baxanda \u00fcr\u0259yim bulan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259ni R\u00fcbab\u0259 arvada g\u00f6st\u0259rib dedi:<\/p>\n

– Bac\u0131, bu u\u015faq q\u0131zd\u0131rman\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 yan\u0131r. Gec\u0259l\u0259r o q\u0259d\u0259r istiliyi art\u0131r ki, yaz\u0131q u\u015faq lap yerini islad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

R\u00fcbab\u0259 arvad m\u0259nim qolumdan tutub yan\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdi v\u0259 quca\u011f\u0131nda oturdub barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 qu\u015f cayna\u011f\u0131 kimi \u0259ngim\u0259 ke\u00e7irtdi. A\u011fz\u0131m geni\u015f a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Arvad diqq\u0259tl\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 baxandan sonra, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7evirib dedi:<\/p>\n

– Q\u0131za, qara geymiy\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131, bu u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n bo\u011faz\u0131 g\u0259lib ki. G\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n, nec\u0259 \u015fi\u015fib, irinl\u0259yib bunun bo\u011fz\u0131.<\/p>\n

R\u00fcbab\u0259 arvad kimis\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259yib duz ist\u0259di. Ona duz g\u0259tirdil\u0259r. Arvad m\u0259nim a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131 v\u0259 sonra barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z a\u011fz\u0131na sal\u0131b t\u00fcp\u00fcrc\u0259yi il\u0259 barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 islatd\u0131. Sonra is\u0259 h\u0259min barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duza bat\u0131r\u0131b m\u0259nim bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 sald\u0131 v\u0259 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131n sa\u011f v\u0259 sol t\u0259r\u0259fini basma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Onun kird\u0259n cadar-cadar olmu\u015f barma\u011f\u0131 bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki \u015fi\u015fl\u0259ri \u0259zib, partlatd\u0131qca a\u011fz\u0131ma qanlaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q maye ax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

R\u00fcbab\u0259 arvad t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duza bat\u0131r\u0131b bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131 bas\u0131rd\u0131. A\u011fr\u0131dan az qal\u0131rd\u0131 ki, \u00fcr\u0259yim dayans\u0131n. N\u0259n\u0259m qollar\u0131mdan b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yerimd\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259 bilmirdim.<\/p>\n

R\u00fcbab\u0259 arvad i\u015fini qurtarandan sonra n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, u\u015fa\u011fa bir-iki g\u00fcn tur\u015f al\u00e7a qurusunu suda islad\u0131b suyunu i\u00e7irtsin. \u2013 Omac a\u015f\u0131ndan, t\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bi\u015fir yesin, ya\u011fl\u0131 \u015fey verm\u0259. Bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 da yun \u015falla ba\u011fla, – dedi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m bir-iki g\u00fcn R\u00fcbab\u0259 arvad dey\u0259n qaydada m\u0259ni qorudu. M\u0259n tamam sa\u011fal\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259ldim…<\/p>\n

Anam h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m\u0131n uzun, kilk\u0259li sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 mis kasaya t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ayranla yuyard\u0131. H\u0259r yuyanda da deyin\u0259rdi ki, bu boyda yek\u0259 q\u0131zsan, amma sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn yuya bilmirs\u0259n. Bel\u0259 vaxtda n\u0259n\u0259m \u0259yilib az qala g\u00fccl\u0259 e\u015fidil\u0259c\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259 anam\u0131n qula\u011f\u0131na dey\u0259rdi: – \u201cG\u0259lin, ba\u015fuva d\u00f6n\u00fcm, s\u0259n bu ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n yumurdummu?! N\u0259 tez yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 o g\u00fcnl\u0259r? U\u015faqd\u0131 da, \u00f6yr\u0259t \u00f6z\u00fc yusun\u201d.<\/p>\n

