Qulu A\u011eS\u018fS – 55<\/b><\/i><\/p>\n
***
\nG\u00f6rs\u0259n ki, qaranl\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr al\u0259m\u0259,
\nG\u00f6rs\u0259n ki, ax\u015famd\u0131\u2026fikir el\u0259m\u0259.
\nBir u\u00e7uq yuxudu gec\u0259nin boyu
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r imkan var rahatlan, uyu\u2026<\/p>\n
Q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n bir \u00e7a\u011fa salar hay-h\u0259\u015fir
\nS\u0259h\u0259r \u2013 k\u00f6rp\u0259sidi do\u011fan G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin.
\nOnu ovutma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259r ham\u0131,
\nBel\u0259c\u0259, salarlar yen\u0259 ax\u015fam\u0131.<\/p>\n
T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n qaramat basar d\u00fcnyan\u0131,
\nHan\u0131 do\u011fan G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f? k\u00f6rp\u0259si han\u0131?
\n\u2026 G\u00f6rs\u0259n h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n \u0259lin \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr,
\nG\u00f6rs\u0259n \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrs\u0259n\u2026yand\u0131r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n
***
\nCan\u0131m-g\u00f6z\u00fcm, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr de ki,
\n\u00d6ls\u0259n d\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n \u00fcstd\u0259ki \u2013
\nP\u0259mb\u0259 buluddu, da\u015f deyil\u2026<\/p>\n
Sevm\u0259yi var, sancma\u011f\u0131 var
\nBaxma h\u0259rd\u0259n u\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131 var \u2013
\n\u00dcr\u0259k yuvad\u0131, qu\u015f deyil\u2026<\/p>\n
Neyn\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m g\u00f6r\u0259n s\u0259nsiz?!
\nHa ist\u0259dim \u00f6l\u0259m s\u0259nsiz \u2013
\nBaxd\u0131m ki, m\u0259nlik i\u015f deyil\u2026<\/p>\n
Bu da m\u0259nim baxt\u0131mdand\u0131,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm Tanr\u0131 taxt\u0131ndad\u0131 \u2013
\nOnun da yeri bo\u015f deyil\u2026<\/p>\n
***
\n\u00c7ox da sal\u0131b d\u00fcnyan\u0131 eyn\u0259yim g\u00f6zd\u0259n \u2013 nolar
\nA\u011f\u0131z suyuyla bitir dodaqda s\u00f6z d\u0259 \u2013 nolar\u2026
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin i\u015fdi, g\u00f6r n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l c\u0259zan var,
\nD\u00f6rd t\u0259r\u0259fin k\u00f6p\u0259ks\u0259, dem\u0259k, m\u00fchafiz\u0259n var\u2026<\/p>\n
Yer t\u0259rp\u0259nir \u2013 t\u0259rp\u0259nsin, sallanarsan budaqdan
\nBir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn \u0259l edir kims\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 uzaqdan\u2026
\nN\u0259 laz\u0131m, uzaqba\u015f\u0131 birc\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131n ola
\nGec\u0259nin bir yar\u0131s\u0131 q\u0259fil qona\u011f\u0131n ola\u2026<\/p>\n
Sev\u0259s\u0259n bu g\u0259li\u015fi ba\u015fdan aya\u011fa kimi
\nK\u00fcsd\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 a\u011flaya qoynunda \u00e7a\u011fa kimi\u2026
\nGed\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 yalvar \u2013 yap\u0131\u015f apara
\nG\u00fcn g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f d\u0259risin g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015f apara\u2026<\/p>\n
\u2026 Ged\u0259, bir d\u0259 qap\u0131ndan \u0259c\u0259l gir\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f x\u0259st\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya \u015f\u00fca ver\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n
***
\nAllaha baxmasayd\u0131m,
\ngirm\u0259zdin yuxuma da!
\nTorpaq kimi soyuyur –
\n\u0259n isti, yax\u0131n adam…<\/p>\n
Harda itib – batm\u0131san,
\nhay\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lim.
\nToyuna \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmad\u0131n,
\nvay\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lim…<\/p>\n
De, nec\u0259 tap\u0131m s\u0259ni,
\nn\u0259 m\u0259rd\u0259m, n\u0259 ov iti.
\nS\u0259nin izin, \u00fcnvan\u0131n
\nm\u0259nim ax\u0131r\u0131m itib.<\/p>\n
B\u0259lk\u0259 veribl\u0259r s\u0259ni
\nTanr\u0131n\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131na?
\nM\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131m,
\ns\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z ada\u015f\u0131na:<\/p>\n
N\u0259 olar, ay\u0131rmas\u0131n
\nde, ikimizd\u0259n m\u0259ni!
\nGetdin?.. s\u0259n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 yol,
\ng\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259n, g\u00f6zl\u0259 m\u0259ni..<\/p>\n
***
\nBu d\u00fcnyada he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259dim…
\nO d\u00fcnyada soru\u015fsalar:
\ns\u0259n kims\u0259n? \u2013
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yumub, a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7acam!
