{"id":21605,"date":"2023-08-17T15:54:44","date_gmt":"2023-08-17T11:54:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=21605"},"modified":"2023-08-17T15:55:52","modified_gmt":"2023-08-17T11:55:52","slug":"seyran-s%c9%99xav%c9%99t-kenquru-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=21605","title":{"rendered":"Seyran S\u0259xav\u0259t. Kenquru (hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

X\u0259b\u0259r verdiyimiz kimi bu g\u00fcn yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Yusif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flunun an\u0131m g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr. M\u0259cra.az bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Seyran S\u0259xav\u0259tin Yusif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011fluna h\u0259sr etdiyi “Kenquru” hekay\u0259sini t\u0259qdim edir:<\/p>\n

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– Salam, ay qa\u011fa!<\/div>\n
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– Salamm\u0259l\u00f6yk\u00fcm, qa\u011fa!<\/div>\n
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– Yusif m\u00fc\u0259llim, salam!<\/div>\n
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– Kims\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Seyranam, dana, ay qa\u011fa, Seyran.<\/div>\n
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– Hans\u0131 Seyran?<\/div>\n
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– Seyran S\u0259xav\u0259t\u0259m, dana, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s s\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259mis\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Yox, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– Ax\u0131, m\u0259nim hesab\u0131m\u0131nan s\u0259n \u00e7oxdan \u00f6lm\u0259liydin…<\/div>\n
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– Yoox… \u00f6lm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m… qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– Deyir\u0259m ax\u0131… buralarda g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ymirs\u0259n…<\/div>\n
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– Yox… yox… ay qa\u011fa, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan… yox, \u00f6lm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, \u00f6ls\u0259m, s\u0259nin x\u0259b\u0259rin olard\u0131 dana… S\u0259nn\u0259n yax\u0131n adam\u0131m var?!<\/div>\n
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– Seyran, oralarda i\u015fin \u00e7ox qal\u0131b h\u0259l\u0259?<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259di ki, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– Hee\u00e7… el\u0259-bel\u0259 soru\u015fdum… qorxdun?<\/div>\n
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– Yooox… ay qa\u011fa… o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 qorxmad\u0131m…<\/div>\n
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– Dey\u0259s\u0259n, bir balaca \u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcrs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Lap az, ay qa\u011fa… durum yalannan deyim ki…<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259\u0259\u0259\u0259\u0259… Seyran…<\/div>\n
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– E\u015fidir\u0259m, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– Buralara tez-tez g\u0259lirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… tez-tez… S\u0259nin do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m, sonra \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ad g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u0259… s\u0259nn\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc dar\u0131xanda, sonra, s\u0259n bizi at\u0131b getdiyin g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u0259lir\u0259m…<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259n sizi at\u0131b getm\u0259dim ee… M\u0259ni apard\u0131lar… Siz d\u0259 m\u0259ni saxlaya bilm\u0259diniz…<\/div>\n
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– Yox, tez-tez g\u0259lir\u0259m, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– Ax\u0131 m\u0259n he\u00e7 s\u0259ni buralarda g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m…<\/div>\n
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– He\u00e7 m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259ni buralarda g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m…<\/div>\n
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– Bilirs\u0259n niy\u0259?<\/div>\n
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– Yox…<\/div>\n
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– Torpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n torpa\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z… d\u00fczd\u00fc?<\/div>\n
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– D\u00fczd\u00fc, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– \u018fg\u0259r d\u00fczd\u00fcrs\u0259, dem\u0259li, torpa\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131ndan da \u00fcst\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z… \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 salma, torpaq \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 deyil ki… torpaq \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 kimi olsayd\u0131 \u00e7oxdan q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q olmu\u015fdu. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n da bu t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n baxsan, o biri t\u0259r\u0259fi g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n \u2013 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k b\u00fct\u00f6v olsun, s\u0131nmas\u0131n… Seyran…<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259li, qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259n yaz\u0131b-oxuyanda eyn\u0259k tax\u0131rsan?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… tax\u0131ram… eyn\u0259yim iki yar\u0131md\u0131.<\/div>\n
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– He\u00e7 eyn\u0259yin s\u0131n\u0131b?<\/div>\n
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– Yox, ay qa\u011fa.<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259n bir d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259nim x\u0259trim\u0259 eyn\u0259yinin \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sini el\u0259 s\u0131nd\u0131r ki, ovulub yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259sin, el\u0259c\u0259 \u00e7at-\u00e7at olsun… sonra da tax g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259, d\u00fcnyaya bax, kitab oxu… Onda bil\u0259rs\u0259n ki, ikiayaql\u0131lar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaras\u0131 bax o eyn\u0259k kimi \u00e7at-\u00e7atd\u0131, d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. Burda optikal\u0131q da bir i\u015f yoxdu. D\u00fcnyaya da \u00e7at-\u00e7at olmu\u015f g\u00f6z qaras\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131ndan bax\u0131b feyziyab olurlar… El\u0259 bilirl\u0259r ki, d\u00fcnya onlar\u0131n g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259ri kimidi. Bu, ikiayaql\u0131lar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131na aiddi…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, ham\u0131s\u0131na?…<\/div>\n
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– Ham\u0131s\u0131na!<\/div>\n
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– Kenquruya da?<\/div>\n
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– Yox!<\/div>\n
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– Niy\u0259, ay qa\u011fa!<\/div>\n
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– \u00c7\u00fcnki Kenquru d\u00f6rdayaql\u0131 olma\u011fa \u00e7ox meyillidi \u2013 o, n\u0259 vaxtsa, m\u00fctl\u0259q d\u00f6rdayaql\u0131 olacaq!<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, vallah, s\u0259n dahis\u0259n!<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259?!<\/div>\n
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– Deyir\u0259m, s\u0259n dahis\u0259n!<\/div>\n
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– A\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259ni dan\u0131\u015fma! \u00d6z\u00fcns\u0259n! Dahinin biri dahi! Bir d\u0259 buralara g\u0259lm\u0259!!!<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, q\u0259fil a\u011fz\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla.<\/div>\n
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– Kenquru ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n! Dahi… yox bir… M\u0259n dahi olsayd\u0131m, he\u00e7 \u00f6l\u0259rdim… h\u0259?!<\/div>\n
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– \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, s\u0259n Kenquru haqq\u0131nda bir \u015fey bilirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Bilir\u0259m, ay a\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 bilirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bir az bilir\u0259m…<\/div>\n
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– Seyran, Kenquru g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259ni m\u0259n adam hesab el\u0259mir\u0259m, s\u0259n Kenquru g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259, qa\u011fa… kinoda g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, bir d\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– Bir d\u0259 harda?<\/div>\n
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– Salyan t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259… Ma\u015f\u0131nnan L\u0259nk\u0259rana gedirdim… h\u0259… s\u00fcr\u00fcyn\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar qaba\u011f\u0131ma.<\/div>\n
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– Den\u0259n Kenquru can\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– Kenquru can\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– Allah s\u0259ni g\u00fcld\u00fcrs\u00fcn, ay Seyran… \u00d6l\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri bel\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259mi\u015fdim… g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n torpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r… ay s\u0259ni…<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u0259n, m\u0259n\u0259 inanm\u0131rsan?<\/div>\n
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\u0130nan\u0131ram, inan\u0131ram, s\u0259nin dediyin Salyan kenqurular\u0131d\u0131… ay s\u0259ni… \u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u0259 yay kimi dart\u0131n\u0131b ox kimi s\u00fczerdil\u0259r, el\u0259mi, d\u0259rdin alem?<\/div>\n
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– Yusif m\u00fc\u0259llim, m\u0259n\u0259 inanm\u0131rsansa, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m gedim?<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 yaman ciddil\u0259\u015fdin? Yoox… inan\u0131ram, getm\u0259… Hara gedirs\u0259n ee.. n\u0259 var? Bak\u0131da yel \u0259sib qoz t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb. Bir d\u0259 ki, Bak\u0131da el\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sir d\u0259… Bu c\u00fcr k\u00fcl\u0259yin qaba\u011f\u0131nda a\u011facda qoz qalar ki, t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259 d\u0259… Ham\u0131s\u0131 min il bundan qabaq t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6y-g\u00f6y, sarfa-sarfa, yeti\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f… B\u0259ri bax, s\u0259n Bak\u0131da he\u00e7 qoz a\u011fac\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Niy\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m…<\/div>\n
