{"id":39097,"date":"2025-01-28T16:06:12","date_gmt":"2025-01-28T12:06:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=39097"},"modified":"2025-01-28T16:07:24","modified_gmt":"2025-01-28T12:07:24","slug":"yagisla-g%c9%99l%c9%99n-dualar-meyxos-abdullahin-yeni-hekay%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=39097","title":{"rendered":"“Ya\u011f\u0131\u015fla g\u0259l\u0259n dualar…” – Meyxo\u015f Abdullah\u0131n yeni hekay\u0259si"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00a0(Anam\u0131n \u0259ziz xatir\u0259sin\u0259)<\/strong><\/p>\n

K\u0259ndimizd\u0259n uzaqda, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m. Anam is\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259ki evimizd\u0259, ata yurdunda olurdu. \u0130\u015f-g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00e7oxlu\u011fu imkan vermirdi ki, tez-tez k\u0259nd\u0259 gedib, anama ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kim. Lap tezi ayda bir d\u0259f\u0259 vaxt tap\u0131b anama d\u0259yirdim. Qocalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, hiss olunurdu ki, \u00f6mr\u00fc get-ged\u0259 q\u0131sal\u0131r onun. Amma buna baxmayaraq, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 yem\u0259yimd\u0259n tutmu\u015f, geyim-kecimim\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r \u015feyl\u0259 maraqlan\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131ma b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 ki, m\u0259nd\u0259n mu\u011fayat olsun.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m onun bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb dey\u0259rdi: – Ay ana, b\u0259s biz s\u0259nin do\u011fmalar\u0131n deyilik?! Niy\u0259 bizim qeydimiz\u0259 qalm\u0131rsan, t\u0259kc\u0259 o\u011flunun fikrini edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 vaxtlarda anam k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb dey\u0259rdi: – Q\u0131z\u0131m, sizi d\u0259 \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Ham\u0131n\u0131z \u00fcr\u0259yimin bir par\u00e7as\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, amma evin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k qazanan\u0131 odur, ham\u0131n\u0131z ona ba\u011fl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. Onun can\u0131 salamat olanda arxay\u0131n oluram, bilir\u0259m ki, ham\u0131n\u0131z sa\u011f v\u0259 salamats\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n

Anam m\u0259ni \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdi. H\u0259m evin b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fc idim, h\u0259m d\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131qdan \u00e7ox \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdim. Atam erk\u0259n d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn anam\u0131n v\u0259 be\u015f bac\u0131m\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn y\u00fck\u00fc m\u0259nim \u00e7iyinl\u0259rim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Ki\u00e7ik ya\u015flar\u0131mdan z\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ax\u015fama kimi i\u015fl\u0259yirdim. Gec\u0259nin \u015firin yuxusunun n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259zdim. G\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r i\u015f-g\u00fcc dal\u0131s\u0131ycan, gec\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 s\u00fcbh\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lana q\u0259d\u0259r kitab, d\u0259ft\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259\u015f\u0259rdim. O vaxtlar fikirl\u0259\u015firdim, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n n\u0259 vaxtsa doyunca yat\u0131b, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qurdunu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259y\u0259mmi? \u0130ll\u0259r \u00f6td\u00fc \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa oxuyub v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibi oldum, \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 m\u0259nzil al\u0131b, ev-e\u015fik qurdum.<\/p>\n

Ail\u0259d\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131ndan b\u00f6y\u00fck olsam da, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdim ki, ba\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 ev-e\u015fik sahibi etm\u0259yinc\u0259 ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurmayaca\u011fam. Anam is\u0259 m\u0259nim bu fikiriml\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. \u2013 S\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 qur, m\u0259nim balam, h\u0259r k\u0259sin \u00f6z qism\u0259ti var, – dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n evl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259, art\u0131q, otuz iki ya\u015f\u0131m var id\u0131. Anam m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7ox nigaran idi.<\/p>\n