Sonra o, diz\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb anam\u0131 ehmalca dirs\u0259yi il\u0259 k\u0259nara it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259r v\u0259 bac\u0131m\u0131n uzun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 toparlay\u0131b, mis kasadak\u0131 ayrana sal\u0131b isladar, sonra is\u0259 islanm\u0131\u015f t\u00fckl\u0259ri qolunun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k dara\u011f\u0131n iri di\u015fl\u0259riyl\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f kilk\u0259sini alard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sa\u00e7\u0131n ki, kilk\u0259si a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, daraq sa\u00e7da el\u0259 axard\u0131 ki, baxanda adam\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yinin q\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259rdi. N\u0259n\u0259m arada dara\u011fa diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxard\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir \u015fey sata\u015fanda aya\u011fa durub bir az n\u00f6y\u00fct g\u0259tir\u0259r v\u0259 t\u0259miz il\u0131q suyla qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b, lap ax\u0131rda bac\u0131m\u0131n sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 n\u00f6y\u00fctl\u00fc suyla yuyard\u0131. Bunun s\u0259b\u0259bini n\u0259n\u0259mizd\u0259n soru\u015fanda is\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259zdi… Amma bunun s\u0259b\u0259bini bilirdik. Qon\u015fu arvad\u0131 da q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 n\u00f6y\u00fctl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 deyin\u0259-deyin\u0259 dey\u0259rdi: – \u201cAy s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcm, \u0259lin he\u00e7 yar \u0259lin\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259sin, bu bit-sirk\u0259ni hardan doldurmusan e, ba\u015f\u0131na?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox kas\u0131b ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131q, k\u00fclf\u0259t b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. Amma mehriban idik. Evd\u0259 dava-dala\u015f\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ancaq n\u0259n\u0259miz alard\u0131. \u0130st\u0259r, biz u\u015faqlar\u0131n, ist\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259, ata-anam\u0131n m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259rini h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min t\u0259rs bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259rdi. B\u0259z\u0259n atam bir \u015feyi bahan\u0259 edib anama \u0259l qald\u0131rmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m sakitc\u0259 dey\u0259rdi: – \u201cU\u015faqlar\u0131n z\u0259hrin-ba\u011fr\u0131n yarmay\u0131n, oturun yerinizd\u0259!..\u201d O d\u0259qiq\u0259 atam sakitl\u0259\u015firdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259ni \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdi. – S\u0259n babana ox\u015fay\u0131rsan, – dey\u0259rdi. – Babam nec\u0259 adam olub? – soru\u015fard\u0131m. – O \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 adam idi, – dey\u0259rdi. – Atam da babama ox\u015fay\u0131b? – soru\u015fard\u0131m. – Yox, atan z\u0259h\u0259r tulu\u011fudur!- n\u0259n\u0259m dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

Kas\u0131b oldu\u011fumuza g\u00f6r\u0259 yatacaq az olard\u0131. Q\u0131\u015f aylar\u0131 od-ocaqdan yaman korluq \u00e7\u0259kirdik. N\u0259n\u0259m bel\u0259 vaxtlarda t\u0259ndird\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259ri bi\u015firdikd\u0259n sonra, t\u0259ndirin k\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saca y\u0131\u011far v\u0259 biz yatd\u0131\u011flm\u0131z ota\u011fa qoyard\u0131. K\u00f6z d\u0259 bir az istilik ver\u0259nd\u0259n sonra yan\u0131b k\u00fcl\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259rdi. Uzun q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259sind\u0259 tir-tir titr\u0259yirdik. Bac\u0131lar\u0131m \u201cba\u015f-ayaq\u201d yatard\u0131lar ki q\u0131z\u0131ns\u0131nlar. M\u0259n is\u0259, d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259, yor\u011fan\u0131 ikiqat edib aras\u0131na gir\u0259rdim. \u0130ki qatlanm\u0131\u015f yor\u011fan aras\u0131nda yatanlar y\u0259qin anlayarlar ki, bel\u0259 yatmaq \u00e7ox \u0259zabl\u0131 bir i\u015fdir. S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dizl\u0259rini qucaqlayaraq bir b\u00f6y\u00fcr\u00fc \u00fcst\u0259 yatmaq o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin idi ki…<\/p>\n

Soyuqdan titr\u0259diyimi hiss ed\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 qula\u011f\u0131ma tutar v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 dey\u0259rdi: – \u201cD\u00f6z, \u00e7\u0259tini b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259n\u0259c\u0259ndir. \u0130n\u015fallah, b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb arvad alarsan, ondan sonra \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259zs\u0259n\u201d.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259min bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra i\u00e7imd\u0259, el\u0259 bil, \u00fcmid i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yanard\u0131, b\u0259d\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131nard\u0131… M\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131\u015f\u0131 h\u0259min \u00fcmid i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n hesab\u0131na yola verirdim…<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m imanl\u0131 v\u0259 halal adam idi. M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt onun kimins\u0259 dal\u0131nca dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, qeyb\u0259t etdiyinin \u015fahidi olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Bir s\u00f6z\u00fc vard\u0131, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259d\u0259rdi; – Adam g\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0259dr-q\u00fcr\u00fcbd\u0259n salmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox q\u0259na\u0259tcil arvad idi, h\u0259y\u0259t-bacam\u0131zda \u00e7oxlu toyuq-c\u00fcc\u0259, mal-qara olsa da, o biz\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi cir\u0259 il\u0259 ver\u0259rdi. Qarn\u0131m\u0131z doyard\u0131, amma g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yem\u0259yin dal\u0131nca qalard\u0131. \u018flinin duzu vard\u0131. \u0130st\u0259r plov bi\u015firsin, ist\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259 adic\u0259 so\u011fansu o q\u0259d\u0259r l\u0259zz\u0259tli olard\u0131 ki… Yem\u0259k b\u00f6lm\u0259kd\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259ri\u015ft\u0259si b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. Kim\u0259 hans\u0131 \u0259t tik\u0259sin ataca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi v\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 eyni qaydayla yem\u0259yi \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Zarafat deyil, on iki n\u0259f\u0259r ail\u0259 \u00fczv\u00fcn\u0259 bir toyu\u011fu v\u0259 yaxud da c\u00fcc\u0259ni b\u00f6lm\u0259k asan i\u015f deyildi.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min o vaxtlar bi\u015firdiyi iki yem\u0259yin h\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m. Biri c\u00fcc\u0259 c\u0131\u011f\u0131rtmas\u0131 idi, o biri is\u0259 \u201cso\u011fansu\u201d deyil\u0259n bir yem\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