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– Harda g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri\u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259… me\u015f\u0259di d\u0259, “Q\u0131z qalas\u0131\u201dn\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fck\u00fcr.<\/div>\n
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– De, Kenquru can\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– Kenquru can\u0131… bir d\u0259 metroda k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sm\u0259y\u0259n yerd\u0259 – Qara Qarayev, \u018fhm\u0259dli, Xalqlar dostlu\u011fu… Baksovetin yeri d\u0259 qoz me\u015f\u0259si olub, sonra ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdil\u0259r, Baksoveti tikdil\u0259r…<\/div>\n
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– Seyran, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla ee, \u00f6l\u0259nn\u0259n sonra yadda\u015f\u0131m yaman korlan\u0131b, s\u0259ni g\u00fccn\u0259n tan\u0131d\u0131m, s\u0259sinn\u0259n tan\u0131d\u0131m. D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, oralar me\u015f\u0259 olub, c\u0131rc\u0131ramalar\u0131n s\u0259si indi d\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131ma g\u0259lir. H\u0259… S\u0259nn\u0259n arxay\u0131n oldum, \u00e7ox nigaran idim s\u0259n sar\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– Niy\u0259?<\/div>\n
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– Niy\u0259 n\u0259di? Yalan dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131n… \u0130ndi Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, c\u0259h-c\u0259h vurursan… S\u0259n d\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131n nahaqq\u0131n yoluna… S\u0259n sar\u0131 arxay\u0131n oldum. D\u00fczd\u00fc, bir az gecikmis\u0259n, ancaq he\u00e7 olmasa, bundan sonra rahat ya\u015fayarsan. Yetmi\u015f n\u0259 ya\u015fd\u0131 ki… h\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin qabaqdad\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259dim ee, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259nin d\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131nan doludu?<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, orda da \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s n\u0259yn\u0259n \u015f\u0259kirs\u0259n, aparat\u0131n var?<\/div>\n
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– Yoox… aparat\u0131m Bak\u0131da qald\u0131. Burda heyl\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r i\u015fl\u0259mir… g\u00f6z\u00fcmn\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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– G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259n?!<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259n. “Nikon\u201dnan da yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kir. B\u00fct\u00fcn canl\u0131lar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcyn\u0259n \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k olur \u2013 lap qaranqu\u015fun g\u00f6zl\u0259riyn\u0259n d\u0259 – bahar m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri, \u015fedevr… birc\u0259 qoyun g\u00f6z\u00fcnn\u0259n ba\u015fqa…<\/div>\n
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– Dem\u0259li, ay qa\u011fa, b\u00fct\u00fcn canl\u0131lar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kir?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… Ancaq \u00f6zl\u0259rinin x\u0259b\u0259ri olmur. D\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259riyn\u0259n g\u0259tirirl\u0259r, burda bir-birin\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rirl\u0259r ki, bax g\u00f6r, m\u0259n nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l yerl\u0259rd\u0259 olmu\u015fam, nec\u0259 adamlar g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. \u015e\u0259klin arxas\u0131na da yaz\u0131rlar ki, “bax\u0131b xat\u0131rlama, xat\u0131rlay\u0131b bax\u201d.<\/div>\n
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– Birinci d\u0259f\u0259di e\u015fidir\u0259m, ay qa\u011fa.<\/div>\n
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– Birinci d\u0259f\u0259 niy\u0259 e\u015fidirs\u0259n ki? Bir ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259t d\u0259, b\u0259s onu yetmi\u015f ildi n\u0259 g\u0259zdirirs\u0259n? Burda q\u0259liz bir \u015fey yoxdu. M\u0259n Bak\u0131da olanda n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kirdim. S\u0259n dururdun qaba\u011f\u0131mda, m\u0259n d\u0259 aparat\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn birini q\u0131y\u0131b o birisiyl\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b \u00e7\u0259kirdim. S\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, m\u0259n aparat\u0131nan… \u0259slind\u0259 is\u0259 m\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcmn\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kirdim.<\/div>\n
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– D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n ee, ay qa\u011fa… Vay d\u0259d\u0259, vaaay, g\u00f6r he\u00e7 a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259lib… Qa\u011fa, vallah s\u0259n…<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131, yax\u015f\u0131, gen\u0259 ba\u015flama!!!<\/div>\n
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– Yox, ayr\u0131 s\u00f6z deyir\u0259m ee… qa\u011fa.<\/div>\n
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– De g\u00f6r\u00fcm.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, vallah s\u0259n da… d\u0259h\u015f\u0259ts\u0259n, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t…<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259?!<\/div>\n
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– Deyir\u0259m s\u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259ts\u0259n!<\/div>\n
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– A\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259ni dan\u0131\u015fma!\u00d6z\u00fcns\u0259n! D\u0259h\u015f\u0259tin biri d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t! Bir d\u0259 buralara…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, q\u0259fil a\u011fz\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla…<\/div>\n
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– Kenquru ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n! D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t… Yox bir… M\u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t olsayd\u0131m, he\u00e7 do\u011fulard\u0131m… H\u0259?!<\/div>\n
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– \u018fn nadir \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri canavar g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0259kir. M\u0259n bura t\u0259z\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 bir Yalquzaq Canavar\u0131n ucu-buca\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n foto s\u0259rgisi as\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnya ax\u0131\u015f\u0131b g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. S\u0259rgi \u0259vv\u0259l bir g\u00fcn, sonra \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn, sonra yeddi g\u00fcn, sonra da q\u0131rx g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259kdi. Ax\u0131rda bu q\u0259rara g\u0259ldil\u0259r ki, s\u0259rgiy\u0259 olan k\u00fctl\u0259vi mara\u011f\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 al\u0131b onun vaxt\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131rx il uzats\u0131nlar, uzatd\u0131lar da. S\u0259rgi salonuna g\u00f6yd\u0259n y\u00fcz ba\u011flama dollar s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n biri d\u0259 yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z…<\/div>\n
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– G\u00f6yd\u0259 qaparlar?<\/div>\n
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– Yox, ay adam! Yox! Yox! Yox!<\/div>\n
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– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ay qa\u011fa, q\u0259fil a\u011fz\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/div>\n
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– A\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131!… Dollar ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n! A\u011fz\u0131nda bir ovuc torpa\u011f\u0131 saxlaya bilmirs\u0259n?!<\/div>\n
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– Dilimi deyirs\u0259n, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259! H\u0259! H\u0259!… Yax\u015f\u0131, \u00e7oxdand\u0131 diri adam incitm\u0259mi\u015fdim \u2013 g\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi bura g\u0259ldiyim. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq \u00f6l\u00fcl\u0259ri incid\u0259nd\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259t d\u0259 vermir \u2013 bilmirs\u0259n ki, inciyibl\u0259r, yoxsa incim\u0259yibl\u0259r.<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131, qa\u011fa, s\u0259rgid\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f eee… Allah\u0131n alt\u0131nda m\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259ydim o s\u0259rgini.<\/div>\n
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– Dar\u0131xma… n\u0259 vaxt qism\u0259t olsa, g\u00f6r\u0259zs\u0259n… \u00c7ox maraql\u0131d\u0131. O s\u0259rgi a\u00e7\u0131landan birinci d\u0259f\u0259di ki, m\u0259n g\u0259lib \u00f6z q\u0259brimd\u0259 dinc\u0259lir\u0259m. Biz s\u0259nn\u0259n t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n… Bir az gec g\u0259ls\u0259ydin… M\u0259n o s\u0259rginin b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7il\u0259rinin istirah\u0259t el\u0259dikl\u0259ri be\u015fulduzlu q\u0259bird\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131m, bir azdan ged\u0259c\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, kiml\u0259ri g\u00f6rd\u00fcn orda?<\/div>\n
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– Den\u0259n, kiml\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u0259dim? Qocalar\u0131n \u00e7oxunu tan\u0131mad\u0131m. Ancaq cavanlardan Hitler, Stalin, \u00c7er\u00e7il, Ruzvelt… H\u0259l\u0259 getm\u0259yibl\u0259r, burdad\u0131lar. El\u0259 acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 tama\u015fa el\u0259yirl\u0259r ki, el\u0259 bil \u00f6z s\u0259rgil\u0259ridi. Maraql\u0131 bir hadis\u0259 oldu… ist\u0259yirs\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m…<\/div>\n
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– Vaxt\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131ram ki, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259nim vaxt\u0131m \u00e7oxdu, torpa\u011f\u0131n vaxt\u0131na \u015f\u0259rik olmu\u015fam \u2013 daha do\u011frusu, el\u0259yibl\u0259r… H\u0259… S\u0259rgi a\u00e7\u0131lan g\u00fcn\u00fc Hitler \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc humanist g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k x\u0259trin\u0259 Ruzveltin oturdu\u011fu kolyaskan\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc, \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r\u0259 birlikd\u0259 tama\u015fa el\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Stalinl\u0259 \u00c7er\u00e7il is\u0259 \u0259ks t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 g\u0259zi\u015f\u0259-g\u0259zi\u015f\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131lar. M\u0259n d\u0259 onlar\u0131n arxas\u0131nca g\u0259zirdim, onun h\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131na fikir verirdim, nec\u0259 olmasa da, ikimiz d\u0259 qafqazl\u0131y\u0131q d\u0259… Bird\u0259n Stalin dayan\u0131b \u00c7er\u00e7il\u0259 dedi:<\/div>\n