Evl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259n sonra ist\u0259dim ki, anam\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259, yan\u0131ma apar\u0131m. Amma o raz\u0131 olmad\u0131: – M\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259, h\u00f6kum\u0259t evind\u0259 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m! – dedi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259b\u0259bini soru\u015fanda is\u0259 yar\u0131ciddi, yar\u0131zarafat: – Ay o\u011ful, a\u011fr\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259, bir evin ki, ayaqyolusuyla m\u0259tb\u0259xi bir add\u0131ml\u0131qda olsun, o evd\u0259 n\u0259 xeyir, b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t olacaq, ax\u0131? M\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yim bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcr, ba\u015f\u0131na dolan\u0131m, m\u0259cbur el\u0259m\u0259, – dey\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259ni fikrimd\u0259n yay\u0131nd\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ara-s\u0131ra \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259, m\u0259nim yan\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259, hiss edirdim ki, anam \u00e7ox narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q ke\u00e7irir. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 yediyi bir loxma \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k, i\u00e7diyi is\u0259 yar\u0131m st\u0259kan \u00e7ay olurdu.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 vaxtlarda qollar\u0131m\u0131 onun boynuna dolay\u0131b, a\u011f sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u0259r v\u0259: – Ay ana, dey\u0259s\u0259n, o\u011ful \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin\u0259 q\u0131ym\u0131rsan? – soru\u015fard\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Yox, a\u011fr\u0131n al\u0131m, niy\u0259 ki, m\u0259nim el\u0259 yem\u0259yim budur, – dey\u0259rdi. Amma bilirdim ki, arvad h\u0259y\u0259t evin\u0259 v\u0259rdi\u015f etdiyind\u0259n, \u015f\u0259h\u0259r evinin bu g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoyu onun \u00fcr\u0259yinc\u0259 deyildir. \u0130bad\u0259tkar oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259, evin i\u00e7ind\u0259 olan ayaqyolu-filan onun he\u00e7 xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, uzaqba\u015f\u0131 iki g\u00fcn qal\u0131b sonra k\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259rdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259rdi ki, o\u011ful, s\u0259n Allah, bu qu\u015f dam\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x, get \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir par\u00e7a torpaq al, ev-e\u015fik qurgin\u0259n. Qoy, ail\u0259, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131 torpa\u011fa d\u0259ysin, rahat n\u0259f\u0259s als\u0131nlar. N\u0259dir, bu qutunun i\u00e7in\u0259 girib ya\u015fay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n

Ona s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdim ki, \u0259lim\u0259 pul d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n kimi h\u00f6km\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 torpaq al\u0131b, ev tik\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. M\u0259nim bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rim onun \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 ya\u011f kimi yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Deyirdi ki, \u0259g\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259t evin olsa, g\u0259lib h\u0259ft\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 yan\u0131nda qalaca\u011fam.<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n son g\u00fcnl\u0259r v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r ke\u00e7irdi. X\u0259st\u0259liyi bir az da \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Art\u0131q, yataqdan qalxa bilmirdi. Ki\u00e7ik bac\u0131m ail\u0259siyl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 anam\u0131n yan\u0131nda qal\u0131b, onun qullu\u011funu tuturdular. Bu sar\u0131dan \u00e7ox arxay\u0131n idim, bilirdim ki, anam\u0131n hay-haray\u0131nda duran kims\u0259 vard\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259rim \u00e7ox idi, v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibi oldu\u011fuma g\u00f6r\u0259 i\u015fd\u0259n vaxt tapa bilmirdim. \u00c7ox vaxt k\u0259ndimiz\u0259, anam\u0131n yan\u0131na gec\u0259 g\u0259lib, el\u0259 gec\u0259 d\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131m. Bir az yubananda is\u0259, qula\u011f\u0131ma \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131 ki, anam m\u0259nd\u0259n gileylik edir. Bac\u0131lar\u0131ma deyir ki, vallah, ist\u0259mir\u0259m e g\u0259lib m\u0259ni g\u00f6rs\u00fcn, g\u0259lsin, bar\u0131, m\u0259n onu g\u00f6r\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 iki g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdim. Arvad xeyli z\u0259ifl\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00c7uxura d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259yat e\u015fqi yava\u015f-yava\u015f s\u00f6nm\u0259kd\u0259ydi. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 kirpikl\u0259rini vuranda g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ucunda ya\u015f gil\u0259l\u0259nirdi. \u018fll\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki g\u00f6mg\u00f6y damarlar o q\u0259d\u0259r \u015fi\u015fib, iril\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi ki, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259bzi vuranda \u0259linin d\u0259risinin titr\u0259diyini hiss etm\u0259k olurdu. O hal\u0131yla yaz\u0131q arvad h\u0259l\u0259 bir qeydim\u0259 d\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131. – \u0130\u015f-g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc burax\u0131b niy\u0259 g\u0259lmis\u0259n, o\u011ful, ax\u0131, el\u0259 o g\u00fcn getdin? Yollar xatal\u0131d\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm, bel\u0259 tez-tez g\u0259lm\u0259. – Yax\u015f\u0131yam, bax, he\u00e7 yerim a\u011fr\u0131m\u0131r, yem\u0259k-i\u00e7m\u0259yimd\u0259ki qaydas\u0131ndad\u0131r! – dey\u0259 m\u0259ni dar\u0131xma\u011fa qoymurdu.<\/p>\n