C\u00fcc\u0259 c\u0131\u011f\u0131rtmas\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 bi\u015fir\u0259rdi ki, adam c\u00fcc\u0259nin s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rini d\u0259 g\u0259mir\u0259rdi. Bel\u0259 vaxtlarda arvad g\u00fcl\u00fcb dey\u0259rdi ki, ay bala, bu s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259ri g\u0259mirib, yediniz, b\u0259s, h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki it\u0259 n\u0259 ataca\u011f\u0131q?<\/p>\n

So\u011fansu deyil\u0259n yem\u0259k is\u0259 dadl\u0131 olsa da, u\u015faq vaxt\u0131 bizim \u0259n \u00e7ox z\u0259hl\u0259miz getdiyi yem\u0259k idi. H\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259, he\u00e7 olmasa \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd d\u0259f\u0259 bu yem\u0259kd\u0259n bi\u015fir\u0259rdil\u0259r. Adam\u0131n qarn\u0131 doymazd\u0131. Ya\u011fda qovrulmu\u015f g\u00f6y so\u011fan idi, bir d\u0259 su. Yem\u0259k bi\u015f\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131n is\u0259 bir \u0259d\u0259d d\u0259 yumurta \u00e7alard\u0131lar o yem\u0259yin i\u00e7in\u0259 ki, dadl\u0131 olsun.<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 qoyundan, maldan g\u0259l\u0259n kimi birinci oca\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki qazan\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b baxard\u0131q. Nec\u0259 ki, so\u011fansu yem\u0259yinin bi\u015fdiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb, hirsl\u0259n\u0259r v\u0259: – Ehh, yen\u0259 d\u0259 so\u011fansu?! – deyib doda\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 sallard\u0131q. Bel\u0259 vaxtlarda n\u0259n\u0259m bizi danlay\u0131b dey\u0259rdi: – Qudurmay\u0131n bala, adam var ona da h\u0259sr\u0259tdir.<\/p>\n

U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 bir az qar\u0131nqulu olmu\u015fam. G\u00f6z\u00fcm h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min \u00e7\u00f6m\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259 olard\u0131. Qab\u0131ma at\u0131lan \u0259lav\u0259 x\u0131rdaca \u0259t par\u00e7as\u0131 da m\u0259ni sevindir\u0259rdi. B\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131mla qazan dibi qa\u015f\u0131maq \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 davam\u0131z d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdi. Bu m\u00fcbahis\u0259ni yen\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min s\u00f6zl\u0259ri k\u0259s\u0259rdi. Bel\u0259 vaxtda o dey\u0259rdi: – Qazandibi yey\u0259n adam\u0131n toyunda ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011far. B\u0259sdirin, qazan dibi qa\u015f\u0131d\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nd u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 odu\u011fumuza g\u00f6r\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n, pal\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdik. Guya, toyumuzda ya\u011fmas\u0131n dey\u0259, tezc\u0259li qazan\u0131 bir-birimiz\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f uzad\u0131b: – al, s\u0259n ye! – dey\u0259rdik.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259timizin bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 t\u0259ndirimiz var idi. T\u0259ndiri n\u0259n\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fc qoyard\u0131. Onun pal\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da, \u015fir\u0259sini d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc haz\u0131rlayard\u0131. Bir-iki h\u0259ft\u0259 pal\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0131cq\u0131rtd\u0131qdan sonra t\u0259ndiri qoyard\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259min bi\u015firdiyi \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259rin \u0259tri, iyi ba\u015fqa idi. T\u0259ndir\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yapanda n\u0259n\u0259m qoluna \u201cqol\u00e7aq\u201d deyil\u0259n, b\u0259rk par\u00e7adan d\u00fcz\u0259ltdiyi \u0259l\u00e7\u0259kfason bir \u015fey ke\u00e7ir\u0259rdi. Amma h\u0259min qol\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n barmaqlar\u0131 olmazd\u0131, el\u0259 dirs\u0259kd\u0259n \u0259lin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r olan yeri tutard\u0131. Bu da, t\u0259ndir\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yapanda qolun t\u0259ndir\u0259 yap\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m t\u0259ndir\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yapanda bizi t\u0259ndirin yan\u0131na qoymazd\u0131. Dey\u0259rdi ki, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131z a\u011f\u0131r olar, k\u00fcnd\u0259l\u0259r k\u00fct\u0259 ged\u0259r. Biz u\u015faqlar da uzaqdan durub baxard\u0131q. Nec\u0259 ki, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131l\u0131b tabaxa y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259m ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kd\u0259n k\u0259sib h\u0259r\u0259miz\u0259 bir par\u00e7a ver\u0259rdi. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qonum-qon\u015fu u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n o h\u0259nd\u0259v\u0259rd\u0259 olan\u0131 olsayd\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259m onlar\u0131 da \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b isti \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kd\u0259n ver\u0259rdi. Bu biz\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. Niy\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yimizi onlara verib qurtar\u0131rsan? – dey\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259miz\u0259 etiraz etm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, – siz q\u0259l\u0259tinizi edin, oturun yerinizd\u0259. Onlar u\u015faqd\u0131lar \u015fi\u015fib el\u0259rl\u0259r, – dey\u0259rdi. Lap ax\u0131rda, a\u011fz\u0131 sulana-sulana onun \u0259lin\u0259 baxan itimizin d\u0259 pay\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sm\u0259zdi. Ona da bir par\u00e7a \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k ataraq; – o d\u00fcnyada adam\u0131n \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc c\u0131rmaqlayar, – dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015fir\u0259nd\u0259 biz u\u015faqlar Allaha yalvarard\u0131q ki, he\u00e7 olmasa k\u00fcnd\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n bir-ikisi k\u00fct\u0259 getsin. K\u00fcnd\u0259 k\u00fct\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259ndir\u0259 yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015f qazmaq \u00fcst\u0259 davam\u0131z d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