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– C\u0259nab \u00c7er\u00e7il, \u015falvar\u0131m\u0131n dal cibind\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259nir, g\u00f6r o n\u0259di?<\/div>\n
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\u00c7er\u00e7il \u0259lc\u0259kli \u0259lini Stalinin \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131n dal cibind\u0259 \u00fcstd\u0259n g\u0259zdirdi:<\/div>\n
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– C\u0259nab generalisimus, burda n\u0259 is\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259nir.<\/div>\n
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Stalin demisini t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259d\u0259-t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259d\u0259 dedi:<\/div>\n
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– C\u0259nab \u00c7er\u00e7il, g\u00f6r o n\u0259di?<\/div>\n
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\u00c7er\u00e7il \u0259lini sal\u0131b Stalinin arxa cibind\u0259n ana\u015f qurba\u011fa boyda \u0259tc\u0259bala bir u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b ingilisc\u0259 iyr\u0259n\u0259-iyr\u0259n\u0259 Stalinin ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na tullay\u0131b dedi:<\/div>\n
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– Bu kimdi bel\u0259?<\/div>\n
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Stalin t\u0259mkinini pozmadan cavab verdi:<\/div>\n
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– Mixail Sergeyevi\u00e7 Qorba\u00e7ov \u2013 sukin s\u0131n.<\/div>\n
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Bu yerd\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259dim. Yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131q verdim. Dedim S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011funun o\u011fluyam, tan\u0131d\u0131, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Ona dedim ki, yolda\u015f Stalin, ax\u0131 Siz Qorba\u00e7ovu tan\u0131ya bilm\u0259zdiniz… O Sizd\u0259n \u00e7ox sonra… Demisin\u0259 bir q\u00fcllab vurub dedi ki, o sukin s\u0131n\u0131 yuxuda g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, m\u0259nim yuxum h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00e7in olub. Bax bel\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, b\u0259s o ana\u015f qurba\u011fa sonra n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r oldu?<\/div>\n
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– He\u00e7 n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r… \u015earl De Qolun g\u00f6z\u00fc qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 o qurba\u011fada, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n suyu ax\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131, frans\u0131zlar qurba\u011fa yey\u0259n olurlar.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, Canavar \u00f6z\u00fc ordayd\u0131?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… b\u0259s m\u00fc\u0259llifsiz \u015fey olar? He\u00e7 k\u0259s onun g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7in\u0259 baxm\u0131rd\u0131 ha… baxa bilmirdil\u0259r…<\/div>\n
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– Niy\u0259 ki, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– Baxan kimi ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n t\u00fck\u00fc t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc… \u0130xtazavr, dinazovr baxa bilirdi, cavanlardan da ancaq fil.<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259n d\u0259 baxa bilmirdin?<\/div>\n
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– Birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm sata\u015fd\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim qama\u015fd\u0131, el\u0259 bildim ki, “svarkaya\u201d bax\u0131ram \u2013 az qald\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, g\u0259r\u0259k, Stalinn\u0259n \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdir\u0259ydin.<\/div>\n
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– \u0130st\u0259yirdim, \u00e7\u0259kdir\u0259m… ancaq Levan qoymad\u0131.<\/div>\n
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– Levan Adyan?<\/div>\n
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– Yoox… Lovrenti Povlovi\u00e7 Beriya.<\/div>\n
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– O da ordayd\u0131?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259, d\u0259st\u0259-tifaq ham\u0131s\u0131 ordayd\u0131, Mikoyan da…<\/div>\n
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– \u00a0Ay qa\u011fa, Beriya n\u0259 dedi ki, qoymad\u0131?<\/div>\n
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– Dedi ki, r\u0259dd ol burdan. M\u0259n d\u0259 dedim r\u0259dd olmuram, bu s\u0259rgiy\u0259 r\u0259smi d\u0259v\u0259tnam\u0259m var. O da qay\u0131td\u0131 ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 burdan sonra s\u0259n\u0259 Sibir\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259tnam\u0259 ver\u0259k. Bunu dey\u0259n kimi verdim \u015falvara… r\u0259dd oldum…<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, o siz t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 Sibir var?<\/div>\n
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– Sibir harda yoxdu ki… Stalin Bay\u0131l t\u00fcrm\u0259sini m\u0259nn\u0259n soru\u015fdu ki, o t\u00fcrm\u0259 durur; dedim ki, indi ondan da yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 tikibl\u0259r, bir c\u00fct g\u00f6z ist\u0259yir tama\u015fa el\u0259sin, b\u0131\u011falt\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, o s\u0259rgid\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f eliy\u0259n-zad oldu?<\/div>\n
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– \u018flb\u0259t ki… d\u00fcz bir il alt\u0131 ay \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f el\u0259dil\u0259r: Hitler, Mussolini, Ruzvelt, \u015earl de qol, \u00c7ankay\u015fi, Mao… ham\u0131s\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s Stalin \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f el\u0259m\u0259di?<\/div>\n
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– Yoox. Ona s\u00f6z ver\u0259nd\u0259 dedi ki, m\u0259n \u00f6z fikirl\u0259rimi yaz\u0131b g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m.<\/div>\n
– Ay qa\u011fa, n\u0259 deyirdil\u0259r ki?<\/div>\n
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– Yerind\u0259n duran Canavar\u0131 t\u0259rifl\u0259yirdi, deyirdil\u0259r ki, Canavar dahi s\u0259n\u0259tkard\u0131. Hitler dedi ki, s\u0259rgiy\u0259 baxandan sonra bu q\u0259rara g\u0259ldim ki, dahi s\u0259n\u0259tkar\u0131m\u0131z Canavar deyil \u2013 canavar d\u0259risi geymi\u015f \u0130nsand\u0131… Ham\u0131dan \u00e7ox onu alq\u0131\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131lar \u2013 Hitleri. Sonra da Canavar\u0131n boynunu qucaqlay\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n alt\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6pd\u00fc. Canavar \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tur\u015futdu, dey\u0259s\u0259n, Hitlerd\u0259n iyr\u0259nirdi, m\u0259n \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n bel\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Hitler d\u0259 bunu hiss el\u0259di, ancaq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymad\u0131. Bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 Hitler d\u0259v\u0259y\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131, y\u0259qin ki, n\u0259 vaxtsa, Canavardan heyfini \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131, qisas alacaqd\u0131… m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi. Sonra Borman \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 k\u00fcrs\u00fcy\u0259, Hitlerin, bir d\u0259 Mussolinin ad\u0131ndan Canavara h\u0259diyy\u0259 verdi.<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– Hitlerin k\u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyi, b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fc bir r\u0259sm idi. \u018fs\u0259rd\u0259 n\u0259h\u0259ng adam k\u0259ll\u0259sinin i\u00e7ind\u0259 b\u00f6yr\u00fc \u00fcst\u0259 uzanm\u0131\u015f Canavar balalar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259mizdir\u0259-\u0259mizdir\u0259 i\u015ftahla insan\u0131n beynini yalay\u0131rd\u0131. Bu \u0259s\u0259r o q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck ustal\u0131qla \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi ki, diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxanda Canavar\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n mar\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k, udqundu\u011funu g\u00f6rm\u0259k olurdu. \u015e\u0259xs\u0259n m\u0259n e\u015fitdim d\u0259, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm d\u0259… U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259ni nec\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259yib b\u0259l\u0259k ba\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u011flay\u0131b b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcrl\u0259r \u2013 Diri, diri… Bax, m\u0259ni d\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t el\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u0259n b\u0259l\u0259k d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, k\u0259f\u0259n d\u0259… ancaq \u00a0k\u0259f\u0259n bu c\u00fcr b\u0259l\u0259yin yan\u0131da \u00a0 \u00a0ip\u0259k par\u00e7adan tikilmi\u015f \u00e7e\u00e7un\u00e7a k\u0259styum kimi bir \u015feydi. \u00d6z\u00fcn hesab\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr d\u0259 indi…<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, ay qa\u011fa, ay qa\u011fa, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259di? Noolub? A\u011f\u0131 deyirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, s\u0259n… az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n…<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259n d\u0259 az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m s\u0259ni qovam…<\/div>\n
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– A\u011fz\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131 ki, ay qa\u011fa.<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259ni qovmad\u0131m ki, qaqulya.<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… yax\u015f\u0131 ki, a\u011fz\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… yax\u015f\u0131 ki, s\u0259ni qovmad\u0131m…<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131 oldu, ay qa\u011fa.<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131 oldu, qaqulya. He\u00e7 bel\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/div>\n
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– Olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– Seyran, noolub? H\u0259? Birt\u0259h\u0259rs\u0259n. S\u0259n bir y\u00fcz \u0259lli qram hortdad getsin.<\/div>\n
– S\u0259nd\u0259 var, qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7oxudu, b\u0259sdi deyinc\u0259… ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 Bak\u0131da sizin\u0259n i\u00e7dim. Bura g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259n bir \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259dim. Buralarda da ki, bilirs\u0259n d\u0259 “suxoy zakon\u201d du. Yax\u015f\u0131 g\u0259l s\u00f6hb\u0259ti d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259k.<\/div>\n
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– S\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k \u00f6lk\u0259ni d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k kimi bir \u015feydi, m\u0259n gir\u0259n kol deyil, g\u00fcc\u00fcm \u00e7atmaz, qa\u011fa.<\/div>\n