\nDey\u0259c\u0259m ki:
\nalt\u0131ndak\u0131 skamyada
\nbir yol \u00f6z\u00fc oturmayan
\nyor\u011fun a\u011facam…<\/p>\n
***
\nB\u0259zi \u015feirl\u0259rin hekay\u0259si var,
\nB\u0259zi xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin qafiy\u0259si var.
\nBuludlar ya\u011f\u0131\u015f yox, toz \u0259l\u0259yirl\u0259r
\nUlduzlar yanm\u0131r ha…
\nhis el\u0259yirl\u0259r.
\nBe\u015f-\u00fc\u00e7 arzu etm\u0259z \u00f6mr\u00fcn qal\u0131\u011f\u0131
\nDidir ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 k\u0259p\u0259k bal\u0131\u011f\u0131.
\nDa\u015f-da\u015f oynan\u0131lan bir aynab\u0259ddi,
\nAman umduqlar\u0131 amana b\u0259nddi.
\nN\u0259 talant?
\nn\u0259 vergi?
\nn\u0259 sehr? –
\nAdam
\nG\u00fcn\u00fc ax\u015fam edir bikar\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdan.
\nYax\u015f\u0131 p\u0259hrizi var iztirablar\u0131n
\nN\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm k\u00f6k\u0259ldim,
\nn\u0259 kitablar\u0131m…<\/p>\n
***
\nYorulub oturdum
\nvara\u011f\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yim it kimi ulay\u0131r
\nit kimi\u2026
\nat g\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259.
\nQ\u0131\u015fa bir taya \u015feir y\u0131\u011fm\u0131\u015fam
\ns\u00f6z\u00fc misraya vura \u2013 vura.
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u2013 m\u00fcq\u0259vva g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259ydi
\ngec\u0259ni qu\u015f kimi qorxuzub u\u00e7ura\u2026
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m:
\nYa\u015famaq!
\n\u2013 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n zor i\u015fi!
\nYa\u015famaq!
\n\u2013 ir\u0259li qovaraq ke\u00e7mi\u015fi!
\nF\u0259q\u0259t\u2026
\nist\u0259yir\u0259m \u0259c\u0259l g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259
\nqar\u015f\u0131mda he\u00e7 n\u0259 dayanmas\u0131n.
\nM\u0259ni el\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rs\u0131n ki,
\nsevgilim yuxudan oyanmas\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n
***
\nDilimd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr bir ad
\nn\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r
\nTanr\u0131dan g\u00f6z\u0259l c\u0259llad
\nn\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r
\nD\u0259rdidi d\u0259rman\u0131m\u0131n
\nn\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r
\nAras\u0131nda qan\u0131m\u0131n
\nn\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r
\nYel vurduqca t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr
\nn\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r
\n“G\u00f6y” suala b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fc
\nn\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r
\nQ\u0259l\u0259m-varaqd\u0131, bir d\u0259
\nn\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r
\nG\u00f6yd\u0259 Allahd\u0131, yerd\u0259
\nn\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r<\/p>\n
***
\nQ\u0259l\u0259t el\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m des\u0259m:
\nHam\u0131 q\u0259l\u0259t el\u0259yir\u2026
\nAllah bizi x\u0259lq eyl\u0259yib,
\nYoxsa l\u0259n\u0259t el\u0259yib?!<\/p>\n
Qa\u00e7 bu xain yuvas\u0131ndan
\n\u018fri, yox ol havada.
\nQorx ki, yen\u0259 yerd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xa
\nBuluddan dama adam\u2026<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f a\u00e7mazsan:
\nya\u015fd\u0131, ya da da\u015f?! \u2013
\nDamar\u0131nda qan durar.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n n\u0259dis\u0259,
\nAya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131rar\u2026<\/p>\n
Bu da ax\u0131r\u2026
\nbu da xilas\u2026
\nSon gec\u0259\u2026
\ns\u0259h\u0259r ert\u0259\u2026
\nQo\u015fulub g\u00f6y\u00fcn qu\u015funa
\n\u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n saat \u00f6t\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n
***
\nYast\u0131q qoyub ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za
\n\u0259c\u0259b yat\u0131rd\u0131n bizi.
\nA\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n
\nQ\u0131r\u0131b bat\u0131rd\u0131 bizi.<\/p>\n
Milyon ill\u0259rdi yeyirik
\nS\u00fcfr\u0259nin q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndan.
\n\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k bizi tutar deyin,
\nDinmirik qaba\u011f\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n
N\u0259 boydasan g\u00f6r\u0259n heyl\u0259?
\nBir \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcy\u0259 g\u0259lmirs\u0259n?
\nBa\u015f \u00e7\u0259kmirs\u0259n qullar\u0131na
\nBiz\u0259 niy\u0259 g\u0259lmirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
\u2026\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259k d\u0259,
\nXofun yamand\u0131, Allah!
\nBizi q\u0131r\u0131b qurtarmam\u0131\u015f,
\n\u00d6lm\u0259, amand\u0131, Allah!..<\/p>\n
***
\nKims\u0259n, n\u0259\u00e7is\u0259n, ay Allah \u2013
\nHe\u00e7 s\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015f tapammad\u0131q.
