{"id":14615,"date":"2023-01-29T10:45:22","date_gmt":"2023-01-29T06:45:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=14615"},"modified":"2023-01-29T10:45:22","modified_gmt":"2023-01-29T06:45:22","slug":"sahin-m%c9%99n-g%c9%99lmis%c9%99m-b%c9%99s-s%c9%99n-ozun-hardasan-s%c9%99hid-xanimi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mecra.az\/?p=14615","title":{"rendered":"\u201c\u015eahin, m\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, b\u0259s, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn hardasan?\u201d – \u015e\u0259hid xan\u0131m\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"

Bu g\u00fcn \u015f\u0259hid, V\u0259t\u0259n M\u00fcharib\u0259si Q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 \u015eahin H\u00fcseynbala o\u011flu Allahyarovun ad g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr. 29 yanvar 1993-c\u00fc ild\u0259 anadan olan \u015eahin Allahyarov 44 g\u00fcnl\u00fck \u0130kinci Qaraba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259sind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0259hr\u0259manl\u0131qlar g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k \u015f\u0259had\u0259t\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259lib. D\u00f6vl\u0259t S\u0259rh\u0259d Xidm\u0259ti S\u0259rh\u0259d Qo\u015funlar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f giziri olan \u015eahin Allahyarov \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra \u201cV\u0259t\u0259n M\u00fcharib\u0259si Q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131\u201d, \u201cV\u0259t\u0259n u\u011frunda\u201d, \u201c\u015eu\u015fan\u0131n azad olunmas\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259\u201d v\u0259 \u201cXocav\u0259ndin azad olunmas\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259\u201d medallar\u0131 il\u0259 t\u0259ltif olunub.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259hidin xan\u0131m\u0131 K\u0259mal\u0259 Allahyarova bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay \u0259vv\u0259l \u015eahin Allahyarovun \u015f\u0259had\u0259t\u0259 qovu\u015fdu\u011fu \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 ziyar\u0259t edib.<\/p>\n

\u201cQafqazinfo\u201d \u015f\u0259hidin xan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n \u015eu\u015fa t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcratlar\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259qdim edir.<\/p>\n

Son bir ild\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 \u015eu\u015faya getm\u0259yi arzulam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Amma h\u0259m d\u0259, t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd edirdim. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 suallar verirdim: G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, o m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s m\u0259kana getm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131ramm\u0131?<\/p>\n

Bir anl\u0131q g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yumub \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc h\u0259l\u0259 yaln\u0131z televizorda, internetd\u0259ki videolarda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm s\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m qayalar\u0131n zirv\u0259sind\u0259, C\u0131d\u0131r d\u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259, \u0130sa bula\u011f\u0131nda t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edirdim. \u00dcr\u0259yim \u0259sirdi, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim dolurdu, q\u0259rib\u0259 bir h\u0259y\u0259can bas\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

\u015eu\u015fa m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259kc\u0259 Z\u0259f\u0259r tariximiz, Qaraba\u011f\u0131n incisi, m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s torpaq deyildi. \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn daha da m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n \u015f\u0259hidimin – h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m \u015eahin Allahyarovun son d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f \u00fcnvan\u0131, son n\u0259f\u0259sini verdiyi yer, \u015f\u0259had\u0259t\u0259 qovu\u015fdu\u011fu m\u0259kan olmas\u0131 idi. Y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m\u0131z, \u015f\u0259hidimiz kimi, m\u0259nim \u015eahinimin d\u0259 qan\u0131 bu m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s torpa\u011fa t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bilirdim, \u015eu\u015faya ayaq basanda \u015eahinin ruhu m\u0259ni qar\u015f\u0131layacaq, m\u0259ni salamlayacaq. Bunlar\u0131 x\u0259yal etdikc\u0259, daha \u00e7ox duy\u011fulan\u0131rd\u0131m, daha \u00e7ox h\u0259y\u0259canlan\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Aradan ke\u00e7\u0259n uzun zamandan sonra n\u0259hay\u0259t c\u0259sar\u0259timi toplay\u0131b, \u015eu\u015faya ged\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259 q\u0259rar verdim. G\u00fcn t\u0259yin olundu v\u0259 bizim Bak\u0131dan yola d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yimiz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259kan se\u00e7ildi. Bu m\u0259kandan \u015eu\u015faya yola d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 birl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n d\u0259 \u015eu\u015fa idi. M\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s m\u0259kana \u00fcz tutanlar \u015f\u0259hid ail\u0259l\u0259ri, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259zizini bu m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s \u015f\u0259h\u0259r u\u011frunda ged\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 \u015f\u0259hid vermi\u015f ail\u0259l\u0259r idi.<\/p>\n