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– \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, m\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fim.<\/div>\n
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– D\u0259yi\u015f.<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131, Zaxar Petrovi\u00e7, n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259rdi?<\/div>\n
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– Zaxar Petrovi\u00e7 kimdi, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– Zakir F\u0259xrini deyir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… Onun v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn iki misras\u0131yla deyim?<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, tay Zakir bizi h\u0259rl\u0259mir… i\u015fi-g\u00fcc\u00fc f\u0259l\u0259yin\u0259ndi, f\u0259l\u0259yin\u0259n oturub-durur.<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 deyir ki?<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k? Deyir ki: Silk\u0259l\u0259m\u0259, f\u0259l\u0259k, m\u0259ni. \u00c7iynimd\u0259ki tabut d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r…<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… bildim…<\/div>\n
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– S\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259di, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– Biz d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz d\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259k, qoy bel\u0259 qals\u0131n, \u00f6z s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc dan\u0131\u015faq, el\u0259 rahatd\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– D\u00fczd\u00fc, ay qa\u011fa, adam \u00f6z s\u00f6hb\u0259tini eliy\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 bil ki, oturub evind\u0259 yuxar\u0131 ba\u015fda h\u00f6rm\u0259tin\u0259n-izz\u0259tin\u0259n a\u011fal\u0131q el\u0259yir, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259rh\u0259m olmayan \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fanda is\u0259 el\u0259 bil ki, yad \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259di, q\u0259rib\u00e7ilik \u00e7\u0259kir…<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131, Seyran, \u0130ntiri\u015f na\u011fayr\u0131r \u2013 \u0130ntiqam Qas\u0131mzad\u0259?<\/div>\n
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– \u0130ntiri\u015f yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131. “Az\u0259rbaycan\u201d jurnal\u0131nda ba\u015f redaktor i\u015fl\u0259yir. \u015eirin zarafat\u0131m var; h\u0259rd\u0259n deyir\u0259m, ay \u0130ntiqam, indi harda i\u015fl\u0259yirs\u0259n? Deyir ki, “Az\u0259rbaycan\u201d jurnal\u0131nda ba\u015f redaktor \u0259v\u0259ziy\u0259m, ba\u015f redaktorum da Yusif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011fludu \u2013 bax, heyl\u0259. H\u0259rd\u0259n milli t\u0259rkibd\u0259n, etnoslardan, Qaraba\u011fdan \u015firin-\u015firin m\u00fcbahis\u0259 el\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259ti bel\u0259 yekunla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b can\u0131n\u0131 qurtar\u0131r: – M\u0259n \u015eu\u015fada Mehmandarovun evind\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015fam! Bildin?! Deyir\u0259m ki, bunu \u00e7oxdan bilir\u0259m, t\u0259z\u0259 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n? Deyir ki, t\u0259z\u0259si d\u0259, k\u00f6hn\u0259si d\u0259, ham\u0131s\u0131 el\u0259 budu! Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 girl\u0259yir d\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– Ba\u015f girl\u0259m\u0259k el\u0259 bir ixtisasd\u0131 ki, sonradan pe\u015f\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evrilir \u2013 pe\u015f\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tinidi. Allah adam\u0131n dostudu, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 ba\u015f d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni! A\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 ba\u015fla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc idar\u0259 etm\u0259k d\u00f6vl\u0259ti idar\u0259 etm\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tindi, m\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcld\u00fc. Bu birm\u0259nal\u0131d\u0131, bel\u0259di, ba\u015fqa variant \u2013 zad da yoxdu. \u0130kinci, yar\u0131ma\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 ba\u015f… burda v\u0259ziyy\u0259t o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 pis deyil; bel\u0259 ki, yar\u0131maa\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 ba\u015f bir g\u00fcn dostdu, o biri g\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n… \u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259li, rahat\u0131 is\u0259 a\u011f\u0131l olmayan ba\u015f\u0131 girl\u0259m\u0259kdir. Kim n\u0259 deyir “b\u0259li, ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259\u201d \u2013 ba\u015f yoxdu ax\u0131… Ham\u0131 da deyir ki, “halal olsun, \u00fcz\u00fcyola adamd\u0131\u201d. Bel\u0259likl\u0259, “\u00fcz\u00fcyola adam\u201d imici \u00e7ad\u0131r\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc vurur ba\u015fa, d\u00fcnyadan da ged\u0259nd\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259ri olmur; n\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, niy\u0259 getdi, onun getm\u0259yind\u0259n niy\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259sin x\u0259b\u0259ri olmad\u0131 v\u0259 ilax\u0131r v\u0259 sair…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, m\u0259ni burdan qovsan da dey\u0259c\u0259m: S\u0259n filosofsan!<\/div>\n
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– Filosof da \u00f6z\u00fcns\u0259n… bayaq dedikl\u0259rin d\u0259… \u00f6z\u00fcns\u0259n…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, s\u0259n\u0259 bir \u015fad x\u0259b\u0259rim var… 2002-ci ild\u0259 “Nekroloq\u201d \u0259s\u0259rim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin Yusif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flu ad\u0131na “ilin \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 roman\u0131\u201d m\u00fckafat\u0131n\u0131 verdil\u0259r.<\/div>\n
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– Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni noolsun… ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim…<\/div>\n
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– Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259din?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… ay qa\u011fa, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim.<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… noolsun ki, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259din, sonra ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rs\u0259n d\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 vaxt, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 vaxt olsa… ola bil\u0259r ki, he\u00e7 ax\u0131racan ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n… bu, vacib d\u0259 deyil, \u00e7\u00fcnki bunnan da vacib \u015feyl\u0259r var…<\/div>\n
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– Ay Seyran, s\u0259nin hu\u015fun-ba\u015f\u0131n yerind\u0259di?<\/div>\n
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– Bura g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259… n\u0259di ki?…<\/div>\n
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– \u018fg\u0259r hu\u015fun-ba\u015f\u0131n yerind\u0259dirs\u0259, niy\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259ri t\u0259z\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r kimi s\u0131r\u0131y\u0131rsan m\u0259n\u0259, h\u0259? Yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b? M\u00fckafat alan g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u0259lmi\u015fdin bura, \u0259lind\u0259 d\u0259 bir d\u0259st\u0259 g\u00fcl. Soru\u015fdun ki, ay qa\u011fa, m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259nin ad\u0131na olan m\u00fckafat veribl\u0259r, s\u0259n bil\u0259n bu n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259di? M\u0259n n\u0259 dedim? Dedim ki, ehtiyatl\u0131 ol… yad\u0131ndad\u0131?<\/div>\n
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– B\u0131y… h\u0259, ay qa\u011fa, d\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, h\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– Sonra da dedin ki, milyoner olmu\u015fam, bir milyon m\u00fckafat alm\u0131\u015fam, o vaxt dey\u0259s\u0259n bir milyon iki y\u00fcz dollar\u0131d\u0131; dedin ki, ged\u0259k yeyib-i\u00e7\u0259k, d\u00fczd\u00fc?<\/div>\n
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– D\u00fczd\u00fc…<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259n n\u0259 dedim, dedim ki, buralarda qanun-qayda bel\u0259di ki, bizi he\u00e7 hara buraxm\u0131llar, qarantindi. S\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259din, heyk\u0259limin \u00fcz\u2014g\u00f6z\u00fcnn\u0259n \u00f6p\u0259-\u00f6p\u0259 yalvard\u0131n ki, noolar ikic\u0259 saatl\u0131\u011fa ged\u0259k. D\u00fcz\u00fc, m\u0259n d\u0259 pis oldum, pis oldum ki, b\u0259lk\u0259, havalan\u0131b el\u0259mis\u0259n. \u00c7\u00fcnki, m\u0259ni diri bilirdin, m\u0259nn\u0259n diri adam kimi dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131n, m\u0259n n\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259liydim ki?.. El\u0259 bil “Ulduz\u201dda i\u015fl\u0259diyimiz vaxtlard\u0131, s\u0259n d\u0259 i\u015fin ax\u0131r\u0131nda g\u0259lmis\u0259n ki, qa\u011fa, ged\u0259k “inturist\u201d\u0259… bax, heyl\u0259… indi o k\u00f6hn\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n s\u0131r\u0131yanda yen\u0259 narahat oldum… Ancaq yox… ma\u015fallah yax\u015f\u0131san…<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131yam, h\u0259, qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131 deyils\u0259n ee, lap yax\u015f\u0131san…<\/div>\n
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– Sa\u011f ol, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259n d\u0259 sa\u011f ol, qaqulya.<\/div>\n
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– Birinci d\u0259f\u0259 bu x\u0259b\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm dill\u0259nm\u0259dim. M\u00fckafat m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini s\u0259nn\u0259n qabaq bilirdim.<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r? Bilirdin?…<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… Anardan m\u0259n xahi\u015f el\u0259mi\u015fdim…<\/div>\n
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– Anardan m\u0259nim xahi\u015fimi el\u0259mi\u015fdin?<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nib el\u0259m\u0259… bizim burda \u00f6z kanallar\u0131m\u0131z var…<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, ay qa\u011fa, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259liik ora g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u0259 \u00f6z kanal\u0131m olacaq?<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259yin\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131, m\u0259nim kanal\u0131m var d\u0259, s\u0259n d\u0259 istifad\u0259 eliy\u0259rs\u0259n…<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn kanal\u0131m olsa, pis olar ki?<\/div>\n