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn qurdu\u011fun d\u00fcnyada
\nS\u0259n\u0259 bir i\u015f tapammad\u0131q.<\/p>\n
G\u00fcn\u00fcn nec\u0259 ke\u00e7ir bar\u0131,
\nCan verib can alma\u011f\u0131nan?..
\nS\u0259ni n\u0259yn\u0259n b\u0259nd\u0259 salaq,
\nTutaq hans\u0131 qarma\u011fnan?!<\/p>\n
G\u00f6rs\u0259k, he\u00e7 n\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259rik,
\nBir \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259r biz\u0259!
\nYax\u015f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259g\u0259r busa,
\nYaman g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259r biz\u0259!..<\/p>\n
Neyl\u0259s\u0259n, sevir\u0259m s\u0259ni,
\nQulunam, g\u0259l min boynuma!..
\nBu \u015feiri d\u0259 s\u0259n yazm\u0131san,
\nBabal\u0131 m\u0259nim boynuma\u2026<\/p>\n
***
\nN\u0259 olar, bir s\u0259h\u0259r durub g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n,
\nDivarlar \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 Allah yazd\u0131r\u0131b.
\nQ\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc soyuqdan \u00f6l\u0259n a\u011fac\u0131n
\nYas\u0131na mart ay\u0131 yarpaq yazd\u0131r\u0131b\u2026<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259s\u0259n, odu k\u00f6z\u0259rir,
\n\u0130\u015f\u0131q vermir, amma i\u015f\u0131q s\u00f6z verir.
\nBirc\u0259 eybi var ki, d\u00fcnya g\u00f6z\u0259lin
\nM\u0259ni quca\u011f\u0131na qonaq yazd\u0131r\u0131b\u2026<\/p>\n
\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr o g\u00f6yd\u0259ki ismin hal\u0131na,
\n\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131na, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr qar\u0131na.
\n\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr ad\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z jurnal\u0131na
\n\u018fc\u0259l adqoydudan qabaq yazd\u0131r\u0131b\u2026<\/p>\n
***
\nR\u0259ngsizdi, tams\u0131zd\u0131,
\n\u0259tsiz-qans\u0131zd\u0131,
\nAllahs\u0131z, imans\u0131zd\u0131,
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
N\u0259fsi b\u0131\u00e7aqdan iti,
\ni\u00e7imi da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r, didir,
\nvecin\u0259 deyil\u0259m q\u0259ti
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259rin.<\/p>\n
N\u0259 \u0259t deyil,
\nn\u0259 siqaret
\nDey\u0259s\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kildi, qurtard\u0131.
\n…D\u00fcnya, Tale, Tanr\u0131 deyil\u0259n
\nn\u0259 var ham\u0131s\u0131 g\u00fcnahkard\u0131
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259r\u0259.<\/p>\n
D\u0259rdi n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259sidi,
\nn\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131lacaq,
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259rin.
\n…Bir g\u00fcn “s\u0259rgisi” a\u00e7\u0131lacaq,
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259rin.<\/p>\n
***
\nYaz\u0131rsan: \u00ab\u00d6l\u00fcr\u0259m\u2026\u00bb Min \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, alq\u0131\u015f!
\nN\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, sevgid\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 var.
\nDem\u0259, ki\u015fid\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259l\u0259k olarm\u0131\u015f,
\n\u018fzray\u0131l olanda ax\u0131 n\u0259 olar…<\/p>\n
Bilmir\u0259m d\u00fcnyan\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xti deyim,
\nBilmir\u0259m d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u0259db\u0259xti s\u0259n\u0259.
\nD\u00fcz\u00fc, ist\u0259mir\u0259m x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259yim,
\nCavab axtar\u0131ram n\u0259 vaxtd\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259…<\/p>\n
Kims\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qoymaz i\u00e7\u0259ri \u2013
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn ke\u015fiyin balam \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259.
\nSevgi \u00f6t\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u00fcr m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6t\u0259ri,
\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni s\u0259vm\u0259kl\u0259 dala \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Cavab m\u0259ktubumda s\u00f6zl\u0259r ba\u015f-ayaq,
\nBir ucdan yazilir, pozulur el\u0259.
\nQorxuram \u00f6l\u0259s\u0259n sevgin ya\u015faya,
\nQorxuram qalasan – m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t \u00f6l\u0259.<\/p>\n
Tural Ad\u0131\u015firinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda..<\/b><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Qulu A\u011eS\u018fS – 55 *** G\u00f6rs\u0259n ki, qaranl\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr al\u0259m\u0259, G\u00f6rs\u0259n ki, ax\u015famd\u0131\u2026fikir el\u0259m\u0259. Bir u\u00e7uq yuxudu gec\u0259nin boyu N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r imkan var rahatlan, uyu\u2026 Q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n bir \u00e7a\u011fa salar hay-h\u0259\u015fir… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":28210,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[63],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28241","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dbiyyat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28241","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=28241"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28241\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":28242,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28241\/revisions\/28242"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/28210"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=28241"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=28241"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=28241"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}