{"id":15001,"date":"2023-02-03T22:31:53","date_gmt":"2023-02-03T18:31:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=15001"},"modified":"2023-02-03T22:31:53","modified_gmt":"2023-02-03T18:31:53","slug":"el%c9%99-bilir%c9%99m-ki-x%c9%99rc%c9%99ng%c9%99m","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=15001","title":{"rendered":"\u201cEl\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng\u0259m&#8230;\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>\u201cX\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng olan qad\u0131nlar\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ham\u0131s\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yir\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Anam x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ngd\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra haram a\u011fr\u0131sa, el\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc m\u00fcayin\u0259 etdirm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 ehtiyat edir\u0259m. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, el\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin g\u00f6zl\u0259ntisi analiz cavab\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259kdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki bu travman\u0131 bir d\u0259f\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam. H\u0259kim \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 dedi ki, \u201canan x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ngdi, bir ay vaxt\u0131 qal\u0131b\u201d. Ondan sonra h\u0259kim v\u0259 analiz s\u00f6hb\u0259ti d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 narahat oluram.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Anamdan sonra qon\u015fumuzda Fax\u0131 xala var idi, atam\u0131n sinif yolda\u015f\u0131yd\u0131, o, da x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng oldu. X\u0259st\u0259 vaxtlar\u0131nda biz\u0259 g\u0259lib-gedirdi. Onda anam \u00e7oxdan r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Fax\u0131 xala m\u0259niml\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 deyirdi ki, \u201cVasif, h\u0259kim x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng oldu\u011fumu \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 dey\u0259nd\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya ev\u0259 g\u0259ldim. Sonra is\u0259 bu x\u0259st\u0259likd\u0259n qorxmad\u0131m v\u0259 m\u00fcalic\u0259l\u0259r edib ya\u015fama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m\u201d. Art\u0131q iki il olar ki, Fax\u0131 xala da d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Onu da anam kimi x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng apard\u0131, o, da anam kimi o\u011ful toyu g\u00f6rm\u0259di.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Yanvar\u0131n 22-d\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u201cToppu\u015f bac\u0131\u201d kimi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u018fm\u0259kdar artist T\u00fcnzal\u0259 \u018fliyeva x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ngl\u0259 uzun m\u00fcbariz\u0259d\u0259n sonra d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. X\u0259b\u0259rd\u0259 bel\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar ki, \u201cT\u00fcnzal\u0259 \u018fliyeva 49 ya\u015f\u0131nda d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi\u201d. Bu 49 ya\u015f s\u00f6hb\u0259ti m\u0259ni yaman silk\u0259l\u0259di. \u00c7\u00fcnki Toppu\u015f bac\u0131 kimi anam da 49 ya\u015f\u0131nda d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 onlar\u0131 bir az da bir-birin\u0259 ox\u015fad\u0131ram.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>D\u00fcn\u0259n daha bir ac\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131m. Yax\u0131n qohumlar\u0131m\u0131zdan biri, ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u015e\u0259hla xala kimi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 qad\u0131n da uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ngl\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259d\u0259n sonra d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. \u015e\u0259hla xalayla x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng olandan sonra g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdik. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 onu g\u00f6rs\u0259ydim, g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxma\u011fa c\u0259sar\u0259tim \u00e7atmazd\u0131. Amma \u015f\u0259klini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm v\u0259 bir \u015feyi m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 etmi\u015f\u0259m ki, x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng olan qad\u0131nlar\u0131 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ham\u0131s\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yir.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Anam \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 haya g\u0259l\u0259n ilk adamlardan biri d\u0259 \u015e\u0259hla xala idi, onda \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc c\u0131r\u0131b \u201c\u015e\u0259lal\u0259m vay!\u201d dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. O g\u00fcnl\u0259r indiy\u0259 kimi yad\u0131mdad\u0131. Amma he\u00e7 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmirdi ki, arada s\u0259kkiz illik bir fasil\u0259 olacaq v\u0259 o, da x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng\u0259 yenilib bu d\u00fcnyayla vidala\u015facaq.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259ni \u0259n \u00e7ox a\u011fr\u0131dan m\u0259rhumun yax\u0131nlar\u0131yla vida an\u0131d\u0131. \u015e\u0259hla xalan\u0131n c\u0259naz\u0259sini ma\u015f\u0131na qoyanda bir q\u0131z s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi:<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>-N\u0259 olar, getm\u0259!<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Bu \u00fc\u00e7 k\u0259lm\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey var idi, g\u0259l indi d\u00f6z!<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cX\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng olan qad\u0131nlar\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ham\u0131s\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yir\u201d &nbsp; Anam x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ngd\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra haram a\u011fr\u0131sa, el\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc m\u00fcayin\u0259 etdirm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 ehtiyat edir\u0259m. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, el\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":15003,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[54],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15001","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kos"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15001","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15001"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15001\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15004,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15001\/revisions\/15004"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/15003"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15001"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15001"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15001"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}