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– El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n burda h\u0259r yet\u0259nin kanal\u0131 olur? He\u00e7 m\u0259nim ad\u0131ma yoxdu; m\u0259ni S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011funun kanal\u0131na qo\u015fublar, s\u0259ni d\u0259 qo\u015far\u0131q ora… Bel\u0259 baxanda kanal\u0131 neynirs\u0259n ee, o da bir c\u00fcr ba\u015fa\u011fr\u0131s\u0131d\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… qa\u011fa… b\u0259ri bax, Vaqif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flunu g\u00f6r\u00fcb el\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– E\u015fitmi\u015f\u0259m g\u0259lib, buralardad\u0131… ancaq g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fik…<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s niy\u0259, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– Bilirs\u0259n d\u0259, bir ild\u0259n \u00e7oxdu ki, g\u0259lib, ancaq n\u0259yis\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcmd\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ke\u00e7m\u0259yib.<\/div>\n
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– Niy\u0259?<\/div>\n
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– O niy\u0259ni ara\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131m, getdim buran\u0131n ba\u015f inzibat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na, dedim siz bil\u0259rsiniz, do\u011fma qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131nan g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k yad\u0131ma da d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr, bu n\u0259d\u0259n olar? Dedi ki, bel\u0259 d\u0259 olmal\u0131d\u0131, h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox tezdi. Buralar\u0131n qanununa g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259n Vaqifi yetmi\u015f be\u015f ild\u0259n, S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011funu is\u0259 \u0259lli ild\u0259n sonra g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m \u2013 h\u0259r k\u0259s n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131bsa, o q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt ke\u00e7m\u0259lidi. Onlar is\u0259 m\u0259ni altm\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7 ild\u0259n sonra g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259rl\u0259r \u2013 bu, ancaq do\u011fmalara aiddi, tan\u0131\u015flara d\u0259xli yoxdu. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 uzaqdan-uza\u011fa bir-birimizi g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259rik – \u0259n yax\u0131n m\u0259saf\u0259 q\u0131rx metr olmal\u0131d\u0131, otuz doqquz olsa, g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc itir, bax, bel\u0259… Ancaq tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131 tez-tez g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m, onlar da m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcr, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259sur\u0259t.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, lap ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 kimi g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Cabir Novruzu. Dedi, t\u0259z\u0259 \u015feir yazm\u0131\u015fam, ad\u0131 da bel\u0259di: … “Sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda qiym\u0259t verin insanlara\u201d. M\u0259n d\u0259 dedim ki, el\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra da, qiym\u0259t vers\u0259l\u0259r, pis olmaz. Cabir dedi ki, ist\u0259yirs\u0259n \u015feiri oxuyum s\u0259n\u0259, dedim yox, t\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m. Cabir t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nib dedi ki, ax\u0131 burda he\u00e7 k\u0259s he\u00e7 yana t\u0259l\u0259smir. M\u0259n d\u0259 dedim ki, noolsun he\u00e7 k\u0259s he\u00e7 yana t\u0259l\u0259smir \u2013 m\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m. Onnan sonra g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, dey\u0259s\u0259n, yen\u0259 yaz\u0131r…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m; ist\u0259yir\u0259m ham\u0131 desin ki, Seyran b\u00f6y\u00fck yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131d\u0131. N\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6r\u0259rdin?…<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259n bel\u0259 el\u0259… Allah adam\u0131 nec\u0259, n\u0259d\u0259n yarad\u0131b \u2013 saxs\u0131 s\u0259si ver\u0259n pal\u00e7\u0131qdan, sonra yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 Allah\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259yib. \u00d6z ruhundan yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u00fcf\u00fcr\u00fcb, xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259diyi adam canlan\u0131b, xo\u015funa g\u0259lib. H\u0259r adamda Allah\u0131n ruhu var; s\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131n obrazlara b\u00fct\u00fcn ruhunla \u00fcf\u00fcr\u0259s\u0259n… bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n ki, yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131n obrazlar canland\u0131, ba\u015flad\u0131lar kitab\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u0259zi\u015fm\u0259y\u0259, sonra kitab\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u0259zi\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259n bezib kitabdan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r h\u0259yata, canl\u0131 al\u0259m\u0259 qovu\u015facaqlar. Bax, onda s\u0259n dey\u0259n olacaq…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, yax\u015f\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan ee…<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 bar\u0259d\u0259?<\/div>\n
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– Tay k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259mirs\u0259n…<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… Bura g\u0259l\u0259nn\u0259n q\u0131rx g\u00fcn sonra dilim a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131.<\/div>\n
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– El\u0259 \u00f6zba\u015f\u0131na a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131?<\/div>\n
– Yoox… a\u00e7d\u0131lar.<\/div>\n
– Qa\u011fa, yerin rahatd\u0131, darke\u015f deyil ki?<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259di ki? Yerimi gen\u0259ltm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Yoox… m\u0259nim oralara b\u0259l\u0259dliyim yoxdu… H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259nin yan\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 Vaqif C\u0259bray\u0131lzad\u0259nin iki misras\u0131 yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, pis oluram.<\/div>\n
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– Vaqif n\u0259 yaz\u0131r ki?<\/div>\n
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– Onun Lermontova h\u0259sr etdiyi bir \u015feiri var, iki misras\u0131 t\u0259xmin\u0259n bel\u0259di: q\u0259brin i\u00e7i t\u00fcf\u0259ngin l\u00fcl\u0259si kimi dar, Mixayil Yuriyevi\u00e7, el\u0259 bilirs\u0259n ham\u0131n\u0131n allah\u0131 var?\u201d<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131… Bu S\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259qiq\u0259tidi d\u0259… Bir d\u0259 var H\u0259qiq\u0259tin s\u00f6z\u00fc… Birinci variant g\u00f6z\u0259ldi, ikincisi is\u0259 s\u0259rrastd\u0131, d\u0259qiqdi, reall\u0131qd\u0131. S\u0259n pis olma. \u018fvv\u0259la pis olmaqdan on s\u0259kkiz il ke\u00e7ir. \u0130kincisin\u0259 qalan yerd\u0259 burda yerim \u00e7ox gen-boldu \u2013 torpaq boyda… Torpaq boyda oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 torpaq kimi d\u0259 rahatam; torpaqdan yum\u015faq he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdu. M\u0259n sizin yan\u0131n\u0131zda olanda, bils\u0259ydim, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131na yast\u0131q yox, torpaq qoyub yatard\u0131m… Torpaq qoyub yatard\u0131m ki, boynum yast\u0131qdan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, bura t\u0259z\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fc g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 siz k\u00f6hn\u0259l\u0259r neylirsiniz, qar\u015f\u0131lamaq, filan \u2013 bel\u0259 bir protokol var?<\/div>\n
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– D\u0259qiq yad\u0131mdad\u0131, m\u0259ni bura \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 heyl\u0259 s\u0259n dey\u0259n d\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm yox idi bura g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259. Baxmayaraq ki, g\u00f6z\u00fcm d\u00fcnyadan doymu\u015fdu, can\u0131m da a\u011fr\u0131dan. Tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m adamlardan ayr\u0131lmaq ist\u0259mirdim, bir mahn\u0131da deyildiyi kimi “zorunan ay\u0131rd\u0131lar\u201d. \u018fg\u0259r tan\u0131d\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 tan\u0131masayd\u0131m, bel\u0259 d\u0259 olmur ax\u0131, vecim\u0259 almazd\u0131m. Buran\u0131n giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131ndan i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259, den\u0259n buran\u0131n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131 da olur ki… H\u0259, bir az da giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirs\u0259m, dem\u0259liy\u0259m ki, buran\u0131n giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131 ancaq m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131 olsa da, m\u0259ni yola salma\u011fa g\u0259l\u0259n minl\u0259rl\u0259 adam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131 idi. \u018flq\u0259r\u0259z, buran\u0131n k\u00f6hn\u0259 sakinl\u0259rind\u0259n bir kims\u0259 m\u0259ni qar\u015f\u0131lamad\u0131. Ancaq g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131ndan s\u0259ssiz, yum\u015faq bir ild\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7ax\u0131b getdi. M\u0259n bu ild\u0131r\u0131m\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, qan\u0131ndan tan\u0131d\u0131m \u2013 S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011funun ruhu idi. Bir \u015fey d\u0259 deyim, bura q\u0131rx g\u00fcn m\u00fcdd\u0259tind\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n olacaqsa, biz\u0259 b\u0259ri ba\u015fdan ayan olur, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259, saat\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r…<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259li, b\u0259li, bax, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar birliyinin binas\u0131nda pill\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 yuxar\u0131 qalxmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 sol t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 elanlar l\u00f6vh\u0259si var ha… ham\u0131 da ordan ke\u00e7ib gedir ax\u0131… m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, bu il mart\u0131n 23-d\u0259 saat 14-d\u0259 Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin Nat\u0259van klubunda yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Seyran S\u0259xav\u0259tin yetmi\u015f illiyi m\u00fcnasib\u0259til\u0259 t\u0259dbir ke\u00e7iril\u0259c\u0259k, maraqlananlar d\u0259v\u0259t olunur. Buran\u0131n k\u00f6hn\u0259 sakinl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259 ayan olur ki, filan ay\u0131n filan tarixind\u0259 saat filanda Filank\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, daha do\u011frusu, g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Sizin elandan f\u0259rqli olaraq “maraqlananlar d\u0259v\u0259t olunur\u201d c\u00fcml\u0259sini yazm\u0131rlar \u2013 \u00e7\u00fcnki maraqlananlar yoxdu, v\u0259ss\u0259lam. H\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z torpaq \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015famaqdad\u0131… Yax\u015f\u0131, bu da bel\u0259… \u0130ndi d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de, ki\u015fi kimi…<\/div>\n
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– Ki\u015fi kimi dan\u0131\u015fmaq \u00e7\u0259tindi ax\u0131, ay qa\u011fa, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 q\u0259fild\u0259n…<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259nim x\u0259trim\u0259 d\u0259… y\u0259ni be\u015f-alt\u0131 c\u00fcml\u0259lik ki\u015filiyin \u00e7atmayacaq, g\u00f6r neynirs\u0259n, m\u0259n d\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k eliy\u0259r\u0259m…<\/div>\n