Soyuq havalarda d\u00f6vr\u0259 vuraraq, t\u0259ndir \u00fcst\u0259 oturub q\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 t\u0259ndirin i\u00e7in\u0259 sallayaraq, ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 t\u0259ndirin istisind\u0259 isitm\u0259yin \u00f6zg\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259ti vard\u0131. T\u0259ndirin istisi adam\u0131n can\u0131na ya\u011f kimi yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 \u00e7ox a\u011fla\u011fan bir u\u015faq olmu\u015fam. Ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc, \u015f\u0259rqar\u0131\u015fan vaxt\u0131, nax\u0131r k\u0259nd\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259ni a\u011flamaq tutard\u0131. He\u00e7 bir s\u0259b\u0259b olmadan ba\u015flard\u0131m \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn yen\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011flamaq ist\u0259rk\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259m ehmalca m\u0259nim qolumdan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259-\u00e7\u0259k\u0259 g\u0259tirib h\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda m\u0259ni arxas\u0131\u00fcst\u0259 yer\u0259 y\u0131xd\u0131. Sonra bir dizini bu qolumun \u00fcst\u0259, o biri dizini d\u0259 o biri qolumun \u00fcst\u0259 qoydu. \u018fyilib, qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan bir qalo\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259 vurdu.<\/p>\n

Z\u0259rb\u0259d\u0259n dodaqlar\u0131m qanad\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m ovcunda tutdu\u011fu duzu dodaqlar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcb bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 qalo\u015fun alt\u0131yla vurdu. Paralanm\u0131\u015f dodaq ola, duz ola, el\u0259 bil iman\u0131m-dinim yand\u0131. O t\u0259rgid\u0259n, bu t\u0259rgid\u0259n bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt ax\u015fam\u00e7a\u011f\u0131, niyaz vaxt\u0131 a\u011flamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bu hadis\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7ox ill\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bir kitabdan oxudum ki, u\u015faq ax\u015fam\u00e7a\u011f\u0131lar bir s\u0259b\u0259b olmadan a\u011flay\u0131rsa, dem\u0259k o, ata-anas\u0131n\u0131n \u201cba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yem\u0259k\u201d ist\u0259yir. O u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na duz t\u00f6k\u00fcb, qalo\u015fla vurmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r ki, u\u015faq bu axmaq v\u0259rdi\u015find\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259ksin. Bax, n\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259ni bel\u0259 t\u0259rbiyy\u0259l\u0259ndirirdi.<\/p>\n

K\u00fcs\u0259y\u0259n idim. X\u0131rda bir \u015feyl\u0259r \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 k\u00fcs\u0259r\u0259k, evin bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib saatlarla m\u0131sm\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sallayaraq oturub qalard\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fcn d\u0259 k\u00fcsm\u0259kd\u0259n z\u0259hl\u0259m ged\u0259rdi. \u00c7ox vaxt yem\u0259yim soyuyub, buza d\u00f6n\u0259r, ya da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki itin qaba\u011f\u0131na atard\u0131lar. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u00f6z ver\u0259rdim ki, bir daha k\u00fcsm\u0259yim. \u00c7\u00fcnki bu k\u00fcsm\u0259k q\u0259tiyy\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259rf el\u0259mirdi. Ac qal\u0131rd\u0131m, susuz qal\u0131rd\u0131m, b\u0259z\u0259n bu k\u00fcsm\u0259yimin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcm d\u0259. Amma bu z\u0259hrimara qalm\u0131\u015f k\u00fcsm\u0259yimi t\u0259rgid\u0259 bilmirdim ki, bilmirdim.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259f\u0259 he\u00e7 yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmaz, yay\u0131n \u00e7\u0131rrama istisiydi, g\u00fcnorta vaxt\u0131 olard\u0131. K\u0259nd\u00e7imiz F\u0259rail ki\u015fi biz\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Bu ki\u015fi \u00e7ox vasvas\u0131 bir adam idi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 doda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ucunda dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnortaya ovduq haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Ovduq da bel\u0259dir d\u0259 i\u00e7in\u0259 \u015f\u00fcy\u00fcd, g\u00f6y so\u011fan, t\u0259r xiyar, bir d\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k do\u011fray\u0131b qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rard\u0131lar. Yay vaxt\u0131 \u00e7ox l\u0259zz\u0259tli bir yem\u0259k idi. Adam\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini bumbuz edirdi. H\u0259r k\u0259s ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b ovdu\u011funu i\u00e7irdi. Bilmir\u0259m, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, yen\u0259 m\u0259nim t\u0259rsliyim tutmu\u015fdu, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n k\u00fcsm\u0259k ke\u00e7irdi. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b, f\u0131s-f\u0131s f\u0131s\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131m. F\u0259rail ki\u015fi bir-iki d\u0259f\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Bala, n\u00f6\u015f yemirs\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini? \u2013 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n m\u0131z\u0131ldand\u0131m:<\/p>\n