Amma bilirdim ki, anam bunlar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 deyir. \u0130st\u0259mir ki, m\u0259n onun a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Onu zorla da olsa h\u0259kim\u0259 apard\u0131m. Getm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. \u2013 Ay o\u011ful, qoca arvadam, bu g\u00fcn bel\u0259y\u0259m, sabah yax\u015f\u0131 olaram. Bundan sar\u0131 niy\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n? \u2013 deyirdi.<\/p>\n

Onun k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcr\u0259k-dir\u0259k verirdim. Deyirdim ki, bilir\u0259m yax\u015f\u0131san, he\u00e7 bir x\u0259st\u0259liyin yoxdur. Amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 arxay\u0131n olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, qoy h\u0259kim s\u0259ni \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 bir yoxlas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

H\u0259kim anam\u0131 m\u00fcayin\u0259 etdikd\u0259n sonra, ehmalca m\u0259n\u0259 dedi ki, anan son aylar\u0131n\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 son g\u00fcnl\u0259rini ya\u015fay\u0131r. Z\u0259hrimara qalm\u0131\u015f o x\u0259st\u0259likd\u0259n tutub, x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ngdir, ona \u0259ziyy\u0259t verm\u0259yin.<\/p>\n

H\u0259kimin bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra \u00e7ox m\u0259yyus oldum. Ax\u0131, anam el\u0259 d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00fcn g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00d6mr\u00fc boyu \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kib bizi b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n tik\u0259sini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b bizl\u0259r\u0259 yedirtmi\u015fdi. \u018fsim-\u0259sim \u0259smi\u015fdi biz balalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259. \u0130ndi ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u0259li \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir vaxtda, ham\u0131m\u0131z onun qullu\u011funu tutmaq ist\u0259diyimiz bir zamanda, yaz\u0131q arvad\u0131n g\u00f6r ba\u015f\u0131na n\u0259l\u0259r g\u0259ldi? Onun bu hal\u0131 ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 p\u0259ri\u015fan etmi\u015fdi. K\u0259skin a\u011fr\u0131lar i\u00e7ind\u0259 qovrulsa da, anam x\u0259st\u0259 hal\u0131yla yen\u0259 d\u0259 balalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r, bizim hal\u0131m\u0131za yan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ana balalar\u0131na bu q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u011fl\u0131 olur? \u2013 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrdim. Balalarn\u0131n yolunda can\u0131n\u0131 qurban verm\u0259y\u0259 uf da dem\u0259zdi, m\u0259nim anam. Bu hal\u0131yla, a\u011fr\u0131yan can\u0131yla h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bizim qeydimiz\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131, yalvar\u0131b-yaxar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, onun x\u0259st\u0259liyin\u0259 fikir verm\u0259y\u0259k, balalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n, ail\u0259mizin qeydin\u0259 qalaq.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fiml\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dar olaraq bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t olard\u0131 ki, anam\u0131 yoluxa bilmirdim. Amma h\u0259r g\u00fcn bac\u0131lar\u0131ma z\u0259ng edib anam\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini soru\u015fard\u0131m. Dey\u0259rdil\u0259r ki, hal\u0131 o q\u0259dr d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 deyil. Amma yalvar\u0131b deyir ki, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131za a\u011fr\u0131ma\u011f\u0131m bar\u0259d\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259yin, i\u015f-g\u00fcc adam\u0131d\u0131r narahat olar.<\/p>\n