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– E\u015fidir\u0259m, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259ni n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r xat\u0131rlay\u0131rlar, dal\u0131mca n\u0259 deyill\u0259r, y\u0259ni h\u0259r\u0259 bir zurna \u00e7al\u0131r h\u0259?<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259ri ba\u015fdan deyim ki, ham\u0131 bir zurna \u00e7al\u0131r, adamba\u015f\u0131na bir zurna olsa, onda Az\u0259rbaycan xalq\u0131 zurna\u00e7\u0131lar d\u0259st\u0259si olard\u0131 ki… \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 el\u0259-bel\u0259 yox ha… B\u0259\u015f\u0259riyy\u0259tin zurna\u00e7\u0131lar d\u0259st\u0259si. \u018fslind\u0259, bu da b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015f\u0259r\u0259f olard\u0131, ancaq…<\/div>\n
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– Seyran, ke\u00e7 m\u0259tl\u0259b\u0259.<\/div>\n
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– Yava\u015f-yava\u015f ke\u00e7ir\u0259m d\u0259 – \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc c\u0259ml\u0259yir\u0259m. Ax\u0131, s\u0259nin bu sual\u0131na ki\u015fi kimi cavab verm\u0259liy\u0259m. Fikr\u0259t Sad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir \u015feiri var ee, deyir ki, “\u00fc\u00e7 c\u00fcr olur zurna\u00e7\u0131lar, biri bel\u0259 zurna\u00e7\u0131lar, biri el\u0259 zurna\u00e7\u0131lar, biri d\u0259 el\u0259-bel\u0259 zurna\u00e7\u0131lar\u201d. \u0130ndi bunlar\u0131n hans\u0131n\u0131n dediyi s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn maraql\u0131d\u0131: bel\u0259 zurna\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n, el\u0259 zurna\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n, yoxsa el\u0259-bel\u0259 zurna\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n?<\/div>\n
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– El\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n, ke\u00e7 m\u0259tl\u0259b\u0259.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, el\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k m\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u2013 m\u0259n o zurna\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 aid\u0259m, h\u0259m bel\u0259y\u0259m, h\u0259m el\u0259y\u0259m, h\u0259m d\u0259 el\u0259-bel\u0259y\u0259m. Y\u0259ni ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 ki\u015fi kimi dey\u0259c\u0259m, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc c\u0259ml\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259\u0259… Qa\u011fa, s\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 yaza bilm\u0259zdim, \u00e7\u00fcnki, bu, namus m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sidi, h\u0259r k\u0259s \u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6z namusunu \u00e7\u0259km\u0259lidi \u2013 yoxsa yazard\u0131m! Qa\u011fa, s\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259 bilm\u0259zdim, s\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u00f6ls\u0259ydim, s\u0259nin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc z\u0259d\u0259l\u0259y\u0259rdim \u2013 yoxsa, \u00f6l\u0259rdim. S\u0259n do\u011fulanda da, yazanda da, \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 do\u011fulmusan, \u00f6z \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 yazm\u0131san, \u00f6z \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6lm\u00fcs\u0259n. Bunlar\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259s Yusif kimi, Yusifin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 eliy\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi \u2013 \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 el\u0259din. S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn can\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na atma\u011f\u0131n m\u0259qam\u0131 g\u0259ldi: Qa\u011fa, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla ki, s\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. S\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259yin birc\u0259 yolu olub: – S\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259r\u0259k s\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 do\u011fulayd\u0131m, ancaq m\u0259n \u00f6z \u0259v\u0259zim\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015fam. \u00d6z \u0259v\u0259zim\u0259 do\u011fulan birisi kimi s\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259 bils\u0259ydim, b\u0259s m\u0259nim \u0259v\u0259zim\u0259 kim \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259nim \u0259v\u0259zim\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259n birisi tap\u0131lsayd\u0131, b\u0259s onun \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 kim \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kdi? He\u00e7 kim! \u018fv\u0259zind\u0259 al\u0259m bir-birin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi, Allah\u0131n Yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 qoydu\u011fu qayda-qanun, nizam-t\u0259r\u0259zi pozulacaqd\u0131. Sonra he\u00e7 Allah\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bu pozuntunu ya nizamlaya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi, ya da nizamlamaq ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi \u2013 bax, buras\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259qiq dey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m…<\/div>\n
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– Bir d\u0259 ki, ay qa\u011fa, bizimkil\u0259r, insaf\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn dal\u0131nca dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rlar, he\u00e7 qaba\u011f\u0131nca da dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rlar, qaras\u0131na dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar \u2013 s\u0259n is\u0259 qara deyils\u0259n, a\u011fappaqsan \u2013 k\u0259f\u0259n kimi…<\/div>\n
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– Seyran, deyirs\u0259n ki, bizimkil\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn dal\u0131nca dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rlar. Ax\u0131, bu, m\u0259n\u0259 aid deyil.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011faaaa! Dem\u0259li, s\u0259n… \u00f6l-m\u0259-mi-s\u0259n?!<\/div>\n
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– G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki… ancaq sizin yan\u0131n\u0131zda qalsayd\u0131m, \u00e7oxdan \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm…<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, sizin\u0259n zarafat el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m…<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, sizd\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259n zarafat el\u0259m\u0259k dey\u0259s\u0259n n\u0259sillikc\u0259ndi ee \u2013 Vaqif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flu da zarafat el\u0259y\u0259-el\u0259y\u0259 getdi. Zarafat el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 adam tapm\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z ki?<\/div>\n
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– Qaqulya, yad\u0131nda saxla, adamlar o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 zarafat g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcr, \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 \u00d6l\u00fcmd\u00fc \u2013 \u00d6l\u00fcm \u00e7ox zarafatc\u0131ld\u0131, s\u0259n bilm\u0259zs\u0259n onu. S\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131nan zarafatla\u015f\u0131rsan…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn zarafatc\u0131l oldu\u011funu s\u00fcbut el\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Niy\u0259 el\u0259mir\u0259m ki… Y\u0259qin bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri s\u0259n d\u0259 e\u015fitmis\u0259n; bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, k\u0259nd\u0259-k\u0259s\u0259y\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r yay\u0131ld\u0131 ki, filank\u0259s ki\u015fi \u00f6l\u00fcm aya\u011f\u0131ndad\u0131 \u2013 \u00f6l\u00fcr. Qohum-\u0259qr\u0259ba da y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b \u00e7ad\u0131r qurur, c\u00f6ng\u0259 k\u0259sir ki, ki\u015fini urvatd\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrs\u00fcnl\u0259r. Bir g\u00fcn, be\u015f g\u00fcn, on g\u00fcn… Ki\u015fi \u00f6lm\u0259k bilmir, bir az da ke\u00e7\u0259nn\u0259n sonra aya\u011fa qalx\u0131r \u2013 s\u0259n dem\u0259, \u00f6l\u00fcm bu ki\u015fiyn\u0259n zarafat eliyirmi\u015f, ki\u015fi d\u0259 zarafat g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nimi\u015f d\u0259… zarafatc\u0131l\u0131m\u0131\u015f, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u00fcr ki, \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131r gedir. Ancaq \u00f6l\u00fcm aya\u011f\u0131nda olanlar dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki, m\u0259nim ba\u015f\u0131m zarafat-zad g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcr, \u00f6z xo\u015flar\u0131ynan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na g\u0259lirl\u0259r biz t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 – buralara.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, onda b\u0259s, s\u0259n niy\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259n zarafat el\u0259m\u0259din ki… niy\u0259 onu g\u00fcld\u00fcrm\u0259din ki, g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b ged\u0259ydi – \u0259libo\u015f…<\/div>\n
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– \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 bir az zarafatla\u015fd\u0131q, yax\u015f\u0131 da al\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259ri g\u00fcl\u00fcr \u2013 m\u0259nn\u0259n xo\u015fu g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Bird\u0259n hiss el\u0259dim ki, yanm\u0131\u015f \u0259t qoxusu g\u0259lir. Q\u0131rxaya\u011fa ox\u015fayan a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m dilimi yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Dilimin k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc udanda ili\u015fib qald\u0131 bo\u011faz\u0131mda, ay\u0131ld\u0131m ki, burdayam. Buran\u0131n h\u0259kiml\u0259ri torpaqdan m\u0259n\u0259 dil protezi qoydular \u2013 indi dilim torpaqdand\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, dilini g\u00f6st\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcm…<\/div>\n