Kimisi \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131, kimisi qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131, kimisi d\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u015f\u0259hid vermi\u015fdi. Bu g\u00fcn biz ham\u0131m\u0131z bu do\u011fma v\u0259 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s m\u0259kana \u0259ziz \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rimizin ruhunu salamlama\u011fa gedirdik. Onlar\u0131n nec\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckl\u0259rini, q\u0259hr\u0259manl\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131, \u015f\u0259had\u0259t\u0259 qovu\u015fma anlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259, hiss etm\u0259y\u0259 gedirdik.<\/p>\n

Biz h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131qca, sanki zaman ke\u00e7m\u0259k bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015f\u011faldan azad olunmu\u015f, erm\u0259nil\u0259rin viran qoydu\u011fu torpaqlara daxil olduqca, \u015eu\u015faya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131qca h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131m art\u0131rd\u0131. Da\u011fl\u0131, d\u0259r\u0259li, piyada ke\u00e7ilm\u0259si \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin olan bu torpaqlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fckc\u0259, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lirdim. Bizim saatlard\u0131r ma\u015f\u0131nla getdiyimiz v\u0259 bitm\u0259y\u0259n bu \u0259razil\u0259ri bizim \u0259zizl\u0259rimiz nec\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r? G\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 ac-susuz, yor\u011fun amma bir an bel\u0259 dayanmadan, g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259rin alt\u0131nda h\u0259r an \u00f6l\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini g\u00f6z\u0259 alaraq, bir add\u0131m bel\u0259 geriy\u0259 atmadan bu \u00e7\u0259tin relyefli \u0259razil\u0259ri nec\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdil\u0259r?<\/p>\n

Bu o\u011fullar nec\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir sevgiyl\u0259 bu V\u0259t\u0259ni sevirmi\u015fl\u0259r, \u0130lahi! H\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rimizin qan\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, h\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131 can, qan bahas\u0131na azad olunan bu torpaqlardan ke\u00e7dikc\u0259, \u015eahinin b\u00f6y\u00fck V\u0259t\u0259n sevgisini daha d\u0259rind\u0259n anlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram v\u0259 ona, \u015f\u0259hidiml\u0259 birg\u0259 bu torpaqlarda can\u0131ndan ke\u00e7mi\u015f igidl\u0259rimiz\u0259 heyranl\u0131\u011f\u0131m daha da art\u0131r. G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumub bir anl\u0131q burada ged\u0259n qanl\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri x\u0259yal etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram, x\u0259yal etdikl\u0259rim bel\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259tirir, tez g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i elan edir: \u015eu\u015faya yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r\u0131q! H\u0259y\u0259can\u0131m bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 art\u0131r, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim dolur. Q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r vaxt\u0131 \u015eahinin bir telefon z\u0259ngind\u0259 dediyi s\u00f6zl\u0259r yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr: \u201cQalib g\u0259l\u0259k, m\u00fcharib\u0259 qurtars\u0131n, s\u0259ni \u015eu\u015faya g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259m!\u201d.<\/p>\n