Do\u011furdan da, anamdan sar\u0131 narahat idim. Gec\u0259nin bir al\u0259mi telefonum q\u0259fil z\u0259ng \u00e7alanda, ba\u011fr\u0131m yar\u0131lard\u0131. El\u0259 bil\u0259rdim ki, bac\u0131lar\u0131mdan hans\u0131sa z\u0259ng vurub m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259d x\u0259b\u0259r dey\u0259c\u0259kdir. Bel\u0259c\u0259, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t d\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m z\u0259ng edib dedi ki, anam\u0131z\u0131n hal\u0131 \u00e7ox pisl\u0259\u015fibdir, daha dan\u0131\u015fa bilmir. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, yem\u0259k d\u0259 yemir. G\u00f6r, imkan\u0131n varsa, g\u0259l anam\u0131za d\u0259y, g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 s\u0259ni axtar\u0131r.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259ri k\u0259ndimiz\u0259, anam\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259ldim. Q\u0131\u015f ay\u0131 idi. B\u0259rk ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. K\u0259nd yeri oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f pal\u00e7\u0131q idi. Havan\u0131n bel\u0259 olmas\u0131, onsuz da xo\u015f olmayan hal\u0131m\u0131 bir az da p\u0259ri\u015fan etmi\u015fdi. Yolboyu anal\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rimi xat\u0131rlaya-xat\u0131rlaya ma\u015f\u0131n s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Az ya\u015f\u0131m yox idi, amma i\u00e7im-i\u00e7alat\u0131m s\u0131zlay\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n anas\u0131z nec\u0259 ya\u015fayaca\u011fam d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm? Anamdan ayr\u0131 ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131ma, el\u0259 bil indi pe\u015fiman olmu\u015fdim. Ka\u015f, zorla da olsa onu yan\u0131mda saxlayard\u0131m, – dey\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259timizin bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 saxlay\u0131b yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f arams\u0131z olaraq ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n anam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259tirdiyim sovqatlar\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131ndan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00f6hk\u0259mc\u0259 island\u0131m.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259ymirdi. Hava soyuq oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 ham\u0131 evin i\u00e7in\u0259 girmi\u015fdi. Bir anl\u0131q ayaq saxlay\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259t-bacam\u0131za g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdim. H\u0259r yanda anam\u0131n \u0259linin izl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Evd\u0259n bir az aral\u0131 olan t\u0259ndir, t\u0259ndirin b\u00f6y\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259n\u0259n ikiqanadl\u0131, sap\u0131 \u00fct\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f yaba… H\u0259min yabayla anam t\u0259ndirin k\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rard\u0131. T\u0259ndirin yan\u0131ndak\u0131 \u0259lyeri kimi istifad\u0259 etdiyimiz balaca daxma. Anam g\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7ox hiss\u0259sini bu daxmada ke\u00e7ir\u0259rdi. Evin d\u0259n-d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259rza\u011f\u0131 bu daxmaya y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan anam\u0131n i\u015f-g\u00fcc\u00fc d\u0259 burada olard\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259tin ortas\u0131nda dayan\u0131b ciy\u0259rdolusu n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131m. H\u0259r yandan anam\u0131n xo\u015f iysi g\u0259lirdi… Anam\u0131n iysi, eyn\u0259n, t\u0259ndird\u0259n t\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f isti \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k iyin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi…<\/p>\n

Eyvana qalx\u0131b, anam yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ota\u011fa ke\u00e7dim. O, \u00e7arpay\u0131da uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri yumuluydu. Bac\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 onun yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131nda oturmu\u015fdular. M\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi ham\u0131s\u0131 aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya m\u0259niml\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Anama yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturdum. O, \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. \u018fvv\u0259lki hal\u0131ndan \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00fccl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim ya\u015fard\u0131. \u018flimi onun aln\u0131na qoydum, aln\u0131 buz t\u0259ki soyuq idi. \u018flimin h\u0259rar\u0259tind\u0259nmi, ya n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 anam g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxd\u0131 v\u0259 x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Elburus, o\u011flum, s\u0259ns\u0259n?! – soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u018fyilib onun a\u011farm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan, o q\u0131r\u0131\u015fl\u0131 aln\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, anacan, m\u0259n\u0259m, g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m! – dedim.<\/p>\n