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– G\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m… dilimi \u00e7\u0131xartsam, t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259r. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 tramvayda konduktor arvada pis s\u00f6z demi\u015fdim. O da m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u011f\u0131\u015f el\u0259di ki, “dilin t\u00f6k\u00fcls\u00fcn!\u201d<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, yad\u0131ndad\u0131, m\u00fcst\u0259qilliyimizin lap o s\u00fct\u00fcl vaxtlar\u0131nda bir d\u0259st\u0259 tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f ziyal\u0131, a\u011fsaqqallar y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r s\u0259nin yan\u0131na ki, Yusif m\u00fc\u0259llim, xalq\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yolunda t\u0259r daban\u0131ndan gedib, z\u0259hm\u0259tin b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fc, raz\u0131l\u0131q ver, prezidentliy\u0259 namiz\u0259dliyini ir\u0259li s\u00fcr\u0259k, biz\u0259 d\u0259, xalq\u0131m\u0131za da bir g\u00fcn a\u011flayarsan, \u0259l-\u0259l\u0259 verib i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259rik, o vaxt onlara bir s\u00f6z demi\u015fdin ee…<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259, yad\u0131mdad\u0131. Onlara dedim ki, \u00e7ox sa\u011f olun, m\u0259ni say\u0131b g\u0259lmisiniz. El\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 pis baxm\u0131ram. Ancaq Sizd\u0259n bir s\u00f6z soru\u015fum. Tutaq ki, namiz\u0259dliyimi ir\u0259li s\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz… Bird\u0259n xalq m\u0259ni prezident se\u00e7di, b\u0259s m\u0259n na\u011fayrajam. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ma girs\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131, suyu s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259-s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259 \u00a0\u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdil\u0259r.<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, niy\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q verm\u0259din ki?<\/div>\n
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– Ay Seyran, bir \u00f6z\u00fcn fikirl\u0259\u015f d\u0259… m\u0259nn\u0259n prezident olar?<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259n bil\u0259n olard\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259n bil\u0259n olard\u0131… Ax\u0131, \u0259sas m\u0259n bil\u0259ndi \u2013 m\u0259nim bildiyim d\u0259 buydu \u2013olmazd\u0131.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, s\u00f6hb\u0259tdi d\u0259 el\u0259yirik, prezident olsayd\u0131n, m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 i\u015f ver\u0259rdin?<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259ni tutdurard\u0131m…<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259ni?!<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259, s\u0259ni.<\/div>\n
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– Niy\u0259, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259ni t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n t\u0259\u015fkil eliy\u0259rdim, k\u00f6hn\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n kimi t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n y\u0131\u011fard\u0131m.<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r, ay qa\u011fa?<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259ni g\u00f6nd\u0259rtdir\u0259rdim Bay\u0131la…<\/div>\n
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– Bay\u0131la yox, K\u00fcrd\u0259xan\u0131ya.<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259n \u00f6z vaxt\u0131mnan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram… H\u0259, s\u0259ni g\u00f6nd\u0259rtdir\u0259rdim Bay\u0131la, \u00e7ox yox, \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd il, tap\u015f\u0131rard\u0131m orda kefin\u0259n ya\u015fayard\u0131n. Ancaq Bay\u0131la getm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n qabaq azadl\u0131qda olanda d\u00fcz bir il prezident kimi m\u0259ni t\u0259nqid eliyirs\u0259n, a\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259ni deyirs\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 xalq\u0131n ad\u0131ndan, h\u0259, xalq\u0131n ad\u0131ndan… B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlardan sonra m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259ni tutdururam, \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd ild\u0259n sonra \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan, – pah, xalq q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s sonra?<\/div>\n
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– Sonra yen\u0259 m\u0259nn\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmirs\u0259n, el\u0259 d\u00f6.\u00fcy\u00fcrs\u0259n qab\u0131r\u011fama, r\u00fc\u015fv\u0259t, korrupsiya v\u0259 sair.<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s sonra?<\/div>\n
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– Sonra da tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131ram ayda 20-30 min pul verirl\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259, kefin\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131rsan. Kefin\u0259n ya\u015fama\u011fa ba\u015flayannan sonra t\u0259nqidin dozas\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f-yava\u015f azald\u0131rsan. Bax, m\u0259n s\u0259ni t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n t\u0259\u015fkil eliyir\u0259m, raz\u0131san?<\/div>\n
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– Raz\u0131yam.<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259nn\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 m\u00fcxalif\u0259t d\u00fcz\u0259ldir\u0259m, h\u0259m d\u0259… Bu oyunda s\u0259n d\u0259 udursan, m\u0259n d\u0259.<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s uduzan kim olur?<\/div>\n
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– Xalq. V\u0259zif\u0259 n\u0259yin\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131, m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti \u015feydi. Ancaq m\u00fcxalif\u0259t \u0259b\u0259didi. N\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r fikirl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m?<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131… Qa\u011fa, b\u0259s Zakir F\u0259xrini hara qoyazsan?<\/div>\n
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– A\u015f\u0131qlar Birliyinin s\u0259dri.<\/div>\n
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– Raz\u0131 olmaz…<\/div>\n
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– Niy\u0259? Getsin, otursun orda, qo\u015fmadan-zaddan yazd\u0131n d\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– Yoox, qa\u011fa, getm\u0259z ora…<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s hara?<\/div>\n
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– Vergil\u0259r naziri…<\/div>\n
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– Ora zanitdi.<\/div>\n
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– Onda he\u00e7 olmasa, s\u0259hiyy\u0259 nazirliyin\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– Ax\u0131 Zakirin h\u0259kimlik diplomu yoxdu.<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, diplomu neynir, x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 iyn\u0259 vuracaq?<\/div>\n
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– Yoox ee, oran\u0131 bir adama s\u00f6z vermi\u015f\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s sosial m\u00fcdafi\u0259 fondu n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r?…<\/div>\n
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– Ora he\u00e7 olmaz. zakir\u0259 fond etibar el\u0259m\u0259k olar?!<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s onda hara, ay qa\u011fa, Zakir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kib ee… S\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir.<\/div>\n
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– A\u015f\u0131qlar birliyin\u0259 s\u0259dr!<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, yaman s\u0259rt olmusan ee, prezident olmam\u0131\u015fdan qabaq bel\u0259 d\u0259yildin… n\u0259 tez…<\/div>\n
– H\u0259l\u0259 gecikmi\u015f\u0259m. Bel\u0259 olmasam, tapdalayarlar m\u0259ni. S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011fun “Vaqif\u201d pyesind\u0259 Qacar\u0131n dilind\u0259n n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r deyir? Deyir ki, “\u00e7ox da t\u0259rifl\u0259m\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 V\u0259t\u0259ni, bu q\u0131l\u0131nc olmasa, yey\u0259rl\u0259r m\u0259ni!\u201d Yad\u0131ndad\u0131? Bir d\u0259 m\u0259nn\u0259n he\u00e7 k\u0259sin xahi\u015fini el\u0259m\u0259, qoyun i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259k. M\u0259n kenquru deyil\u0259m ki, ham\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 y\u0131\u011fam qaarn\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 torbaya, ba\u015flayam \u0259mizdirm\u0259y\u0259!… He\u00e7 k\u0259s m\u0259nim i\u015fim\u0259 burnunu soxmas\u0131n! Kim burnunu soxsa, onun burnunu ovaram!<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, ay qa\u011fa, tay b\u0259sdi…<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 b\u0259sdi?<\/div>\n
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– Deyir\u0259m tay prezident i\u015fl\u0259diyin b\u0259sdi, istefa ver, \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t eliy\u0259k.<\/div>\n
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– Eliy\u0259k d\u0259!.. ba\u015fla!..<\/div>\n
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– Yox dana, s\u0259n istefa ver, sonra…<\/div>\n
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– Yax\u015f\u0131, qaqulya, ancaq pis i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259dim haa…<\/div>\n
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– Ay sa\u011f ol, bax bel\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, yerin yaman g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr.<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr?<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr onu d\u0259qiq dey\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Ancaq s\u0259nin yerin g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fckc\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 yer tapa bilmir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, \u0259d\u0259biyyata kenquru torbas\u0131nda g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r bax\u0131rsan?<\/div>\n
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– Onlara t\u0259r\u0259f bax\u0131ram ki, deyim d\u0259 n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r bax\u0131ram?… Kenquru da Allah\u0131n yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qalm\u0131\u015f \u0259s\u0259ridi, m\u0259nim “Deyil\u0259nl\u0259r g\u0259ldi ba\u015fa\u201d roman\u0131m kimi. M\u0259nim \u0259s\u0259rim \u00fcz\u00fcrl\u00fc s\u0259b\u0259b\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qald\u0131; bu roman m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 Kenquruya ox\u015fay\u0131r. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sind\u0259 Allah\u0131n da \u00fcz\u00fcrl\u00fc s\u0259b\u0259bi olur? S\u0259n bilirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Yox, ay qa\u011fa, m\u0259n hardan bilim ee… He\u00e7 \u0259s\u0259r d\u0259 Kenquruya ox\u015fayar?! Eh!<\/div>\n
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– Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 c\u00fcml\u0259ni yax\u015f\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259dim…<\/div>\n
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– Deyir\u0259m ki, m\u0259n hardan bilim, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– Ancaq m\u0259n roman\u0131m\u0131 tamamlasayd\u0131m, ad\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib Kenquru qoyacaqd\u0131m \u2013 bunu \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra fikirl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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– Seyran, fikir vermis\u0259n, insan\u0131n qollar\u0131 q\u0131l\u00e7alar\u0131ndan g\u00f6d\u0259kdi, q\u0131sad\u0131; eyn\u0259n Kenquru kimi. B\u0259lk\u0259 Allah Kenqurunu biz\u0259 ox\u015fatmaq ist\u0259yirmi\u015f? Niy\u0259 dinmirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– N\u0259 bilim ee, ay qa\u011fa, bilmir\u0259m d\u0259… Onu da bilmir\u0259m ki, s\u0259n yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131san, yoxsa Kenquru\u015f\u00fcnas…<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259n d\u00fcnya\u015f\u00fcnasam… Kenquru da onun i\u00e7ind\u0259 gedir. \u0130nsan\u0131n g\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259ri olsun. S\u0259n bil\u0259n, t\u0259z\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015f Kenquru balas\u0131n\u0131n boyu n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r olar?<\/div>\n