– \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yi yem\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m, onu ay\u0131r\u0131n!<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rimi e\u015fidib, qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 kasan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259ri qa\u015f\u0131qlay\u0131b g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sonra ac\u0131ql\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Ye!..<\/p>\n

M\u0259n qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259lim\u0259 alsam da, ovdu\u011fumu i\u00e7m\u0259dim, qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n ucuyla kasadak\u0131 g\u00f6y-g\u00f6y\u0259rtini, xiyar\u0131 ora-bura qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rail ki\u015fi d\u00f6zm\u0259yib soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

– \u0130ndi niy\u0259 yemirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0131z\u0131ldand\u0131m:<\/p>\n

– Bunlar\u0131 da ist\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259yi deyirs\u0259n? \u2013 dey\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Bu g\u00f6y\u0259rtini, xiyar\u0131 yem\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m! – dedim.<\/p>\n

Arvad bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259yib, ac\u0131ql\u0131-ac\u0131ql\u0131 bu d\u0259f\u0259 kasan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki g\u00f6y so\u011fan\u0131, xiyar\u0131 qa\u015f\u0131qlay\u0131b \u00f6z qab\u0131na t\u00f6kd\u00fc v\u0259 kasan\u0131 hirsl\u0259 m\u0259nim qaba\u011f\u0131ma qoyub:<\/p>\n

– \u0130ndi n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn?! Yey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, ya yen\u0259 d\u0259 z\u0259hl\u0259mizi t\u00f6k\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259yib burnumu \u00e7\u0259kdim.<\/p>\n

Onlar art\u0131q ovduqlar\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7ib qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. N\u0259n\u0259m s\u00fcfr\u0259ni y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259ni is\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259rslik tutmu\u015fdu. \u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259 n\u0259 ist\u0259diyimi bilmirdim. Kasada is\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 ayran qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rail ki\u015fi barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ucuyla b\u00f6y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259 bir d\u00fcrtm\u0259 vurub g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, k\u00fcs\u0259g\u0259n o\u011flan, indi niy\u0259 yemirs\u0259n? \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yi dedin, ay\u0131rd\u0131lar, g\u00f6y\u0259rtini b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tirdin onu da ay\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u0130ndi n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn var? T\u0259rslik el\u0259m\u0259, ye, qoy y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rs\u0131nlar s\u00fcfr\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n m\u0131z\u0131ldana-m\u0131z\u0131ldana:<\/p>\n

– \u0130ndi d\u0259, ayrandan suyu ay\u0131r\u0131n! \u2013 dedim.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rail ki\u015fi \u0259lini-\u0259lin\u0259 vurub:<\/p>\n

– Day, m\u0259nim s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm yoxdur, a bala. \u018fd\u0259, ay evi tikilmi\u015fin o\u011flu, ayrandan da suyu ay\u0131rmaq olar? S\u0259n n\u0259 t\u0259rs u\u015faqsan?<\/p>\n

F\u0259rail ki\u015finin s\u00f6z\u00fc a\u011fz\u0131ndan qurtarmam\u0131\u015f, n\u0259n\u0259m qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131n dibin\u0259 el\u0259 bir \u015fapalaq ili\u015fdirdi ki, a\u011fr\u0131dan, el\u0259 bil g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131m parlad\u0131. A\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. A\u011flad\u0131qca da, el\u0259 bil k\u00f6p\u00fcm al\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131, yava\u015f-yava\u015f sakitl\u0259\u015firdim. \u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 dedim ki, s\u0259n\u0259 qurban olum, ay n\u0259n\u0259, bunu bir az qabaq vurayd\u0131n da…<\/p>\n

O \u0259hvalatdan sonra F\u0259rail ki\u015fi harda m\u0259ni g\u00f6rs\u0259ydi soru\u015fard\u0131: – Daha k\u00fcsm\u00fcrs\u0259n ki?<\/p>\n