H\u0131\u00e7q\u0131rt\u0131 m\u0259ni bo\u011fur, h\u00f6nk\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m, birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc sakitl\u0259\u015fdirir\u0259m. \u015eu\u015faya daxil oluruq – 30 il h\u0259sr\u0259ti il\u0259 yan\u0131b-yax\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, \u015f\u0259nin\u0259 mahn\u0131lar, dastanlar yaz\u0131lan, s\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m qayalar\u0131 adam\u0131 vahim\u0259l\u0259ndir\u0259n, ya\u015f\u0131l me\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6z ox\u015fayan m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259. M\u0259nfur d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r darmada\u011f\u0131n ets\u0259 d\u0259, \u015eu\u015fa mahn\u0131larda, \u015feirl\u0259rd\u0259 deyildiyi kimi g\u00f6z\u0259ldir, \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tlidir, v\u00fcqarl\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u00d6z m\u00fcdrikliyind\u0259n birc\u0259 damc\u0131 da \u0259ksiltm\u0259yib, \u015f\u0259hid qan\u0131 daha da m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sl\u0259\u015fdirib bu g\u00f6z\u0259l diyar\u0131. Qaraba\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n C\u0259nn\u0259t diyar\u0131 \u015eu\u015fa! H\u0259r zaman kitablardan oxudu\u011fum \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 art\u0131q canl\u0131-canl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u0130\u015f\u011fal olundu\u011fu tarix m\u0259nim ya\u015f\u0131mdan bel\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Avtobus \u015eu\u015fan\u0131n dolambacl\u0131, \u0259srar\u0259ngiz k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini ke\u00e7\u0259r\u0259k, bizi \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n edil\u0259n \u0259raziy\u0259 do\u011fru apar\u0131r. Avtobusun p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n baxd\u0131qca, h\u0259r k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259, h\u0259r evin qap\u0131s\u0131nda m\u00fcharib\u0259nin izl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Burda d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259n Az\u0259rbaycan o\u011fullar\u0131 \u00f6z izl\u0259rini, imzalar\u0131n\u0131 qoyublar. Adlar, rayon adlar\u0131, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif r\u0259mzl\u0259r ham\u0131s\u0131 qanl\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n bir xatir\u0259dir, ham\u0131s\u0131 bir q\u0259hr\u0259manl\u0131q dastan\u0131d\u0131r. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n bu yaz\u0131n\u0131 yazanlar sa\u011fd\u0131rm\u0131, yoxsa onlar da \u015eahin kimi son n\u0259f\u0259sl\u0259rini bu torpaqda verib. Yen\u0259 h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m v\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131ram: \u201c\u015eahin, m\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, s\u0259n g\u0259tirm\u0259s\u0259n d\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcm g\u0259ldim. B\u0259s, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn hardasan, g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m ax\u0131 s\u0259ni??\u201d.<\/p>\n

Avtobus da\u011flar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fck qa\u015f\u0131 kimi d\u00f6vr\u0259y\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 C\u0131d\u0131r d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r. Burada bizi \u00fc\u00e7r\u0259ngli m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s \u015fanl\u0131 bayra\u011f\u0131m\u0131z v\u0259 bayra\u011f\u0131n ke\u015fiyind\u0259 dayanan igid Az\u0259rbaycan \u0259sg\u0259ri qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131r. M\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tlidir ki, ham\u0131m\u0131z heyr\u0259td\u0259n donub qal\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q burdayam-h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u015f\u0259hid verdiyim yerd\u0259y\u0259m. Aylard\u0131r arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m v\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00fcmidl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u0259ldiyim yer. Q\u0259rib\u0259 hissl\u0259r ke\u00e7irir\u0259m- \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzusuna \u00e7atm\u0131\u015f adam kimi sevincliy\u0259m, son \u00fcmidini itirmi\u015f adam kimi k\u0259d\u0259rliy\u0259m. Bir an m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, \u015eahin \u015eu\u015fan\u0131n s\u0259mas\u0131ndan m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131r, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 bir sevinc, h\u00fczur var. Sanki m\u0259nim d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q g\u0259ldi, sakitl\u0259\u015fdim.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, balalar\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, V\u0259t\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r zaman ya\u015fayacaqsan, \u015eahin! M\u0259n bilir\u0259m ki s\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u0259 V\u0259t\u0259nin ke\u015fiyind\u0259s\u0259n. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259ng\u0259rd\u0259 olmasan da, s\u0259madan qoruyursan V\u0259t\u0259nini!
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