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– A\u015fa\u011f\u0131s\u0131 yar\u0131m metr…<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259hvin var, ikic\u0259 santimetr.<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259n allah, d\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Vallah…<\/div>\n
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– Ay qa\u011fa, iki santimetr \u00fcsk\u00fckd\u0259n d\u0259 balacad\u0131 eey.<\/div>\n
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– Olsun d\u0259… Onlar do\u011fulanda birba\u015fa anas\u0131n\u0131n kis\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Sakitc\u0259 kis\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131b b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr. S\u00fcd \u0259mm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r kis\u0259d\u0259n. Doqquz kilo olana q\u0259d\u0259r kis\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131b-yarad\u0131r. Kenquru kis\u0259lil\u0259r n\u0259slin\u0259 aiddi. Altm\u0131\u015f c\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r; adamlar kimi d\u0259… m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, ingilis, alman, frans\u0131z, erm\u0259ni v\u0259 s. \u018fsl\u0259n Avstraliyadan, Yeni Zelandiyadand\u0131lar. B\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259rinin \u00e7\u0259kisi 90 kilo olur, saatda da 50 km qa\u00e7a bilirl\u0259r. Uzun quyruqlar\u0131 yaltaqlanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil. \u018fn \u00e7ox gec\u0259l\u0259r g\u0259zib-dolan\u0131rlar. \u00c7ox mehriband\u0131lar. Avropada bir qad\u0131n Kenqurunu \u00f6vladl\u0131\u011fa da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u2013 qad\u0131n s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 oturmay\u0131nca Kenquru da dilin\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 vurmur. \u0130ngilis s\u0259yyah\u0131 Ceyms Kukun da \u0259n yax\u0131n dostlar\u0131 kenqurulard\u0131, el\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– Menyular\u0131nda da iki c\u00fcr yem\u0259k olur: ot, bitki yarpaqlar\u0131; Yer \u00fcz\u00fc d\u0259 ki, otunan, bitki yarpaqlar\u0131ynan doludu… Kefd\u0259dil\u0259r… Bir d\u0259 ki, Kenqurular he\u00e7 vaxt balalar\u0131n\u0131n can\u0131na and i\u00e7mirl\u0259r, deyirl\u0259r ki, qarn\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 bu kis\u0259y\u0259 and olsun ki… Bunu da \u00f6z\u00fcm k\u0259\u015ff el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m… Kenquru m\u0259nim al\u0259mimd\u0259 adamlardan min d\u0259f\u0259 maraql\u0131d\u0131, min d\u0259f\u0259 mehriband\u0131, min d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 ziyans\u0131zd\u0131… Bax, S\u0259n d\u0259 Kenquruya ox\u015fay\u0131rsan… ancaq bir az… Qaraba\u011f Kenqurusu…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, icaz\u0259 vers\u0259ydin g\u0259l\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 S\u0259ni ziyar\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259, \u00f6z \u0259v\u0259zim\u0259 bir Kenquru g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259rdim.<\/div>\n
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– \u00c7ox yax\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131… ancaq s\u0259nin ona ki\u015filiyin \u00e7atar?<\/div>\n
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– \u00c7atar… \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc oda-k\u00f6z\u0259 vuraram…<\/div>\n
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– \u018fg\u0259r ki\u015filiyin \u00e7atmasa, q\u0131rx g\u00fcn qabaq g\u0259l, s\u0259n\u0259 yard\u0131m eliy\u0259r\u0259m \u2013 humanitar yard\u0131m…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, yad\u0131ndad\u0131 “\u0130nturist\u201dd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k adl\u0131 xan\u0131m?<\/div>\n
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– Yoox… S\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fsan yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259… burda yadda\u015f da torpaqdand\u0131, demi\u015f\u0259m ax\u0131, s\u0259n\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 biz\u0259 o xidm\u0259t eliyirdi; el\u0259 s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 onun stolunda oturma\u011fa meyilli idin. Bir g\u00fcn yen\u0259 onun stolunda oturmu\u015fduq, yeyib-i\u00e7irdik. Titr\u0259y\u0259-titr\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b s\u0259n\u0259 dedi ki, Yusif m\u00fc\u0259llim, siz d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l ki\u015fisiniz, \u00e7ox \u015firinsiniz, icaz\u0259 vers\u0259ydiniz uzun ill\u0259r q\u0259lbimd\u0259 g\u0259zdirdiyim bir ne\u00e7\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc deyim. S\u0259n d\u0259 centlemen saya\u011f\u0131 dedin ki, buyurun. O xan\u0131m da \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l idi v\u0259 buyurdu ki, “Yusif m\u00fc\u0259llim… bilir\u0259m ki, sizin diriliyinizd\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259n\u0259 pay d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k; sizd\u0259n art\u0131q d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 xahi\u015f eliyir\u0259m ki, \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 v\u0259siyy\u0259t el\u0259yin ki, sizi m\u0259n \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 yuyum… Sizin \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fczd\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm var…\u201d \u2013 dedi, qa\u00e7a-qa\u00e7a \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi, h\u0259tta stolun hesab\u0131n\u0131 da ba\u015fqas\u0131na verm\u0259li olduq, yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc?<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259s m\u0259n n\u0259 edim ona?<\/div>\n
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– S\u0259n d\u0259 dedin ki, h\u0259l\u0259 ona \u00e7ox qal\u0131b, \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n, d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, o qad\u0131n\u0131n dedikl\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l el\u0259din?<\/div>\n
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– Yad\u0131ma g\u0259lmir.<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa b\u0259s s\u0259ni kim yudu?<\/div>\n
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– Kimin yudu\u011fu yad\u0131ma g\u0259lmir, ancaq moyka kimi bir yer idi… h\u0259… h\u0259… o qad\u0131n bax, indi yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, son olaraq, \u0259n\u0259n\u0259vi bir sual.<\/div>\n
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– Duyuram… de g\u0259lsin. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nm\u0259, qula\u011f\u0131m el\u0259 bil ki, yorulub. Ancaq \u00e7ox yorulmay\u0131b ee… qula\u011f\u0131m el\u0259 bil ki, k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259yir… S\u0259n narahat olma, sual\u0131n\u0131 ver…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, Az\u0259rbaycan xalq\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131nla sevirs\u0259n. \u00c7\u00fcnki ondan ba\u015fqa xalq\u0131n yoxdu, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn tik\u0259c\u0259yidi; Az\u0259rbaycan xalq\u0131na n\u0259 arzulayard\u0131n?<\/div>\n
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– M\u0259\u015fhur bir deyim var, aha, qulaqlar\u0131m dincini ald\u0131, a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 \u2013 demi\u015fdim ax\u0131, s\u0259n\u0259. H\u0259, m\u0259\u015fhur bir deyim var: u\u015faqlar valideynl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00e7ox m\u00fchitin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r. M\u0259n is\u0259 deyir\u0259m ki, adamlar valideynl\u0259rind\u0259n d\u0259, m\u00fchitind\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7ox yediyin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r. Az\u0259rbaycan xalq\u0131na arzu eliyir\u0259m, xahi\u015f eliyir\u0259m, lap qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb yalvar\u0131ram ki,qoyun yem\u0259sinl\u0259r, menyular\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fsinl\u0259r… Canavar \u0259ti yesinl\u0259r… t\u00fclk\u00fc \u0259ti yesinl\u0259r \u2013 onda bu xalq\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda he\u00e7 k\u0259s dayana bilm\u0259z! M\u0259n d\u0259 buralarda ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 dik tutub g\u0259z\u0259r\u0259m \u2013 ki\u015fi kimi…<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u011fa, Allah s\u0259n\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin… m\u0259n gedir\u0259m… q\u0259brin nurla dolsun… El\u0259 \u00f6z \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn nuru da b\u0259sdi…<\/div>\n
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– \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol, Allah \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259rin\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin. Bir s\u00f6z d\u0259 soru\u015fum get.<\/div>\n
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– Buyur, ay qa\u011fa…<\/div>\n
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– Seyran, bir g\u00fcn bulvar\u0131m\u0131zda g\u0259zdiyin yerd\u0259 fotoaparat\u0131m da \u00e7iynimd\u0259 q\u0259fil qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xsam, neyl\u0259rs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Qa\u00e7a-qa\u00e7a g\u0259lib s\u0259ni qucaqlayaram,ba\u011fr\u0131m\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na basaram…<\/div>\n
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– Yalan deyirs\u0259n… Qorxursan… Q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra-q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra el\u0259 qa\u00e7arsan ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn Bak\u0131 s\u0259sini e\u015fid\u0259r, b\u00fct\u00fcn Bak\u0131 s\u0259nin arxanca baxar. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin dal\u0131nca baxaram. M\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi q\u0131\u015fq\u0131raram: Seyran qorxma, Seyran qay\u0131t… Seyran qorxma… Seyran qay\u0131t… qay\u0131t… qay\u0131t, qay\u0131t, qa… Ax\u0131, s\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259nim s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131n, ay Seyran, ay Seyran, ay… M\u0259n… y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131m, \u00f6ld\u00fcm. Bu, \u0259sl \u00f6l\u00fcm idi. Birinci \u00f6l\u00fcm x\u0259b\u0259rim, do\u011furdan da, zarafat idi. M\u0259ni s\u0259nin sevgin \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u0259n Yusif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flunun qatilis\u0259n… Bax, indi m\u0259n\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, Allah s\u0259n\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin. Bu, m\u0259qam\u0131nda deyilmi\u015f r\u0259hm\u0259tdi; m\u0259qam\u0131nda oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259 halal r\u0259hm\u0259tdi… Yusif d\u0259 bel\u0259 getdi, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 heyifim g\u0259ldi… Allah b\u00fct\u00fcn Kenqurulara da r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin…<\/div>\n
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