T\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat\u0131m\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fck idi, qara mal\u0131m\u0131z, qoyun-quzumuz, h\u0259y\u0259t-bacada toyuq-c\u00fcc\u0259miz vard\u0131. \u018fkin sah\u0259miz d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck idi, yay vaxt\u0131 bostan\u0131m\u0131z bol olard\u0131. H\u0259m kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdan, h\u0259m d\u0259, yem\u0259diyimiz, art\u0131q qalan m\u0259hsullar\u0131 qonum-qon\u015fuya h\u0259m pay ver\u0259rdik, h\u0259m d\u0259, satard\u0131q.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259min bir t\u0259r\u0259zisi vard\u0131. T\u0259r\u0259zinin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259sir pis\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n h\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. S\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb getm\u0259sin dey\u0259, q\u0131raqlar\u0131na b\u0259rk par\u00e7adan yamaq sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. T\u0259r\u0259zinin i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir kiloluq \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131 da var idi. Bu c\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131 qo\u015fa yumruq boyda idi. Qapqara \u00e7aylaq da\u015f\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m o t\u0259r\u0259ziyl\u0259 bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259, el\u0259 bil, o, t\u0259r\u0259zid\u0259 iman\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirdi. T\u0259r\u0259zinin o h\u0259sir g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ki, b\u0259rab\u0259rl\u0259\u015fdi, h\u0259, onda arvad bir az da art\u0131q at\u0131b dey\u0259rdi ki, bu da halall\u0131q olsun.<\/p>\n

K\u0259ndimizd\u0259 Qaraq\u0131z deyil\u0259n lal bir arvad var idi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131, \u015fori v\u0259 bostan m\u0259hsullar\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259lib n\u0259n\u0259md\u0259n alard\u0131. Biz u\u015faqlar ondan \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259rdik. O, biz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00fcy\u00fcy\u00fcb h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131q. Q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc vard\u0131; – \u201cp\u0259-p\u0259hhh\u201d – deyib el\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rard\u0131 ki, adam\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 t\u00fckl\u0259ri biz-biz durard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Qaraq\u0131z n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7ox inan\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m d\u0259 onun dilini el\u0259 bilirdi ki… B\u0259z\u0259n saatlarla onlar\u0131n bir-biriyl\u0259 \u201cs\u00f6hb\u0259t\u201d etdikl\u0259rinin \u015fahidi olmu\u015fduq. Qaraq\u0131z \u00e7ox diqq\u0259tcil v\u0259 g\u00f6zd\u0259n t\u00fckqapan bir arvad idi. H\u0259l\u0259m-h\u0259l\u0259m ona bir \u015feyi b\u0259y\u0259ndirm\u0259k olmazd\u0131. Xiyar\u0131n \u0259yri-\u00fcyr\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc, pamidorun k\u0259l\u0259n-k\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcn se\u00e7ib atar, harda mal\u0131n f\u0259rlisi var onu t\u0259r\u0259ziy\u0259 qoyard\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259zid\u0259n \u00e7\u0259km\u0259zdi. Bir \u015fey alanda diz\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259r v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini t\u0259r\u0259zinin p\u0259rs\u0259ngin\u0259 el\u0259 dik\u0259rdi ki, el\u0259 bil, ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 pamidor, xiyar deyil q\u0131z\u0131ld\u0131r. N\u0259n\u0259m d\u0259 altdan-altdan onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131b, dodaqalt\u0131 q\u0131m\u0131\u015fard\u0131.<\/p>\n

O \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131 bizim evd\u0259 m\u00fcqq\u0259dd\u0259s say\u0131lird\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259min qorxusundan o da\u015fa \u0259l vurma\u011fa c\u00fcr\u0259t etm\u0259zdik. T\u0259r\u0259zi il\u0259 \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131n\u0131n evimizd\u0259 \u00f6z yeri vard\u0131. Eyvan\u0131n k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259, divara \u00e7al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f m\u0131xdan as\u0131lard\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259zi. \u00c7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131 da h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259zinin bir g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 olard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259riyin \u00e7\u0259yird\u0259yini s\u0131nd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o da\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259zinin i\u00e7ind\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 apard\u0131m v\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 \u0259rik d\u0259n\u0259sinin qab\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 onunla \u0259zdim. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 nec\u0259 oldusa, \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131 \u0259rik d\u0259n\u0259sind\u0259n yay\u0131n\u0131b altdak\u0131 da\u015fa d\u0259ydi v\u0259 x\u0131rdaca, barmaq boyda bir hiss\u0259 qopub yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxmay\u0131nca da\u015fdan qopan yeri ay\u0131rd etm\u0259k olmazd\u0131. Amma nec\u0259 olsa, \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131yd\u0131, n\u0259 vaxtsa n\u0259n\u0259m bunu bil\u0259c\u0259kdi. Da\u015f\u0131 f\u0259nc\u0259n apar\u0131b yerin\u0259 qoydum v\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 evd\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259dim. \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn yen\u0259 d\u0259 Qaraq\u0131z arvad biz\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, dey\u0259s\u0259n, bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u015for al\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m t\u0259r\u0259zid\u0259 \u015foru \u00e7\u0259kib ona verdi. Arvad \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi.<\/p>\n