Bu an bac\u0131lar\u0131m b\u0259rkd\u0259n a\u011flad\u0131lar. B\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m bildirdi ki, bir h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259n art\u0131qd\u0131 anam\u0131z bir k\u0259lm\u0259 d\u0259 olsun a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ndi s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcb dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Anam sa\u011f \u0259lini m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f uzatd\u0131. M\u0259n onun \u0259lini ovucumun i\u00e7in\u0259 al\u0131b \u00f6pd\u00fcm. Onun \u0259lind\u0259n, t\u0259ndird\u0259n t\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f isti \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin iysi g\u0259lirdi. O, \u0259lini m\u0259nim sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma t\u0259r\u0259f uzatd\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259 ed\u0259rdi, ta u\u015faql\u0131qdan bu ya\u015f\u0131ma q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259lini sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kib, s\u0131\u011fallayard\u0131. \u0130ndi d\u0259 anlad\u0131m ki, yen\u0259 d\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallamaq ist\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

Rahat olsun dey\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ona t\u0259r\u0259f \u0259ydim. Anam\u0131n titr\u0259k barmaqlar\u0131 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sa\u00e7lar\u0131mda ili\u015fib qald\u0131. Sonra s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u00e7iynim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O, \u0259lini m\u0259nim penc\u0259yimin yaxal\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u0259zdirdi. Bird\u0259n, anam q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

– Elburus… O\u011flum… Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r?!..<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, anacan, bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r…<\/p>\n

Anam taq\u0259tsiz \u0259lini ehmalca havada yell\u0259yib:<\/p>\n

– Eh!.. Bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015f niy\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131r ki?.. – dey\u0259 zar\u0131d\u0131.<\/p>\n

Onun k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc ox\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn:<\/p>\n

– Ana, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f nurdur, b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tdir, qoy ya\u011fs\u0131n da! – dedim.<\/p>\n

Anam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulayaraq g\u00fccl\u0259 e\u015fidil\u0259c\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– O\u011flum, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 demir\u0259m e, onsuz da m\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m… M\u0259n sizi fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m. Bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131, qarl\u0131 havada, ax\u0131 siz \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259ksiniz. M\u0259nim can\u0131m \u00f6ls\u00fcn, bala, bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015fda m\u0259ni nec\u0259 torpa\u011fa tap\u015f\u0131racaqs\u0131n\u0131z?!..<\/p>\n

Anam bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dey\u0259nd\u0259n sonra g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u0259b\u0259di yumdu… M\u0259n h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fcm…<\/p>\n

… Anam\u0131n c\u0259naz\u0259sini \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimiz\u0259 al\u0131b son m\u0259nzil\u0259 yola salanda, g\u00f6yd\u0259n iri-iri ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damlalar\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. G\u00f6yd\u0259n ya\u011fan bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damlalar\u0131 anam\u0131n biz \u00f6vladlar\u0131na xeyir-dualar\u0131 idi, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f kimi \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 \u0259l\u0259nirdi… M\u0259nim yaz\u0131q v\u0259 mehriban anam…<\/p>\n

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\u00a0(Anam\u0131n \u0259ziz xatir\u0259sin\u0259) K\u0259ndimizd\u0259n uzaqda, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m. Anam is\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259ki evimizd\u0259, ata yurdunda olurdu. \u0130\u015f-g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00e7oxlu\u011fu imkan vermirdi ki, tez-tez k\u0259nd\u0259 gedib, anama ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kim. Lap tezi ayda bir d\u0259f\u0259… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":33409,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[63],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-39097","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dbiyyat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39097","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=39097"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39097\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":39098,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39097\/revisions\/39098"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/33409"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=39097"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=39097"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=39097"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}