Bir azdan, m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 hesab f\u0259nnind\u0259n d\u0259rs dey\u0259n \u015eaban adl\u0131 m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u0259 g\u0259lib \u015fordan, ya\u011fdan n\u0259 is\u0259 al\u0131b getdi. Sonra bir ne\u00e7\u0259 qon\u015fu da g\u0259lib n\u0259n\u0259ml\u0259 alver etdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Bu zaman q\u0259rib\u0259 bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fck ki, Qaraq\u0131z arvad hay-k\u00fcyl\u0259 bizim ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259lir. O \u00e7atar-\u00e7atmaz h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 bir h\u0259n\u011fam\u0259 qopartd\u0131 ki, g\u0259l g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n. N\u0259n\u0259m tez h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259 maraqland\u0131. Qaraq\u0131z arvad \u0259lind\u0259ki \u015foru n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k, qiyam\u0259t qopar\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m is\u0259 onu sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015faraq, n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Qaraq\u0131z is\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259ki \u015foru n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k n\u0259 is\u0259 ba\u015fa salma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, n\u0259n\u0259m onu anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qaraq\u0131z bu d\u0259f\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015forun kilodan az olmas\u0131ndan naraz\u0131l\u0131q edirdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m \u015foru onun \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131b t\u0259r\u0259ziy\u0259 qoydu v\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. H\u0259r ikisi g\u00f6zl\u0259rini t\u0259r\u0259zinin p\u0259rs\u0259ngin\u0259 dikmi\u015fdil\u0259r. T\u0259r\u0259zinin h\u0259r iki g\u00f6z\u00fc b\u0259rab\u0259r dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 fikirliydi. O, \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 al\u0131b, o t\u0259r\u0259f-bu t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 baxd\u0131. Bird\u0259n o, da\u015f\u0131n q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndan bir \u00e7imdik yerin qopdu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, n\u0259n\u0259min utand\u0131\u011fndan sif\u0259tinin q\u0131zard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fck. O ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb ya\u011fdan, \u015fordan \u0259lin\u0259 n\u0259 ke\u00e7dis\u0259 g\u0259tirib Qaraq\u0131z\u0131n torbas\u0131na qoyub onu yola sald\u0131, he\u00e7 pul da almad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sonra arvad \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 biz\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rib: – Bu da\u015f\u0131 kim s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131b?- dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Qorxumuzdan he\u00e7 k\u0259s c\u0131nq\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xartmad\u0131<\/p>\n

Arvad d\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb : – Siz m\u0259ni g\u00fcnaha bat\u0131rd\u0131n\u0131z! – dedi v\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7ox ill\u0259rin ke\u00e7m\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u0259n bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ke\u00e7irir\u0259m. Nec\u0259 oldu ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 birc\u0259 g\u00fcn d\u0259 d\u0259rs oxumayan, savads\u0131z, lal-kar olan bir qad\u0131n, \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131ndan qopmu\u015f d\u0131rnaq boyda bir tili\u015fk\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259zinin s\u0259hv \u00e7\u0259kdiyini hiss ed\u0259 bildi, amma ali t\u0259hsili olan v\u0259 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t riyaziyyatdan d\u0259rs dey\u0259n bir m\u00fc\u0259llim bunu hiss ed\u0259 bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

… N\u0259n\u0259miz y\u00fcz ya\u015f\u0131nda d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Allahdan dil\u0259diyi kimi bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 olsun yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259kd\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259 yatmad\u0131. El\u0259 sa\u011f-sa\u011flam, ax\u015fam yata\u011f\u0131na girib yatd\u0131 v\u0259 bir d\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r oyanmad\u0131…<\/p>\n

Birinci d\u0259f\u0259ydi ki, h\u0259min s\u0259h\u0259r ev adamlar\u0131 ondan qabaq yerl\u0259rind\u0259n durmu\u015fdular. O is\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259t-bacada g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259ymirdi. – Y\u0259qin, naxo\u015flay\u0131bd\u0131r! – dey\u0259, he\u00e7 k\u0259s q\u0131y\u0131b onu oyatmad\u0131. Amma narahat idik.<\/p>\n

Evd\u0259kil\u0259rd\u0259n kims\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259mizin yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ota\u011fa yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Yax\u0131nla\u015fma\u011f\u0131yla a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya geri d\u00f6nm\u0259si bir an oldu…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6z g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Arxas\u0131 \u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fcmd\u00fcz uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri yumuluydu. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, n\u0259n\u0259m \u00f6l\u0259n zaman \u00f6z g\u00f6zl\u0259rini d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6z \u0259liyl\u0259 qapam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki onun bir \u0259li sin\u0259sind\u0259, o biri \u0259li is\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u0259 quruyub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sif\u0259ti a\u011fappaq, nurlu idi. Bir azca g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6hvr\u0259sind\u0259n, sanki b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259rlik ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Onu a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131z-\u0259zabs\u0131z \u00f6z d\u0259rgah\u0131na apard\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259, y\u0259qin, Allah\u0131na \u015f\u00fckranl\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131 onun bu g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6hvr\u0259si.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m g\u00fcnortaya yax\u0131n d\u0259fn olundu. Q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011fa apar\u0131lark\u0259n m\u0259n d\u0259 onun c\u0259naz\u0259si qoyulmu\u015f mafaya \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimi s\u00f6yk\u0259dim. Qu qu\u015funun t\u00fck\u00fc kimi y\u00fcng\u00fcl idi n\u0259n\u0259min cans\u0131z b\u0259d\u0259ni. Yaz\u0131q arvad, he\u00e7 k\u0259s incim\u0259sin dey\u0259, el\u0259 bil, \u00f6z c\u0259naz\u0259sini d\u0259 m\u0259zara \u00f6z\u00fc apar\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131ma bir v\u0259siyy\u0259t etmi\u015fdi. Tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, Qaraq\u0131z\u0131n bundan sonra ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 n\u0259 olacaqd\u0131sa, onu t\u0259r\u0259zid\u0259 art\u0131q \u00e7\u0259ksin. N\u0259n\u0259miz son g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 y\u0259qin ki, bunun xiff\u0259tini edirmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Onun v\u0259siyy\u0259tini b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m yerin\u0259 yetirirdi. Qaraq\u0131z arvad h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bir \u015fey alma\u011fa g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 bac\u0131m \u00e7\u0259kid\u0259n \u0259lav\u0259 onun qab\u0131n\u0131 doldurmam\u0131\u015f yola salmazd\u0131. O da, iki \u0259lini qo\u015fala\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 qoyar v\u0259 boynunu \u0259y\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f n\u0259n\u0259mizi bel\u0259 yad edirdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259min q\u0131rx m\u0259rasimini yola ver\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 o \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131 da yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Hara getdi, kim apard\u0131 bil\u0259n olmad\u0131. Ham\u0131m\u0131z bu i\u015f\u0259 \u00e7ox q\u0259ml\u0259ndik. Ax\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259mizi bizl\u0259r\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox xat\u0131rladan o \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131 idi. O \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131, el\u0259 bil, n\u0259n\u0259min bizim evd\u0259 dola\u015fan s\u0259rgardan ruhu idi. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 o ruh da bizi t\u0259rk edib getmi\u015fdi…<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131ndan sonra Qaraq\u0131z\u0131n da aya\u011f\u0131 bizim h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n k\u0259sildi. O, bir daha bizim ev\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259di. Get-ged\u0259 evimizin s\u0259liq\u0259-s\u0259hman\u0131 da pozuldu. Atamla, anam h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir-birl\u0259riyl\u0259 deyinirdil\u0259r, g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 k\u00fcsl\u00fc qal\u0131rd\u0131lar. Onlar\u0131 bar\u0131\u015fd\u0131ran da olmurdu. U\u015faqlar\u0131n birinin s\u00f6z\u00fc, o birinin bo\u011faz\u0131ndan ke\u00e7m\u0259zdi, tez-tez dava-dala\u015f edirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259timizin mer-meyv\u0259si, bostan, t\u0259r\u0259v\u0259zi d\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f solub, solxurdu, alan olmurdu. Mal-qaran\u0131n ya\u011f, pendiri d\u0259 azalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259y\u0259t-bacada g\u00fcll\u00fc yayl\u0131q kimi r\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng olan toyuq-c\u00fcc\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b, azlm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Evimizin urvat\u0131, xeyir-b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi, ziyan ziyan \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259yirdi ev-e\u015fiyimiz\u0259…<\/p>\n

K\u0259nd-k\u0259s\u0259kd\u0259 d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck-ki\u00e7ik m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si yava\u015f-yava\u015f aradan qalx\u0131rd\u0131. A\u011fsaqqal, a\u011fbir\u00e7\u0259k s\u00f6z\u00fc e\u015fidilmirdi. \u0130nsanlar get-ged\u0259, el\u0259 bil, bir-birl\u0259rind\u0259n soyuyurdular. Halal il\u0259 haram bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131… G\u00fcnl\u0259r bel\u0259c\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc…<\/p>\n

…\u0130ll\u0259r \u00f6td\u00fckc\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n nizam-t\u0259r\u0259zisi d\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f d\u0259yi\u015fib, pozulma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131… H\u0259r g\u00fcn d\u00fcnyada bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verirdi. H\u0259r \u015fey bir-birin\u0259 d\u0259ymi\u015fdi. \u0130nsanlar\u0131n bir-birin\u0259 inam\u0131 azalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sanki yerin, g\u00f6y\u00fcn b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti \u00e7\u0259kilirdi. El\u0259 bil, bizim evi d\u0259, el-oban\u0131 da, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 da, h\u0259tta, b\u00fct\u00fcn kainat\u0131 da s\u0259hmana salan n\u0259n\u0259min \u00e7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131 imi\u015f…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Mecra.az yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Meyxo\u015f Abdullah\u0131n “\u00c7\u0259ki da\u015f\u0131” adl\u0131 yeni hekay\u0259sini t\u0259qdim edir: … O, atam\u0131n anas\u0131 idi. Onu ham\u0131m\u0131z \u201cn\u0259n\u0259\u201d – dey\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131q. B\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb, a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131z k\u0259s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r onun ad\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":33409,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[63],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-42380","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dbiyyat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42380","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=42380"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42380\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":42381,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42380\/revisions\/42381"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/33409"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=42380"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=42380"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=42380"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}